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Tuesday, April 29, 2008

oh my tian..im super sick....~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~everyone like fall sick le...quite a few in my class r sick..my fever like..up den down den up again..wat is tis man..?playin with temp..?LOL... stupid.......don care la.....
angela's brithday is comin le..she is goin to celebrate in Blue..with lots of ppl...but den hor i will onli noe emily,angela n e waitresses at there..LOL...sld i go..?will ask cy see if she wan2 go ma..if wan den go tgt..if don wan..hmm..no choice im oso nt goin..haha..anyway i oso quite long nv see cy liao..sld b wks le ba..?goin to b a mth..?mayb..haha..but of coz still gt talk phone..today i oso cal wawa..she sae she miss my msg..she feels weird if i nv msg her...LOL....sound WEIRD..haha...den when today cal her, e 1st sentence she sae was..bz wif ur gals huh....?LOL..stupid PIG..where gt alot of gals to bz wif..?but i don deny i realli hav alot of gals frzs..haha..no choice..my nu ren yuan too gd liao..guys oso..but they r gays..of coz normal de guys frzs i oso hav la..i tink sat im wrkin.. den sun gonna goin to IMM...shit man..im realli goin to ues up all my energy b4 my sick is ok.. don care la......blah blah blah......~~~~~~~~~~~~~


6:59 PM


Sunday, April 27, 2008

nw bloggin b4 i go to wrk......im SUPER TIRED...oh my god..so tired man..ytd mornin 8plus wake up den go wrk..den after wrk meet maisy, emi n hyri go watch movie....~~~watch till 10pm den maisy go hm...den left 3 of us..~~~~~hangin ard till 11plus den go hm..one can sae 1 word.. TIRED....den go back hm i still cannot slp..talk on phone with wen den after tat talk on phone with mh..my hp was like dyin alr liao le lor..coz in e afternoon im talkin on e phone with stella..my new frz frm ite..nt e sec sch de..haha..too many frzs hav e same name..ytd when 3 of us hangin ard woodlands, we talk alot...LOL...talk n talk..............n of coz..."yan" oso..mon goin out wif them again..play pool..wahahahaha..my favourite..haha..i like gt alot of things r my favourite wor..basketball,cycling,pool,mahjong,drink, etc..cant tink of others..haha..n nw im sick..cough fever n flu..ah choo choo choo...yet i still nid to wrk......='( nvm la..today last day..


9:31 AM


Friday, April 25, 2008

im super stress....!!!LOL..i noe something tat i sldn't noe..my mind is realli veri fan..coz i realli dunno wat to do..LOL...like my problem...(>.<) but den can oso sae is my problem la..coz we r frzs ma..hav to b loyal to each other..wat r frzs 4...?of coz is like tis de ma..b loyal n trust each other..tis r wat r frzs 4..=) no choice...im a person who always help my frzs to e best but usually i will get a stab behind me..but i hope tis time will different..coz im truely helpin u..n i will giv my blessings 4 both of u..=)
another problem is oh my tian...realli dunno how to handle my own problem..oh shit..?like always so many problems man..but no one can help me..onli her..my dear frz,cy, but den hor like cannot contact her tis few days..den even talk on hp oso dunno how to start my sentence..(-.-) though sometimes even i haven sae out but she noe wat im gonna sae..of coz la..we r frzs 4 e past 11yrs liao..so long le..=) happily being frzs..=) i dunno y gals will fall 4 me..?can anyone tell me..????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!even u fall 4 me can don b so obvious ma..?i see u, u see me..den wat u expect me to do..?kiss u hug u or b wif u..?although im a person who always hug here n tere.. but tis is wat i am..im like tis..i wont change..mayb in e future yes..but will still hug here n tere but nt as crazy like nw..how i do in pub n outside..haha..in e future, my hugs slowly will b juz a gesture..=) but of coz if see my dear frzs sure hug till siao..wahahahaha...don care abt if it is gesture or wat..but gals pls..if u realli fall 4 me, u noe wat i will do. u noe wat i mean..i haven taken down something on me but soon it will. can anybody help me take down e burden on me.....?


