Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Now listening to "没有如果" sang by Fish Leong, this is a super super nice nice song. I love it.
Decided to blog halfway when I'm studying for my test for tomorrow, OH MY GOD, super sian, right after of 2days break, I'm gonna have a test, though the test is rather easy, i think so?
Msn a few of my friends, i knew what you said just now in msn la, i knew what you mean, but to confirm my own doubts i have to ask you, what do you mean. You know who i am referring to.
Well, i guess she's right, is a very bad thing to do like that huh? Is the matter not the person bad. =)
The person is good by nature. LOL
But is wrong to lead into this way, i guess.
But I'm glad that I'm not mislead la.
HAHA
But also cannot say is misleading, well, then i guess i don't know how to say already.
Anyway, people always mislead me la, i thinks so. -.-"
I'm always a clueless, speechless, brainless huh? HAHA
Anyway, it does not matter already, because this whole matter i'm clueless, speechless & brainless with it, even though i knew about it. :D
Well, then just don't care lor.
Gonna go back to my study again.
BYE BYE guys.
Anyway, hope you guys enjoy these 2days break. :D
TAKE CARE, WITH LOVES.
Decided to blog halfway when I'm studying for my test for tomorrow, OH MY GOD, super sian, right after of 2days break, I'm gonna have a test, though the test is rather easy, i think so?
Msn a few of my friends, i knew what you said just now in msn la, i knew what you mean, but to confirm my own doubts i have to ask you, what do you mean. You know who i am referring to.
Well, i guess she's right, is a very bad thing to do like that huh? Is the matter not the person bad. =)
The person is good by nature. LOL
But is wrong to lead into this way, i guess.
But I'm glad that I'm not mislead la.
HAHA
But also cannot say is misleading, well, then i guess i don't know how to say already.
Anyway, people always mislead me la, i thinks so. -.-"
I'm always a clueless, speechless, brainless huh? HAHA
Anyway, it does not matter already, because this whole matter i'm clueless, speechless & brainless with it, even though i knew about it. :D
Well, then just don't care lor.
Gonna go back to my study again.
BYE BYE guys.
Anyway, hope you guys enjoy these 2days break. :D
TAKE CARE, WITH LOVES.
♥ 10:25 PM
Okay, i just finished msn-ing a few of my friends, Eric, jasmine, from my buddies list & from my F1 list.
Okay, i talked to jasmine about Friday outing, anyway, my dear, i will update you once Emily confirm with me, no worries, HAHA, don't forget to ask Johnny, Xinni, Jesse and many more, you are in charge of this, I'm only gonna ask Bjorn they all, HAHA. =)
And talked to Eric, well, some funny funny conversation, LOL, you know what i mean, IDIOT, so many dots for what? Wanna make a confession just say la, (not i like you that kind of stuffs)
Then still type so slow, words by words still never mind, still put so many dots, ask you don't disturb me already as I'm doing some serious stuffs ( i think so?? -.-" ) Then when I'm about to say BYE BYE, you then tell me, anyway, i will only say *** ***!!!!! GO GO GO!! :D
Well, but i still need to know is it "down-earth or earth-down" la.
I seriously need to know, you know what, when I'm typing to you, my mind was like BLANK, because i seriously forgot which is the correct one. Anyone know, please tell me. =)
Anyway, I'm glad you still tell me your stuffs, but remember, I'm not always gonna be here for you as and when you wanna to tell me anything about yours. One day, we will be separate, you will have your own life while I'm gonna pursue what i want. And you are gonna tell your stuffs and everything to your girlfriend but not to me, a normal friend.
Maybe you can find me when you encounter any problems, and I'll be here to help you think of solutions, as i believe that, 1 year older is a BIG DIFFERENCE!! =) HAHA.
Anyway, i will wish you all the best and good luck in whatever you gonna do.
