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Thursday, February 28, 2008

nw bloggin later goin to bbq liao..but nw e pro is nw is rainin veri big how r we goin to bbq....?lol... see how le ba..haha...goin to fly off soon le..to Thailand...my mood is happy n sad..y leh?sad is bcoz i will miss my frzs..tis few days e guys n gals sae will miss me..lol..like i fly liao den nt comin back..haha..but will still quite sad de ma..hehe...happy is bcoz i can buy lots lots of stuffs..haha.. i blog till here goin bbq liao...bye bye


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Tuesday, February 26, 2008

im flyin off soon liao..goin to thai soon...will b veri e miss my frzs..LOL..like i fly den 4eva nt comin back..goin tere to shop till shiok shiok..haha..goin to write a shop list b4 i go tere...nid to write e things tat i will confirm buy de..den e rest can slowly see see n choose whether goin to buy ma..but den hor gt 1 problem is tat i goin to thai later i grow fat back again...LOL..tere alot of stuffs r veri nice to eat...so nw in spore nid to quick quick go joggin..later blog finish i goin to jog liao...but anyway..tat time i went to medical check up i lose 1kg again..but tat one i was qutie surprise coz i nv exercise 4 ard 2wks yet i still can lose 1kg..n it was juz rite after CNY..ppl durin CNY will grow fat but i opposite...=P after back frm thai will b frequently goin to play tennis liao..wif my sis n her frzs...=)sch goin to start le..everyone oso same time..sld b ard april ba...?nw i shall don tink to much n study hard..play oso muz play hard..haha..but wont b tat time play till so jia lat..drink will still go drink...pool still play n mahjong too..den KTV too..haha..like nv cut down rite..?nah..wont cut down de...but den i noe 1 thing 4 sure will cut down...my WEIGHT... muz jia you jia you jian fei...=)my gfs all sae tat im nw more n more lady-like..izzit gd?hmm.. actually i oso dunno..but den i noe tat my manly side wont change..though gettin more n more lday doesnt mean anything..oh ya..after come back frm thai i will b gettin a new hair style..hmm.. e colour of my hair leh..i still dunno..still tinkin..haha..im nt gonna to hav back my long hair liao..long hair hor realli realli don suits me..mayb let down can la...but when tie up huh..realli realli veri nt nice..so itink i will all e way keep my short hair...den oso easy to dry cum easy to handle n style...haha..im gonna upload pics in here liao...realli veri long nv put pics in here..b4 goin to thai i will upload..den back frm thai will upload pics tat i took in thai..=) gtg..goin to jog liao..byebye..at nite come back blog again..haha.........