9:00 PM


Wednesday, April 23, 2008

im super tired..today went to expo for FHA (Food Hotel Asia).. walk alot..walk till my legs r super suan..+_+ in tere, tere r over 70 countries of food..eh..of coz wine too..wahahaha..WINE...!! my favourite..LOL...i drank tis n tat..drank till i dunno wat i drank..hmm..i noe i drank Merlot, Rose n white wine..drank alot till i dunno wat r e names..oh ya i still gt drink Gao Liang Jiu..LOL.. Gao Liang e acl super high..dunno how many %..but tat one nt nice to drink..feel hot hot de in e throat..don like e feelin..=( .............red wine okok..coz i oso always drink red wine..white wine leh..weird weird de..mayb coz b4 tat i drink red wine den 4get to rinse my mouth so when drink e white wine e taste funny funny 1 nt like e usual taste i drink..drink alot of wine at tere man.. den eat alot too..wahahaha..=) settle my meals at tere..LOL..save $$..nxt wk gonna do presentation abt wine, 5 red, 5 white & 5 rose..den oso gonna present 1 item we saw in expo..den in expo we oso saw e barista competition..Cool..!! At tere i oso drank alot of coffee..Love coffee like hell too..wahahaha...took alot of e brochures at tere..of coz pics too..=) will upload e pics in here n in frzster n facebook..=) k la nxt time den upload again...


7:29 PM


Tuesday, April 22, 2008

guys noe wat..?R promises easy to b fulfil..?or do u keep ur promises..?What r 'promises'? I simply juz cant define it..y promises r hard to fulfil?Even it is been done, do u cherish it...? Sometimes u take it 4 granted, sometimes u don even bother it. So y sld i keep fulfil my promises to u..?y don i juz giv it to others..?I always ask myself whether had i done it enough or u take more den wat i expected..?Truthfully i always give out more but wat did i get back eventually..?Of coz is nt to sae tat wat u giv out u will get back e same...but ask urself wat u had given me..?None at all..nt even once..is totally ZERO..Hello, even my best frzs,close frzs n frzs will even care abt me..even when we go out, we r nt so particular abt $$. I can even sae tat we r sharin our $$. I shared everything wif u, even some of my frzs sae im so stupid to do like tis coz they see more clearly den wat i see. So it is e truth. They r more clear abt it better den me. I sld listen to their advices in e 1st place. I hate to b like tis. I trust u in everything but u betrayed my trust. I realli dunno wat to sae.


7:27 PM


Monday, April 21, 2008

What Type Of Girl Are You?
The Girl Everyone Loves To Be Around
Your the type of girl that cares about everyone and excepts aol diffrent personality's. You love making new friends and would NEVER hurt the one's you have. Your a very social person who often hangs around many types of people. Your honest and trustworthy and your friends can always trust your instincs.
What Kind Of Eyes Do You Have?
***Brown eyes***
People with brown eyes are very attractive, adorable, love to make new friends. Will do anything for that special person. Kind and polite Can make anyone laugh or cheer them up. They love to please the one they care or love for, and are the greatest kissers of all. You care deeply for family and are affectionate with a tendency towards seriousness.

tis is my results..lol..i took e quiz tat my frz send me..sound funny huh..brown eyes..n e kind of gal...~~~~ haha.. sch open ard 2wks liao..all i noe is we walk alot..n of coz talk alot too..(>.<) join badminton as my CCA..=) sound funny too rite..?sec sch life i was in band n a librarian..nw sport..no link..+__+ LOL...super tired man...hmm mayb nw always early wake up den always late slp...oh my tian...!! so long nv early wake up man..though ard 2wks le..but den still cannot use to it e time..wawa msg me abt tis n tat..like reportin to e top..lol..cy nw seldom contact coz both of us super bz.. haha...though still gt sms..=)
miss all frzs..though we keep sms n sms n sms but den still miss them...will b goin out soon le..=)
Anyway, to my dear frz if u wan2 play, play by rules. If u wan2 bend e rules, i swear i will play with u. Take my words. U noe me well.


9:03 PM


Friday, April 18, 2008

finally reach wkend le..=)so happy..tml goin out..goin gym den after tat goin out to get stuff.(>.<)
goin to meet up my gfs liao...so long nv meet up..everyone were like so bz wif their own life.. haha...study & wrkin of coz..wed juz meet up jas..coz we end ard same time..talk alot of stuffs.. like how r our new class n how r others too..surprisin Johnny n her were in e same sch n class..n Jesse,peixin,xinni n meijun gt into e same course in NYP but diff class..den quite a few of our classmates r in RP..den some r in Simei ITE..haha..everyone hav their own life liao..but of coz i will make sure tat every yr CNY they will come my house...alr 3yrs like tis liao..keep eatin e same stuffs..haha..steamboat..den play cards n mahjong..hehe..so miss all my frzs..been bz wif wrk n study nw..den like no time to go out..though some can meet after sch but like so weird suddenly nv see each other eveyday..previously meet everyday go play n chit chat..nw like..~~~ no choice..everyone change at diff stages..=) but rmb..our frzship stays..wahahaha..miss my guys frzs..haha..where r u guys...?shall we go drink n stay out one day..?LOL..where gt e energy..? haha..msg me to update urself hor..if nt later sae i nv care u guys..always onli noe how to sae tis one sentence..i can sae out b4 u sae it..LOL..den miss my gfs too..haha..every wk like gt go out n drink..but nw like oso veri bz liao..sch restart oso no time..but sat gt time de la..haha..
anyway when i sae i meetin my gf doesnt mean im TOGETHER wif her or stead ok...?u guys noe me so well yet wheneva i sae i meetin my gf u ask me, "u stead wif her huh?"LOL..i dunno whether sld i laugh or cry man..wan me to scold u all rite..?u guys realli wan me to scold u all den will scare.. STUPID GUYS...when im ATTACH i will tell u guys ok..?STOP ASKING ME THIS KIND OF STUPID/SILLY questions...!!! though im MAN but pls stop askin me..super troublesome to ans back ok.....????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