Then talked to my buddies, well, i guess i know the reasons why i love you guys so so so so MUCH X countless times, you guys really know what i am thinking, OH MY GOD, you guys are the worms inside my stomach, HAHA, anyway, thanks to you guys, really make the days brighter for me. :D
Then talked to F1 co-workers, well, i can only say, WE ARE GOING TO SEE EACH OTHERS SOON, just in another 8 more months. =)
It maybe seem very long, but believe me, it will soon be over and we will be see each others and talk craps & slack as how we worked in 2008, let's await the most exciting 2009 F1 together.=) ( it might not be as good as 2008, cause they are cutting costs on the cars )
Then backed to my own topic for today, the whole day, I'm at my aunt's house, i was drinking in the afternoon, as early like 4pm plus huh? I think so.
Everyone of us were busy taking photos, and of course my 2nd sister became the sales person to introduce her brand new camera she bought, even my cousins also wanna buy the same as her, oh ya, I'm getting that soon too, so you guys can see lots and lots of photos in my facebook and friendster, and of course, inside the camera will have too, but it is TOP-SECRET la, there might have some photos that should not be shown out huh? I think so lor. HAHA.
Lots of photos taken today, i will update in my facebook soon, after my sister send it to me.
Today i wore very very bright colour, PINK!!! Can you believe, is PINK!!! The very first time that i wear this colour, anyway, it turns out better than what i expected. :D
Okay, i love this shirt liao. HAHA.
Blog till here le, i need to do some serious stuffs now, bye guys.
Okay, i talked to jasmine about Friday outing, anyway, my dear, i will update you once Emily confirm with me, no worries, HAHA, don't forget to ask Johnny, Xinni, Jesse and many more, you are in charge of this, I'm only gonna ask Bjorn they all, HAHA. =)
And talked to Eric, well, some funny funny conversation, LOL, you know what i mean, IDIOT, so many dots for what? Wanna make a confession just say la, (not i like you that kind of stuffs)
Then still type so slow, words by words still never mind, still put so many dots, ask you don't disturb me already as I'm doing some serious stuffs ( i think so?? -.-" ) Then when I'm about to say BYE BYE, you then tell me, anyway, i will only say *** ***!!!!! GO GO GO!! :D
Well, but i still need to know is it "down-earth or earth-down" la.
I seriously need to know, you know what, when I'm typing to you, my mind was like BLANK, because i seriously forgot which is the correct one. Anyone know, please tell me. =)
Anyway, I'm glad you still tell me your stuffs, but remember, I'm not always gonna be here for you as and when you wanna to tell me anything about yours. One day, we will be separate, you will have your own life while I'm gonna pursue what i want. And you are gonna tell your stuffs and everything to your girlfriend but not to me, a normal friend.
Maybe you can find me when you encounter any problems, and I'll be here to help you think of solutions, as i believe that, 1 year older is a BIG DIFFERENCE!! =) HAHA.
Anyway, i will wish you all the best and good luck in whatever you gonna do.
Then talked to my buddies, well, i guess i know the reasons why i love you guys so so so so MUCH X countless times, you guys really know what i am thinking, OH MY GOD, you guys are the worms inside my stomach, HAHA, anyway, thanks to you guys, really make the days brighter for me. :D
Then talked to F1 co-workers, well, i can only say, WE ARE GOING TO SEE EACH OTHERS SOON, just in another 8 more months. =)
It maybe seem very long, but believe me, it will soon be over and we will be see each others and talk craps & slack as how we worked in 2008, let's await the most exciting 2009 F1 together.=) ( it might not be as good as 2008, cause they are cutting costs on the cars )
Then backed to my own topic for today, the whole day, I'm at my aunt's house, i was drinking in the afternoon, as early like 4pm plus huh? I think so.
Everyone of us were busy taking photos, and of course my 2nd sister became the sales person to introduce her brand new camera she bought, even my cousins also wanna buy the same as her, oh ya, I'm getting that soon too, so you guys can see lots and lots of photos in my facebook and friendster, and of course, inside the camera will have too, but it is TOP-SECRET la, there might have some photos that should not be shown out huh? I think so lor. HAHA.
Lots of photos taken today, i will update in my facebook soon, after my sister send it to me.
Today i wore very very bright colour, PINK!!! Can you believe, is PINK!!! The very first time that i wear this colour, anyway, it turns out better than what i expected. :D
Okay, i love this shirt liao. HAHA.