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Monday, February 25, 2008

tis few days something happened..but tis time is a HAPPY thing..though is onli 1 matter but tis can realli make me veri happy alr..coz i realli veri care abt tis matter..4yrs ago i lost contact wif someone tat is realli impt..but luckily...im realli veri glad tat he found me..in facebk, frzster n add me in msn..im oso findin him tis few yrs..howeva i had realli tried my veri best but i realli couldn't find him..but nw..he found me..OMG..im so happy tat i cant find any words to describle e feelins..alot of things changed after i lost contact wif him..which includes my temper n my character..i believe in his heart..he will still tink tat im e old zhiyun..like..someone who don care anything n b myself..but nw..i cant tink wat if i let him noe tat i hav totally changed ever since i lost contact wif him..how i lost contact wif him..?i bet everyone cant believe tis..4yrs ago he moved house,den he cal my pr house number...to tell e truth im realli veri happy coz he did fufill his promised to me tat once he moved into his new house he will cal me..n he did..n e 2nd day he came to pr n find me..we were walkin within pr frm 7plus till 10plus..tok alot of stuffs..n tat time we both were realli veri happy tat we were ac each other..he gave me his hp number, house new number n his address..at tat time i do nt hav paper wif me so i save everything in my hp msg draft..i din even memorise his number yet..after tat he send me hm n he went hm..e nxt i went to sch my hp was STOLEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!till here i tink u guys noe how i lost contact wif him le ba..e hp was lost n at tat time i was movin house..he din cal me after we met..n me..i cant even contact him..coz i din memorise his number..n how am i suppose to contact him..?so tis was how we lost contact...but nw..i swear i wont lose him anymore..i will cherish every sec wheneva i msn wif him n sms wif him..4 me..nw i can onli sae tat im veri bilssful tat we r keepin in touch nw..i hope tat nw everything will goes smoothly 4 me coz i had found him tis is like hintin me tat slowly everything will turns well eventually..=) story end..
my expo job end liao..wa seh..im so so happy..no need to see tat stupid metro ppl..oh ya..4days wrkin in expo i saw chee wee..he was wrkin tere too..under LEE jeans..while im in PAM.. one is in man's department another is in ladies' department..den we tok alot of things..lol..we were eatin snakes..haha..keep walk walk n tok tok..den tok abt sae play mahjong tgt n play pool tgt..but den hor nw he cannot contact me but i can contact him coz his line nw is e same as emily tat time..bein cut off liao..LOL..so wait till his line connect back den sae ba...hehe..wrk tere 4days get to noe new frzs..1 is Li Xing..she lives in yishun..same age wif me...den another one is Joe.. she's a gal..her english veri long so i cut short short..don tink is a guy hor..she lives in tampines.. both of them gt 1 pt is e same is tat both of them like to laugh..esp Joe..wheneva i tok to her my lips cant close up..coz i was laughin..e ppl tere i almost noe r gals..coz i wrk in ladies' department ma..but if sae we gt exchange number de onli 2 of them..Li Xing hmm..mayb i can sae tat she is a gd gal ba..i cant words to describle yet..when i tink of it i will blog again...haha..but den i gt yue her come my house play play mahjong..but she gt sae don wan see chee wee..coz he gt gold hair..haha...LOL...k la blog till here 1st..nxt time den blog again..nite nite sweet dreams everyone..=)


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Friday, February 22, 2008

tis few days wrkin in expo my mood is damn fuckin bad..tis n tat sone stuff happen...nt sae i don like to wrk or e journey to there is far..is damn fuckin hell....ah ya i dunno how to sae la..den 1st day of wrk e stupid metro ZHONG GUO MEI(CHINA GIRL) damn sickenin fuck up....!!!!!!!!!! nt my pro oso sae my pro..kanina.......wa lao..my mind nw r install wif alot alot of bad words or mayb i sld sae alot of words i wan2 scold out..don tok abt tis stuff le la...
den after tis matter another matter happen again..in e train tt stupid couple is veri veri stupid n veri veri fuck up too..tis is nt impt..juz wan2 sae they r damn fuck up
den after e train another matter happen again..i dunno y huh alot of bad things LOVE to come n find me..tat's realli make my mood DROP TO E BOTTOM OF E WELL...how hurtful is e matter i tink frm e sentence i type i tink u will noe it...i haven tell cy yet coz her hp she haven recover yet..till nw onli wawa noe it..i dunno y some stuffs r nt meant to say yet it will juz keep repeatin itself like a RECORDER..do u realli wan2 see how i lose my temper?or do u wan2 see when i lose my temper i can do anything like...(onli cy noe wat i mean)??
sometime i find myself oso veri fuck up too..fuck up here n there..wat's e pt?but who can i tok to..?cy or wawa?cy oso hav some stuffs been botherin her 4 a long time..of coz i myself too..wat's e pt to add up her worries?or wat?we shall exchange our problems by sayin wat had happened n wat is goin on..?though it is a veri gd way tat ppl sae if someone is troubled,sae nth but stay at e side to listen wat e person is tryin to sae..i agree with tis sentence..but wat's e pt to sae out when both e ppl r troubled?isnt it funny..?wawa leh..she do giv me advices but which i wont listen to it..yes i can listen but tis doesnt mean i will do wat like e advices..wat is e most hardest thing to do in tis earth?can u guess it?i can..human-being is e hardest thing to do..if u agree with tat mean u deny wat another person sae n u will hurt tat person's feelin..is it veri hard to b a person tat u urself wanted to?or to b a person who others ask u to b?ACT?????i realli dunno..when i sort out of my mind i will blog in here again..good nite guys...