7:08 PM


Thursday, April 17, 2008

i deleted one of my post..=) coz i wanted to re-write it..haha...nw im schoolin liao...bz wif ITE..=) slpin oso..haha...im in ITE college west...F&B Operations...hmm..fun n enjoyable course..e lecturer sae tt nxt yr May will send 4-6 ppl to Lyon,France 4 exchange students. Cool huh.. ITE nw oso goin 4 overseas being an exchange student..haha..den he oso sae gt e worldwide competition 4 table linin..hmm..wat's tat..?to cut it short is juz a competiton to see how well u hav done e skills u hav learnt..n of coz nt juz onli skills..still hav others stuffs in it too..will update again when i noe more abt it...=)
tis few days go to sch, noe alot new frzs..=) all of us seems to b onli 1 by 1 goin in..our class like don hav noe same sec sch go in..so no one noe each other 1st place..but luckily e sch gt e games durin e orientation n so tis was when we realli noe all e names n we noe each other..=) of coz b4 tat i alr noe 3gals..haha..i noe them durin when we r buyin e uniform day..=) den on e 1st day we meet tgt go sch..=) goin off liao..see when free den blog again...byebye..(>.<)


7:46 PM








tis r some of e pics we took on 11 april..finally all of us manage to go out liao..haha..finally..4 of us gt time to go out..qi mine pics t upload yet..coz she havent send me..when she send me den i will upload again...=)


7:35 PM


Thursday, April 10, 2008





tis r onli a few of e pics in Thai..will update again...


8:19 PM



Quote to share:
"Life is not about how hard you can hit."
"Life is about how much you can get hit and moving forward!"
"Always do your best and Never Give Up!"
tis few sentences i saw it in Wu Chun's blog..i bet u guys will tink tis is fake..but tis is e true..Wu Chun do hav a blog..n i can sae his English was super duper veri gd..of coz..he is a guy who went to Aust to study..haha...i do nt like him but doesnt mean i hate him or wat..i read his blog through a frz who told me his link..n i realised tat no matter how down or how upset he is, he will still b able to keep himself happy..he is a juz a normal guy like us doin his own biz..n of coz his job been a celebrity. I will learn frm him how to keep myself happy, n do my best in everything..
I had a plan alr..Durin june, i will join muay-aerobox n kickboxin. Aug or Sept, im gonna join yoga. N last but nt e least, tis yr Nov or Dec im gonna to take up guitar lessons.=)
tis few days i had been goin to gym..keep myself fresh n healthy..after e sweat i felt much more energy..of coz tired oso will hav..haha..=)
today as usual, i oso went to e gym..ard 1pm i meet my mum at causeway point. Bought my pants n some others stuffs. I went to check my eyes at Nanyang Optical. Coz tat time eyes infection till nw is nt recover yet. E lady asked me to buy daily lens instead monthly n i bought it. B'coz im gonna wear when my sch open..hehe..but she did ask me to wear like 2days in a wk. N if it is ok, she sae i can take e 2wk dispose 1 time. So long nv wear lens le..dunno will feel comfortable ma if i starts wearin again..


8:02 PM



u're gonna leave me 4eva n im oso gonna leave u 4eva. rmb tis we r in different ways nw.