Blog till here le, i need to do some serious stuffs now, bye guys.
♥ 12:20 AM
Monday, January 26, 2009
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!! It is a brand new Ox year, i wish everyone will have a smooth sailing year & may everything goes smoothly in this year and of course, may all your dreams come true. :D
Well, I'm here to blog first before going out, yesterday was CNY' eve, what you guys been doing? I'm SUPER SUPER SUPER X10000000000000000000 times BUSY!!!!
Been busy with mopping and sweeping the floor, and of course, i manage to take a short short nap in between. And do some dumplings, wee wee, one year one time to wrap, lots and lots. HAHA :D
Well, i wanted to change my blog song to "Say that you loved me" by Erica Lee, but i simply can't find it, ='(
Wanted to change to Fish Leong's "PK", this song sing by her and Gary, is a super super nice song, I LOVE IT. I manage to download and now this song is in my handphone. :D
But really very too bad, i can't find it in the net, thus, i could not change my blog song to this again, well, i guess you guys don't have the fate to listen this song, HAHA =p
So i decided not to change my blog song for the time-being, till i either manage to find one of these or i like a new song again. =)
Okay, shall blog till here, gonna go off already.
Take care guys!! Do take care of yourself during CNY, because during CNY people tend to fall sick easily due to over-eating, etc. Myself too anyway. =)
Take care.
Well, I'm here to blog first before going out, yesterday was CNY' eve, what you guys been doing? I'm SUPER SUPER SUPER X10000000000000000000 times BUSY!!!!
Been busy with mopping and sweeping the floor, and of course, i manage to take a short short nap in between. And do some dumplings, wee wee, one year one time to wrap, lots and lots. HAHA :D
Well, i wanted to change my blog song to "Say that you loved me" by Erica Lee, but i simply can't find it, ='(
Wanted to change to Fish Leong's "PK", this song sing by her and Gary, is a super super nice song, I LOVE IT. I manage to download and now this song is in my handphone. :D
But really very too bad, i can't find it in the net, thus, i could not change my blog song to this again, well, i guess you guys don't have the fate to listen this song, HAHA =p
So i decided not to change my blog song for the time-being, till i either manage to find one of these or i like a new song again. =)
Okay, shall blog till here, gonna go off already.
Take care guys!! Do take care of yourself during CNY, because during CNY people tend to fall sick easily due to over-eating, etc. Myself too anyway. =)
Take care.
♥ 10:29 AM
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Well, i guess i will blog now rather then wait till CNY's eve and blog, i will e damn freaking tire if i do that in the night.
Today, i managed to pack my cupboard, well, part of it, clean & tidy, at least i can see where are my clothes are.
Then i fall asleep, till 6plus and woke up, okay, the moment i wake up, i feel dizzy and I'm having running nose, ah huh, kinda of weird right? After i woke up, became like this??? -.-"
Supposing meeting C.Y they all, to have a reunion dinner with the Baden co-workers, but due to the tons of house chores i need to do, in the end, I'm not going, so so so sorry guys. =(
Today, almost half of my time I'm hogging on the phone. I made a deal..HAHA, a deal, okay not a business deal la, a promise that i made.
Okay, a food promises huh? Ya, i will put it in this way.
FOOD DEAL/PROMISE.
I'm gonna be very busy for the next 3 days, and when wednesday go back to school, will be having a class test, SIAN, right after the holiday, well, what to do, this is LIFE!! LOL
Anyway, will blog till here, will update again.
Today, i managed to pack my cupboard, well, part of it, clean & tidy, at least i can see where are my clothes are.
Then i fall asleep, till 6plus and woke up, okay, the moment i wake up, i feel dizzy and I'm having running nose, ah huh, kinda of weird right? After i woke up, became like this??? -.-"
Supposing meeting C.Y they all, to have a reunion dinner with the Baden co-workers, but due to the tons of house chores i need to do, in the end, I'm not going, so so so sorry guys. =(
Today, almost half of my time I'm hogging on the phone. I made a deal..HAHA, a deal, okay not a business deal la, a promise that i made.
Okay, a food promises huh? Ya, i will put it in this way.
FOOD DEAL/PROMISE.
