gonna be super down soon
anyway, i'm real down now =\

F1 is super duper BUSY
i have nothing to comment about this
it's a worldwide thingy that everyone know how F1 FREAKING BUSY =\
LOL

let me recall for the past few weeks what i had done
1st: F1 starts
2nd: everyday send kiddo back
3rd: running everyday

ETC ETC ETC

as i'm sick, so i have the priority to forget what i had done for the past few weeks =\
my voice changed, flu is getting worse -.-"

got to know a lot of new friends more F1
weijie( my partner in F1 )
zion, wei jian, joesph, damien etc
a lot till i can't remember all the names =\
PSPS

F1 gonna end REAL SOOOOON
I mean real real sooooon
time files fast

to or not to?
i also don't know

eitheroneonlyucantenjoyboth
ifuchosenttohurt***,itmeansuchosetohurt**
thenjuzsaybye

♥ 12:49 AM

working for F1 is freaking tire
exactly the same is like last year, but this year do not need to move the things by ourselves but don't know why so damm freaking tire -.-"

anyway, i'm so so busy for the whole period of september
so guys, sorry huh, did not go for the gathering and outing
and the most important, Qi's birthday chalet at PR
so so sorry
i'm not there but present will be still at there
LOL

p.s.imreallirealliveriafraidtatuwilleaveme.thoughusaiduwillbtereforyabt...

<3

♥ 12:53 AM

keep it short and simple
keep it clear and simple

things that are meant to happen
just let it happen

fighting/agruing over it
.pointless.
just make up your mind what you really want
follow your heart and it will lead the way

but too bad
it's a waste because.....

keepingquietisagoodwaytosolveit
enjoythequietmomentsthen
soonitwillover

♥ 12:06 AM

F1 starts now
not gonna blog for a super long time
it's tiring as usual

nothg much to blog about it
will update when i'm done with F1

- stuck with the same old nightmare -
- there is only black -

if you think by lying, you can get away from it
i doubt so
why can't just make up the mind?
making everyone so miserable
it's not a nice feeling

so now, let me to play the bad guy
i'm used to it playing the bad guy
to put down, the process is so miserable
but once the process is over, is back to normal life again

so ya, i will be the bad guy for the 1st and last time in front of you.
so just let go.

♥ 11:45 PM

i'm anson's frz, R.X
sumting had happened to her
i can say tat i hav nv seen her behave in tis way
switch off her hp almost e whole day
nv reply msg or pick up cal
n e worse part is tat she did nt even check her hp after she switch it on

so if u r her frzs,i believe u can estimate urself e matter tat falls on her is real big
i'm glad i'm able to find u even though u switch off ur hp n din even pick up my cal n din even reply my msg

i realli took a long time b4 i found u at e place where u usually hide
lucky u're fine
if nt i realli hav no idea how to explain to ur family wat has happen to u
when i found her, she's cryin
anson is nt a person who cry so easily
n esp cryin in front of her own frzs
bt tdy she cried.
tearin nonstop, no matter how hard i tried, she's stil cryin.
i realli hate e person who hurt her so much
tis is e 2nd time e person bastard her 2times
n thxs to u, nw she's back to 7yrs ago how she behaves
same person bastard her 2times in a yr
wat e fuck.

i noe out tere, tere r alot of ppl care for her
bt i can onli say, tis matter realli hits on her
i will apologise on her behalf to those ppl tat she nv reply msg or nv pick up e cal
she din do it on purpose etc
can any1 juz protect her n kip her away frm all these?
she may look strong n tough,but she's nt
she behave tis way bcoz she do nt wan to b hurt by any1
bt still,she's hurt again
i realli duwan her to behave how she is 7yrs ago
trust me,u wldn't wan her to b
i hav seen 7yrs ago how she behaved
i noe she will blame me for typin tis matter out but i hav no choice
i do nt wan to see u how u were in 7yrs ago

i've been through all e hardships wif u, i noe u will b crawlin back to e past
bt i do nt wan to see u crawlin back
R.X's gang do nt wan to see u become like tat

so pls ppl who r readin her blog, pls do help her wateva u can.
i will b veri grateful to u all.