12:06 AM


Saturday, April 5, 2008

tis few days bz wif stuffs...sch goin to starts, cut new hair style...everything r goin to b new..but hp no..haha...but goin to change soon again..mayb may or june..hehe...=) i always change hp rite..?no choice..i juz lov to change..but tis time wld b different coz i will keep my old wan..wont b like last time sell den i get e new one again..=)
suddenly miss someone..hmm...someone who i wan to see everyday...someone who i don love but i care frm e bottom of my heart..=)
sometimes God like to play a prank on us..isnt it..?tis sentence everyone r sayin everyday..but actually it is e truth..but wat to do..?u cant go against e God but u can choose e way how u goin to move on..isnt it?i don wan destiny to control my life..i wan2 control my own fate my destiny..e way i wan2 choose, e way how i wan2 do...
wat to do when u r in a mind tat u cant decide a decision?wat to do when u cannot do anything?did ayone tht of this..?mayb im a kind of person tends to think super far ahead..like 2yrs later wat sld i do..?10yrs later wat had i achieved in my life..im tis kind of person..i cannot tink day by day..if like tis ppl everyday tink day by day they wont achieve wat they wan. Day by day, hav enough $$ to spend, eat n shoppin can alr. I cannot..if day by day i alr die long long time liao..i wan enough $$ when i noe tat it will back-up me when im tight or watsoeva..but think too much nt gd..i juz wan to earn lots of $$$. Coz $$$$$ = power. tis is true, if no $$ ppl out tere wont even care u. they will juz leave u alone, die or alive. if u hav $$, they will like how honey attract bees. Stick to u, bootlickin u. I wan2 see how ugly tis world, how ppl bend their head over 4 $$$$$$$$$$. Money means everything. Of coz money cant buy something too.Like family ties, frzship n BGR, GGR, BBR. But those fakers who love $$$$$ alot i wan2 see how u r goin to bend over ur head 4 $$, no pride n shameless on u. how i wish i will witness all tis..but too bad..i wont manage to see it. coz it will onli dirty my eyes.


5:16 PM


Wednesday, April 2, 2008

tis few days so weird..coz i keep bloggin..tis few days realli super weird..dunno y me & wawa suddenly noe each other so well..LOL...tis few days start msg wif LiXing..quite funny..haha..our msg topic was like...ermm...~~~~~~~funny de..cant stand qi too..LOL..send me 2pics ask me if e person cute..at 1st i tht e person is a bush..but e person is 100% guy...!!!super gal lor..nw start msn wif alot ppl..i changed my hp number temporary, e old number im still usin but guys out tere wan2 msg or cal me can..juz pray tt when u msg or callin me im usin e old one..nt e new 1..e new 1 onli a few ppl noe..tryin to get myself cut off frm e outside world..but it seems to b veri hard..wheneva i switch on my old number, e sound will juz beep beep beep..msgs n calleralert.. when will my hp b quiet..?of coz if ur hp keep ringin tat is gd..coz tis is another way to prove tat u realli hav enough frzs tat they will tink of u n msg u to care abt u or ask u 4 an outin..but den sometimes i don feel like mayb coz i like quiet so i don wan my hp ring..but of coz i noe i realli cant cut off e outside world wif me, coz if my frz in trouble i juz dunno y they lov to find me..of coz they find me is gd coz whheneva they r in trouble they tink of me 1st coz i will always b there 4 them..n of they will b here 4 me..haha...frzs r meant to b like tt..im glad i hav a bunch of frzs tat they r here 4 me n im tere 4 them..our frzship r nt based on $$ or lies. but we realli use our heart to make frzs..love all my 老婆s..haha...n of coz a few guys..but den hor..inside onli 1 is realli guy..e rest r like..sissy..MY SISTERS..wahaha..i treat them like sisters no choice..opps..sorri huh..but i noe u all oso protectin me scare something will happen..i noe wat u all worry..but guys..relax..i wont let anything happen to me de..realli..=) though u guys r super veri naggy but i noe u all care me..when go out oso do everything 4 me..but im realli grateful to u all..=) happy rite..?i write here abt u guys..always complain sae i nv write u all, always write abt gals..nw write liao stop complainin le la..=) although u all always sae im veri man, but den no matter how man i am, u all will oso take care of me, go out will help me with things n others. guys im realli veri happy hav u all as my super duper close frzs..wheneva im in trouble u all will oso talk to me advice me..im realli veri happy..im glad i hav u guys as my dearest BUT nt as close as e gals i sae 1st..hahahahahahaha........


10:19 PM



我的话不多不会讨好
一句我爱你都说不好
全世界相求都没解药
只有你给我微笑
该怎么去爱 我没学好
太多的招式 我没记牢
原来牵了手就会知道
爱情不需要套招
这招只有你知道
牵牵牵 牵手
一直走到 最后我们开心的梦游
牵牵牵 牵手
永远十指紧扣我相信 我会永远在你左右

tis is a gd song..intro to u guys..learn how to cherish ur love..don ever taje them 4 granted..see e lyrics 4 urself..=)


9:54 PM


Tuesday, April 1, 2008

All if sudden i thought of something that will make me feel angry..sad ya there maybe some..i felt that why should i need to feel responsible to the person when the person is not a responsible person at all. The person is a He. He is a man who is not responsible at all, i felt so weird when i need to be responsible for him. Makes me angry. I do not know whether i'm reponsible for him or what, but i know that i do not want to be responsible for him. In the past, NO, now and then, in the future, NO. But seems to be very hard to do so. I will try my best.


5:12 PM