I'm gonna be very busy for the next 3 days, and when wednesday go back to school, will be having a class test, SIAN, right after the holiday, well, what to do, this is LIFE!! LOL
Anyway, will blog till here, will update again.
♥ 11:18 PM
3 days never come in and blog, feel kinda of weird and ~~~?? :\
Anyway, GUYS, I'M GOING TO BATAM DURING MARCH, WITHIN 19 - 22. It is a 4 days 3 night trip, I'm seriously look forward for this trip, it is a school trip, HAHA, it means the lecturers will be going with us, they are suppose to go there and take care of us, i suppose?? HAHA ^^
Well, i seriously have no idea what we will be doing at there, but i know there is trekking and we will be visiting an orphanage. Well, i guess this trip will be a very fun trip. :D
I will take lots and lots of pictures to update my facebook and friendster, anyway, I have been very long time never update already, well, i guess i will do everything one shot later.
This few days, i have been super super duper X100000000000000000000 times BUSY!!! Because it is my birthday week, and i went out for celebration with my friends.
On the 20th, by right i have to work, then after work, will be having celebrations with C.Y they all. But by left, somehow something happened at Baden within Lovein and others;thus, everyone were on strike for that particular day. So we met earlier and went out, I'm so shocked, because i did not expect there are so many people accompany me to celebrate my birthday this year, there are 2 Terrence, liping, yujie, june, brian & his friends and of course C.Y.
We went to Orchard, we ate Fish & Co, okay, the food is super super big portion. After had our dinner, Terrence, yujie & C.Y got me a cake, a strawberry cake, is a super super nice cake, very nice to eat.
Then after that, Bernard came, and sent both of us to C.Y's house, both of us were slacking and watching movie, and of course, we were doing some chatting, it's a very long time that we did like this, till that day.
And I'm so sorry to you guys who waited till 12am sharp and message me to wish me "happy birthday" because my phone is totally flat, i can't even switch on. And when i manage to switch on, my phone was keep beep-ing~~
I'm really really very thankful for you guys who remember my birthday and message me to wish me. =)
I love you guys a lot, lots and lots!!!!!!!
Then on my actual birthday, i celebrated with my family. As for Thurs & Fri, nothing much to say, because I'm just super busy.
Then today, I need to apologise to some of my friends, because i actually cancel the outing but i did not inform you guys, but anyway, I had told Emily already, we will make next friday, we shall meet up on that day and chill out and of course, we will be having dinner together. =)
I'm tire already, blog till here.
Will update again
Anyway, GUYS, I'M GOING TO BATAM DURING MARCH, WITHIN 19 - 22. It is a 4 days 3 night trip, I'm seriously look forward for this trip, it is a school trip, HAHA, it means the lecturers will be going with us, they are suppose to go there and take care of us, i suppose?? HAHA ^^
Well, i seriously have no idea what we will be doing at there, but i know there is trekking and we will be visiting an orphanage. Well, i guess this trip will be a very fun trip. :D
I will take lots and lots of pictures to update my facebook and friendster, anyway, I have been very long time never update already, well, i guess i will do everything one shot later.
This few days, i have been super super duper X100000000000000000000 times BUSY!!! Because it is my birthday week, and i went out for celebration with my friends.
On the 20th, by right i have to work, then after work, will be having celebrations with C.Y they all. But by left, somehow something happened at Baden within Lovein and others;thus, everyone were on strike for that particular day. So we met earlier and went out, I'm so shocked, because i did not expect there are so many people accompany me to celebrate my birthday this year, there are 2 Terrence, liping, yujie, june, brian & his friends and of course C.Y.
We went to Orchard, we ate Fish & Co, okay, the food is super super big portion. After had our dinner, Terrence, yujie & C.Y got me a cake, a strawberry cake, is a super super nice cake, very nice to eat.
Then after that, Bernard came, and sent both of us to C.Y's house, both of us were slacking and watching movie, and of course, we were doing some chatting, it's a very long time that we did like this, till that day.