♥ 1:34 AM

i hav nv see dumb dumb so down like tdy
dumb dumb, i hope u wil feel better by tml
i noe u do nt wan to come in n blog bcoz u don hav e mood

dumb, i noe u r feelin veri bad nw
bt its aint ur decision
u cant blame urself k?

noworries.

♥ 10:07 PM

okay,i'm the bad guy
happy?

I'M SERIOUSLY SCREWED NOW
I MEAN IT
SCREWED UP
EVERYTHING

I HAVE NEVER EVER HAVE THIS FEELING BEFORE
I MEAN IT

DON'T ASK ME WHAT HAD HAPPENED BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW HOW TO SAY.



life is always not what you want
people changed for the better
and aim high

anyway, i'm seriously not in a good mood now
i'm screwed.

♥ 9:10 PM

I'M FUCKING PISS OFF NOW
I MEAN IT

♥ 8:56 PM

with the more free time i am having now, i can even spend more time on other stuffs
though i'm still busy busy busy, ( LOL ) but i still manage to spend my time wisely.
i think?
haha
today gonna go back school for parent's visit etc
blog awhile before i go out (=

- wednesday -
went to pick kiddo up, and we went to cine together to meet up with amanda and maisy
celeste was late due to...
we went to buy the movie tickets, Bandslam

met up with celeste and we had our lunch at Pastamania
after which, went to the threate for our show =]

the show might be a very lame and funny show
but it makes me think a lot
a show full of meanings in it =]

after the show, i realised a lot of things, or rather not a lot, but at least a few
after the show, we went to Heeren
walkseewalkseewalkseewalksee

after that, went to Swensen for the ice cream buffet =]
ordered fries for additional side
due to ............
okay, it's me who want to eat =]

the ice cream buffet is still okay okay, but i still prefer cold rock :D
after that, went to borders to do a movie
and a lot of funny things happened
amanda and i can't stop laughing, too bad, the others weren't there
i bet they will laugh at us too

went they are back, mucn more funny things happened
amanda's lappy ran out of batt -.-"
we almost almost can save it, but that 1 and only second, the program is not responding
and the lappy just auto turn off -.-"

not save at all =/
re-do again
not all, but part of the movie LOL

after that, they went back home
while me, kiddo and celeste went to have our dinner at lucky plaza
my favourite place =]

after dinner, trained back home, we took the rebounce train =]
celeste and kiddo keep laughing in the train because etc etc
it's not very good to blog what they are laughing about in my blog =/
so you guys can tell what we were talking huh
something not very clean =/
LOL

alight the train with kiddo and sent kiddo back home
and i made my way back after that

okay, i shall go prepare now before i leave my place =]

shall update soon~~~

♥ 11:54 AM

i'm so not in the mood now, wanna blog about what i do today
so just forget it.

♥ 12:38 AM

just wanna blog about the last day of ITE school life
today, the last day of our paper
full of repeated questions and answers
well, it's just a screwed up paper, though we did manage to finish everything


let's recall the past 1 1/2 year of my life in ITE.
ever since i got into ITE, my life practically changed everything
even my friends find it so unbelievable that ITE had changed me a lot =)
well, i think the same as them, it changed me.


i was once a bad student, everyday would not go to school but playing with my friends
resulting me to fail my "N" & "O" level
and i ended up in ITE
the school that i never ever thought that i will be in.


College West,Clementi ITE, Food & Beverage Operations.
i made new friends and i learnt new things
i made a lot of friends, and of course there are bad things happened too.


quarrels, fights ( not in school ), and R/S
bad things come after one another
but at least now, is over =)
sunshine after rain =)


and my class, FR, did let me think a lot
be it friendship, love or kinship
the most that i think a lot is friendship and love
not R/S that kind of love =)

friendship: it seems so fragile, you can break it so easily without knowingly
you might want to mend it, but there is a crack in it no matter what.
you might find that the whole thing is like a drama show or even like a movie
but it's happening in the reality -.-"
anyway, the whole thing had put a full stop on it already, thus no point mention it in here