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Friday, February 15, 2008

today whole day stay at hm...sick sick sick..so long liao still haven ok...juz nw on e phone wif wawa..tok abt my sore eye..stupid man..i nv gt a sore eye b4..nw get it..damm xin gu..e tears will juz keep drop de..den i oso keep put e eye drop to ease e pain..but den still can feel my eye swollen swollen de..but my eye is nt so red anymore..ytd went to jessica's house bai nian..den play cards n mahjong..total win $40+..hehe..i use e money to buy a shirt..cost at $19 onli..e shirt actually is $53 de..den is final sales den it is discount till $19..haha..i save alot..wahahaha..e shirt veri nice..easy to match wif my bottom..gettin a vest soon..hmm..sld go cotton on buy de..nice n simple vest..oh ya..i watched 'Jumper' alr..veri nice..e male lead is handsome, female lead is pretty..guys out there readin my blog can watch..ytd valentine's day went to watch..full house.. lol...den all e couples r comin in..luckily we 4 gals go watch tgt..so we act..haha..2 by 2..like couple.. haha..funny rite..?ok la..haha..play play ma..tis few days happened alot of things..y huh?i like always alot of things happened de leh...weired weird de..can nth will happen again...?i hope too..e day b4 bai nian, i was on e phone wif wenwen..tok abt studies n of coz as usual gossip abt ppl..haha..lots of things..wen n i quite long nv tok on phone alr..e last day we met was on xin's birhtday till ytd den we see each other again..den i oso told her i changed liao..change as in..?hav to see 4 urself den u will noe..den ytd at aunty's house oso tok alot...esp abt e edison's news..haha..all of us r veri san ba..LOL..i realised tat i had nv upload pics here 4 a veri long time..nxt time den straight upload lots of pics ba..ok la..write to here..dunno wat to write liao..

如果你愿意一层一层一层 的剥开我的心 你会发现 你会讶异 你是我 最压抑 最深处的秘密 如果你愿意一层一层一层 的剥开我的心 你会鼻酸 你会流泪 只要你能 听到我 看到我的全心全意

你的好 我从前怎麽看不到 看不到 总以为爱在天涯海角 回头却在你温柔里找到 渴望被你拥抱 可以爱你多好 我会有多重要 因为有你才知道 究竟 要转多少次那生命的转角 才感觉到 爱情真的来到 Only one Only Love You're everything I care 把全世界放掉又有什麽重要 Only one Only Love You're the only one I love 现在只想听到你亲口再说一声好...i can onli sae tat nw my mood is like tis..messy till like hell..i myself oso veri messy...


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Saturday, February 9, 2008

CNY eve i eat wif my family at hm..den after tt da jiefu n dajie come here eat too..den after tt play mahjong..play till all of us veri tired...den dajiefu's didi come to our house to wif his wife n daughter,huien....so so cute..huien so cute..nt scare of strangers..nt scare of junior..everyone were carryin her..so cute..den my 3rd sis bring her to my room n sit on my bed..huien sits like she's a queen..haha..den play wif my Mr.Cow..niu xian sheng..tis is how my 2nd sis n me cal my softtoy..funny rite..?haha..she like niu xian sheng..haha..keep hold e hand..n laugh n laugh...i gt take pics of huien..can go to my frzster see see if i had uploaded..(time-being havent yet..=p) den after eve,e 1st day of CNY my whole family go see e ahlong show..Lao shi jia Lao da...haha..realli veri veri funny..i laughed till e popcorn like half pack gone..coz i laughed till i bu xiao xin hit e popcorn den fly off..den my 2nd sis laugh at me..but e show is damn funny..veri funny..den after e show we go pray pray..at sbw there..den after tt we go hm..den arf 8pm go out again..go to joo chiat pub..sing n drink..funny rite?i sick i still can sing..pro ma..wahahaha...tat's y i sing till i nw no voice..den sing sing drink drink like tis ard 2am den reach hm..slp ard at 3..but no use.. wheneva i drink i wont manage to slp..ard 8plus i wake up..cannot go back to slp though i lyin on my bed..den chu er go my aunt's house..talk talk play play..ard 8pm den start eatin..eat le i go out..my 2nd sis bf drive me to my frz's house den go up play cards..den after tt go cy house sit sit tok tok..haha..veri "early" den slp..den ard 9am wake up..nid to go pray pray..den go hm i slp slp slp till ard 5plus...coz nt enough slp ma..dne go hm straight slp..tml goin out again..haha...k la write to here 1st...will update again..=)


