<3 is an illusion

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don't rely on me.

A.O.Z.Y does not belong to here
no one can understand me, so don't bother to understand me then.
I'm utterly dead, and won't be revive.
no one is here to save.

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Amanda
nana :D
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my puppy

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Friday, April 2, 2010

i'm falling apart ever since..
i'm really speechless with everything
on my way home earlier on with amanda, told her a lot of things, she understand what i mean, and she did try to talk me out, but it's like if the thing had happened already, do you think anyone can make a change on it?
even i myself also can't do anything to change the fact.

i'm really very sick and tired of everything.
why am i always trying so hard to protect myself?
it's not i've never been hurt before, it's not like i've never been cheated before etc.
i don't deny that at times, i'm super dumb.
even i can't believe i'm actually so dumb.
but most of the time, i tried to cover up myself well, in order not to let myself to get hurt.
but what hurts the most?
i also have no idea.
be it family problems, friends problems, work problems or love problem.
i really have no idea what i'm doing now.
i'm just losing myself.
leaving me hanging alone on the edge of the cliff.
no one is able to pull me up from it.
so just leave me alone.

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