R/S: it's like a smoke
get what i mean?
i only can say it's like a smoke
it disperses in a second and get together the next second
i can't phrase it well in here, so i will just type till here then

now i have the free time in the world, i can do what i want to do
so guys, i'm just gonna stop blogging for now
i might just pop by and blog a few sentence

- F1 starts on Sept 14 ends at Oct 2 -
i'm so not free anymore
soon, i will fly off to NZ
soon, i will be leaving
soon, i will not be here
soon, i'm gone for good
soon, i'm not the one you know
soon, i'm not the one .....

bye guys.

♥ 8:11 PM

so tire -.-
just got home, not in a very good mood to blog
so gonna blog a short post then

went to school for MPC exam
can pass but not with super high marks
then after that went to Marina Square with kiddo, amanda, maisy, celeste & fang
ate Mac
then followed by a movie =)
IDIOT AMANDA PNG, left us lor
left with only maisy, kiddo and myself
we watched G-Force
overall, i will rate this show 4/10
though this show is funny and cool
but it's boring, it's not what i expect =/

after which, went to eat for dinner
-interrupted-
maisy is damm funny
and kiddo keep teasing her
maisy is in need of the toilet
thus kiddo ask her to run
and everyone start to laugh
because the moment she runs, you know what i mean

after that, maisy went off 1st
left me and kiddo
we went to have our dinner at Just Noodle
as usual, sent her back before i went home

amanda message me, damm it
scolded me for nothing =(
what the hell =/
it's not my fault,okay?

i'm freaking tire
byebye

♥ 10:09 PM

- saturday -
met up with maisy at 9am -.-"
damm bloody early
i did not sleep at all =/
got home kinda of late before saturday

anyway, in the train, maisy and i were studying okay?
MPC
study till don't know which station, we stopped.
too tire =/

train-ed all the way to Tanjong Pagar
walked out from exit D and then walked straight
ar huh, my wife is a person with no sense of direction
email the instructions how to get to M hotel, but in the end is the wrong instruction =/
morning and messaged me again to tell me how to walk to there
LOL

got there safely and we are not late =)
M hotel though is not very big and famous, but everything is nice
quite a lot of people were there
at least i know most of them =)

and i got to know the new members =)
all very young, makes me feel so old
P.S: i'm old =/

we started of with playing maths
LOL
is a ascending order game
a game where you need to get phone numbers
hehehehehehehehe
then birthday number again
now i know who is the oldest in the Youth Wing =/
and the youngest one too =)

Yu Yue, the new friend i made in FBMA, due to KahWee
LOL
i asked him to make friend with her, then he pushed me to go and make friend her -.-"
i shy leh ><"
but anyway, i did manage to make friend with her
and i pulled maisy to go along with me
hehehehehe
both of us agreed that she look the femininely side of Samantha
LOL
she's a girl who is so so tall
but i'm still taller then her :D
oh my god, what's wrong with the girls that are so tall nowadays?
i'm gonna grow taller again, i don't care. O.O"

then have our lunch, my wife took over my sofa sit ><
causing me no place to sit =/
so i accompanied Sopheary, and i took over KahWee's place
wahahaha
oh ya, it was Alex's birthday, and we sang Happy Birthday song for him
and we ate his cake
chocolate cake, from Furama Hotel =)
nice cake

after lunch, we went back to the room, and starts to break into our group
i'm in my wife's group
haha
maisy asked her whether if can put her with me, my wife don't allow
that's too bad =/
starts playing games in another room
Lens is in mine group
the games we played are super funny

the ultimate loser have to do forfeit =/
a very disgusting forfeit
total there are 3 loser in mine group
i'm so happy to say that i'm one of them
Xavier and Oliver too
and my wife saved me from the forfeit
i'm the lucky fellow =)

so after everything, we went back to the main room
each group's losers have to come up
and the damm disgusting forfeit starts -.-"
have to squeeze the mashmallow inside to the mouth and say a sentence
Alan lost to a girl
the winner for the forfeit is a girl
Sarah, Yu Yue, Maisy and myself can't help to laugh
damm disgusting