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nw at cy house again..funny rite..?at her house blog..my house i can blog but i nv blog..lol..wat is tis man?haha..CNY le...so happy...many many ang baos can collect..actually tis yr CNY is e yr im most happy wif..but still gt a few things hangin on me..which coz me realli cannot enjoy CNY..don care la..play 1st more impt..wahahaha.....gamble gamble n collectin ang bao..hehe...tis yr i finally no need to do something tat i felt veri sorri n guilty..something tat will prick deep into my heart..i would wan2 sae sorri..but does it matter?after all u cant treat tis nv happen..u sae im like tat but do u ever tink y im like tat?who had coz me to change into another person tat i myself oso dunno?funny rite..?of coz i don deny i had changed alot bcoz of u..but i wont deny everything wat u had done or mayb sld i sae wat i had done..juz end it here ba..tis matter had been draggin 4 mths n mths...juz end it ba...STORY END
goin to bai nian tis few days..bz bai nian..wahahahaha...tis means more n more ang bao comin to me...LOL..wat is tis man?tink too much le la...CNY muz b fun..free n easy..CNY is where we all gather n tok tok old stories n eat lots n lots of bak kwa..haha...but den hor..b4 CNY i sick liao..gettin worse n worse....sore troat n flu..n fever..?chu yi i go pub..chu er go gamble liao..i noe y gettin worse..drink of coz will worse la...den like nv slp enough..ah ya..me huh..slp 4eva cannot enough de la..LOL...k la..write to here 1st..update again..


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Saturday, February 2, 2008

bloggin again..hmm..actually ytd i gt blog de..but den half way when to tok to cy on phone den to distract liao..so blog half way i juz close it..so tring leh..i was msn wif frz den tok on phone den blog..too many things on hands..cannot..will b veri messy..n distracted..so toda come in blog lor.. actually ytd mood veri bad...coz i hav been avoidin someone so obvious but i dunno y tt person juz simply lov to come n bother me..?SHIT!!!!!!!isn't it so obvious tt i had stop contactin u?like goin to b 1 or 2 mths??u wan play wif me im welcome..i pay u back 10times how u play wif me..u nooe me inside out yet u r still doin like tis..thus i shall realli send u an card n announce tt tis "WAR" had started..if u wan2 end it..i tell u i wont end it..coz u trigger my line..i will b e one who sae stop..n when will i stop i tell u in here i wont stop coz tis time my TEMPER is back.. PARTICULARLY TO U. u noe how "crazy" i will go to e extent, u saw it, u knew it, u had tasted it...n since u wan2 play wif me y nt?since im veri free too..trust me,believe me, i will honour my words to u.STORY END HERE
ok tis few days i hav been shoppin n shoppin..burn a veri veri big hole in my pocket..or sld i sae burn in my wallet?nvm la..is e same de la..BIG BIG hole..lol..n alot of stuffs happened..nt onli me..my frz too..haiz..actually im still thinkin abt e matter tt time i had blogged at here..my feelins r still in e mess..mess n mess..n gettin messy... tml den update e rest..till here 1st


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