after the forfeit, we played the last game
drinking water -.-"
my group won
LOL
we drank super fast
and i even helped my wife to drink ><
so full

then we have our debrief and off we go
Yu Yue, Maisy and i walked together to the station
and Justin suddenly pop up behind us
sacre us
or rather, maisy got super frightened O.O"
LOL
so all of us went to the station together

that's the end of FBMA event

i went to yess centre
met up with my mates
okay, got to know a new friend again, Mable
if i got her name correct =)
we went to eat Korean Cuisine
the real one
6 of us
ate till $376.80
don't ask me how we eat till this amount
because i have no idea at all
LOL
and celebrate Jeffery's birthday
okay, i ate 2 cake in a day
and both are chocolate cake
but i prefer Jeffery's brithday cake
because it's from Secret Recipe
it's banana chocolate cake
it's awesome ^^V
we ate from 6pm to 9pm
then went to Vivo City
walkseewalkseewalksee
ended up in Daiso
bought quite a number of stuffs O.O"
and we sent Mable off before we train-ed back home
3 of us fell asleep in the train
we can't help it
it's a super long day for us
or rather for me =/
when i woke up before they alight, they told me my eyes are super super red O.O"
guess i've been not sleeping for a long time already

anyway, that's all for my saturday =)

♥ 12:34 PM

shall update again when i'm not tire
i'm super duper X 10000000000000000000000000000 times TIRED!

just got home
had a super long day
a fun and great day i ever had
i swear!

thanks guys, for making my day so BRIGHT
muacks muacks muacks!
wahahahahahahahaha

okay, shall end here then
i need to go shower and starts packing my things again
oh my god!
exams is coming in another 1 day more
i still left with a few chapters to go
bloody hell -.-"
need to study
okay okay, shall end here. =/

♥ 12:03 AM

i'm seriously mean it, it's hard
it's really really very hard
i have nothing much to comment

i'm getting quieter as days passed
i'm a boring person
i'm tearing apart
i'm being abandoned
i'm being thrown away
i'm walking back to the old memories again
i've fallen into the same old nightmare again
i've closed the door again

key was passed to you once, but you did not know how to use it
and you accidentally threw it away without knowing it
and now it's lost, you can't find the key
and i have no spare key anymore
so it will just lock up for the rest of the time
no more keys to open it up
and i can't get a locksmith to change it
it's a unique lock, no one can change it and no one can open it now
thanks for throwing the key away without knowing it.

♥ 2:01 AM

- stories we were talking about when we are eating -

1st: why do guys are so irresponsible after got their girlfriend to be pregnant?
2nd: why do girls wanna go abortion just because of their boyfriends say so?
3rd: people with HIV are FCUKING IRRESPONSIBLE!
4th: guys who are still virgin, they are more ..... ( yan said so )
5th: girls are always loser in R/S no matter what
6th: girls are dumb in R/S ( yan said so )
7th: girls are so naive in R/S

there are a lot more that we said
but i only can remember a few -.-"

anyway, we were talking a lot of things just now
why do guys are so irresponsible? they get their girlfriends pregnant and ask them to abort the baby?
isn't baby is a life?
it's still a life
what the fcuk that they can do it?
it's their own flesh
growing bigger and bigger as days passed
but they still choose to abort it

MJ was telling us, working in hospital, she could see youngsters come here to abort their own child, and the worse part is that, they do not want to claim their own child and leave it to the hospital to burn it off
if they wanna abort it, shouldn't they should claim the baby's body and get a proper burial?
and give a name
they just leave it in the hopsital and leave the hospital to settle the behind parts
do they know that, by doing that, their child is burned together with others' child too?
is like all baby's body are gonna burned together
they are just FCUKING HEARTLESS PEOPLE
i'm so piss off with these kind of people!

girls are so dumb and stupid that they believe every words what their boyfriends say
perhaps not all dumb but majority are dumb

that's why i chose girls over guys
but in the end, it still hurts
anyway, get back to the topic again ^^V

girls think that by having sex with guys, they can tie them down
but is No
guys will never have enough fun forever

when a guy reaches 60, so long he's rich, he could easily get a young lady to be with him
but what about a woman?
when a woman reaches 60, she could not find a younger guy
this makes a difference between a guy & woman
anyway, i don't want to talk about this anymore
i'm just piss off with these kind of matters and the people.

♥ 1:31 AM

just got home, and i'm here to blog before i go off again
school was rather okay today
nothing to do at all, except the part of the so called quiz -.-"

ended school around 2pm plus plus
went to marina square for lunch with kiddo
wanted to watch movie, but the movie we want to watch, no timing
no timing means no slots for the show at all =/
so ended up only lunch
Pizza Hut
we ate REAL A LOT O.O"
i think?
LOL
walkseewalksee
saw kiddo's friend,mmhmm, a pretty girl =)
sent kiddo to station
did not send kiddo back home today :(
next time then :)


met up with my mates
i waited for 2hours
OH MY GOD -.-"
because the driver drive to slow to suntec
tsktsktsk
the driver is my friend who live just a few blocks away from me
LOL
went to Just Noodle as they said earlier on
settled our dinner there
P.S: the food is nice & cheap.is not a restaurant with low standard
i will go back there to eat again :)


then went to Marina Square, as WR wanna buy shoe from 4skin
the shoe is what amanda and i wants it!
oh my god, i'm gonna steal WR's shoe
wahahahahaha!

as we were walking around, we saw Yueting
wao...it's been a long time that i have never seen her
big changes!
or rather, both of us changed a lot
LOL


MJ said go Double O
but too bad, out of 8 people, only 3 are okay with it
so cancelled the trip and make our way down to whatever road
i don't really remember
just to eat bean curd :D
nice one


and this is when we really starts talking about story
anyway, we said gonna go have BIG FUN in the club before i fly off =)

♥ 1:16 AM

today, went to SAF open house
well, overall was boring, except the show
it's cool =)

did took some pictures, but not gonna upload in here but in facebook
but not now, as my adaptor is not with me O.O"
LOL
everything ended around 1pm
then went to Plaza Sing with kiddo
ate MFM for our lunch
kiddo ate a lot -.-"
but actually is still okay okay
kiddo gonna eat a lot before i fly to NZ
but that's only between $50++
as i owe kiddo

after lunch, met up with Hans settled some stuffs
was fast huh, within 5 minutes i think O.O"
then went to GV, watched I <3 You, Beth Cooper
it's a funny and nice show
i think the whole theatre kiddo and i laughed the loudest, etc.

i will rate this show 8/10
this show makes you think a lot
at least to me
the sentence is meaningful
at least at that point of time, it strikes me something

after the movie, went to Yoshinoya for dinner
and guess who i saw?
C.M.C.Y
LOL
she was like O.O
and i was like O.O
and kiddo was laughing?
LOL
the process is damm funny and complicated, so i won't blog much about it
but C.Y, when you said that thing to me, i wanna tell you is No
but you left so so fast -.-"
so i did not manage to tell you
anyway, it's no
no worries =)

after that, sent kiddo back home and i went home
on the way home, i saw a lot of people i know
so shy can?
it was like 10 thousand years never see each other
then now see each other like weird weird, though we just give each other a friendly smile
LOL

♥ 11:10 PM

No more questions but answers only
No more asking but statements only

this is what i intend to do
now i can answer you the question,"yes, it's hard"
get it?

fool me once, shame on you, shame me twice, shame on me

this sentence is still in my mind
and it won't get out of it
because you have SERIOUSLY HURT ME

the reason why i use green colour is because something went wrong after i change the words to red colour >___________<"

pardon me, if my blog is hard to read
ain't my fault, but the blogger's fault =/

so ya, i decided to be like that then
so ya.

the feeling of trust is not gonna be retrieve anymore no matter what
so ya, i'm not gonna do anything.

it's too tiring for the wound
to heal and gets hurt again
it's just gonna be a cycle
so i decided to close up the door.
so ya, shall end this as my last post and continue my normal daily life updates.

♥ 10:27 PM

- monday -
went to school like 8plus in the morning
just to decorate our restaurant
teacher's day
okay, we ate the food before them!
oh my god ><
but overall, it turns out well, though paul was shouting at us O.O"


especially the banner we made :D
the lecturers said that this is the best teacher's day best ever they had ^^V
okay, when talking about the banner, i can't help to laugh, because it is damm freaking funny when we hang at the wall, which is super high, that amanda and myself can't even reach it
so we had to stand on the chair in order to reach the top :D
so we rolled up the banner, and we placed 2 chairs behind the wall, so later we could stand on it and roll the banner down

but but who knows, someone took our chairs, which makes us left we no chair at all
so amanda and i starts to get panic, just to search 1 freaking chair
anyway, we did manage to get one
thanks to Delon =)

here comes the problem again, with one chair, how am i suppose to share with amanda?
when we need to reach 3 side of the wall just to roll the banner down O.O"
so we placed the chair in the middle of the wall, and both of us standing on the chair with 1 leg only, as our hands are long enough, so we are able to reach the end-side of the wall
wahahaha
amanda and i can't stop laughing is because both of us keep standing and our hands are so tire, as we took out the scotch tape and use our hand to hold onto the banner
thanks to Eric, talk soooooooooooo slow, causing both of us stand so LONG >x<

i keep put the scotch tape onto amanda's arm, and she did not realise, when she saw it
she starts laughing, and the problem is i don't even know why she's laughing, because it's just a scotch tape =/
laugh like hell. LOL

then after eveything, we start packing up
we took super long time to pack up
because we took tons of pictures
but not only because of that, quite a lot of things cropped up while we were cleaning up
so we took almost 2hours to pack up. LOL
LONG RIGHT?
it's so unbelievable lor -.-"

then after that, went to Holland. V
met up with kiddo
kiddo said that gonna eat up till $101
because kiddo waited for me 101 minutes
LOL
anyway, kiddo ate till $52+
and kiddo said that still left over $50++
LOL
then i said to kiddo that, eat all you want before i fly.....~~~
fly fly fly
LOL
after dinner, went to Cold Rock
kiddo starts to play a game, Hangman =/

i'm smart okay?
haha, i took quite a short time before i solved it all
except the last one
then, i gave kiddo 2 questions only
but kiddo took...hmm ermm..long time
the most funniest part is kiddo actually said the answer 3 times out already but kiddo did not realised that is the answer O.O"
till i keep laughing, kiddo then realised.
HAHA
then send kiddo back, before i head back home

♥ 8:09 PM

once tried, once given and now is.......

- What Hurts The Most -
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it overI would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

i won't say anything, i won't do anything
it's pointless to say or do anything

whatever you say or do, it's meaningless
because we are nothing compare to the others
there's nothing else i can say

i will just keep quiet like what i had messaged you that day
but i doubt you will know.

♥ 10:46 AM

fool me once, shame on you, shame me twice, shame on me

this sentence has been constantly appearing in my mind
one day, two day, three day.....
continuously, repeating days
causing my head to be so pain and spinning like hell

i'm getting quiet and quieter as days pass
why?
i don't know
i don't know

why does it hurt so so much?
this hurt is even worse than my <3 had given me before
why?

apparently, everything are false
the feeling of trust, i can't find it anymore
not in my body and not in my heart
i'm idiot, i'm dumb, i'm stupid
thanks

perhaps you are right, it's hard
perhaps i'm wrong, it's easy

this is what i thought at first, it is easy
but it turns out not to be

is it really very hard?
ya i think so
sometimes, i would asked myself, is it hard?
or is it really unable to do so?

i did try my best before
but it turns out to be a hurtful memory

so ya.
i guess, i'm just gonna hide myself up.
so ya
thanks once again
for pushing me back to the edge leaving me all alone behind facing the dark again.

nothing can salvage the mess you had create, so ya
just say bye bye if you have the courage to do it

♥ 12:17 AM