And I'm so sorry to you guys who waited till 12am sharp and message me to wish me "happy birthday" because my phone is totally flat, i can't even switch on. And when i manage to switch on, my phone was keep beep-ing~~
I'm really really very thankful for you guys who remember my birthday and message me to wish me. =)
I love you guys a lot, lots and lots!!!!!!!
Then on my actual birthday, i celebrated with my family. As for Thurs & Fri, nothing much to say, because I'm just super busy.
Then today, I need to apologise to some of my friends, because i actually cancel the outing but i did not inform you guys, but anyway, I had told Emily already, we will make next friday, we shall meet up on that day and chill out and of course, we will be having dinner together. =)
I'm tire already, blog till here.
Will update again
♥ 12:37 AM
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
What does my birthday mean?
You are curious and a true follower. You can please someone so much that it seem like you are trying to charm that person. You hide your disagreement under your smiling face. This is a charming quality of yours. Your Love, You are quite unlucky in love. You are loved by someone you don't like while your dream person is so far away. Your love life is occasionally under turbulence. Sometimes you don't have the clear view of the guy/gal in your heart.
I totally AGREE, anyway, happy 2oth birthday to myself!!! wahaha, i just got home anyway, tomorrow then update what had i done today.
You are curious and a true follower. You can please someone so much that it seem like you are trying to charm that person. You hide your disagreement under your smiling face. This is a charming quality of yours. Your Love, You are quite unlucky in love. You are loved by someone you don't like while your dream person is so far away. Your love life is occasionally under turbulence. Sometimes you don't have the clear view of the guy/gal in your heart.
I totally AGREE, anyway, happy 2oth birthday to myself!!! wahaha, i just got home anyway, tomorrow then update what had i done today.
♥ 2:12 AM
Monday, January 19, 2009
Well, i guess everyone did not update their blog except me huh?
Anyway, i just finished doing my cocktail, well, i did "small" changes in it. HAHA
Anyway, I'm still working on the name.
Today, school was quite chaotic? Because service was very corked up thanks to someone.
Anyway, I'm super FUCK UP with this person.
Anyway I'm not in a mood continue about this.
OH MY GOD!!! I GOT MY NAME FOR MY COCKTAIL, halfway blogging, i have the name already, I'M SO SO HAPPY!! HAHA
Well, back to my nagging again, I'm so so tired today, i don't know why, freaking super duper tire.
I think i will stop working for a period, in order to let my life back to normal. =)
In order to have time for my friends, my family and of course for my pals, who always stand by me no matter what. :D
COOL, i think something wrong is going on, super super wrong, HAHA but it is a sweet wrong thing that is happening anyway.
Well, blog till here ba..=)
Anyway, i just finished doing my cocktail, well, i did "small" changes in it. HAHA
Anyway, I'm still working on the name.
Today, school was quite chaotic? Because service was very corked up thanks to someone.
Anyway, I'm super FUCK UP with this person.
Anyway I'm not in a mood continue about this.
OH MY GOD!!! I GOT MY NAME FOR MY COCKTAIL, halfway blogging, i have the name already, I'M SO SO HAPPY!! HAHA
Well, back to my nagging again, I'm so so tired today, i don't know why, freaking super duper tire.
I think i will stop working for a period, in order to let my life back to normal. =)
In order to have time for my friends, my family and of course for my pals, who always stand by me no matter what. :D
COOL, i think something wrong is going on, super super wrong, HAHA but it is a sweet wrong thing that is happening anyway.
Well, blog till here ba..=)
♥ 9:15 PM
Sunday, January 18, 2009
I wanna this song to be my blog song, but i simply can't find it, the song is is so so so MEANINGFUL!!!! The lyrics i like, the singer who sings it, the voice very nice and smoothing.
Well, i guess i have to wait slightly longer then can find the song that i want, but i don't wanna wait..=(
The song i super super like. :D
Oh ya, i just called the police to report a case, I'M A GOOD CITIZEN okay?? HAHA
But the police very slow then come, anyway, i made a call to the police already very good okay?
Being helpful should not hesitate. See a blind man crossing the road, the 1st thing to do, is to hold him/her arm and cross the road together. See an old granny in MRT, 1st thing to do, is to give up your sit and let her sit. See a granny fall down, quickly go up and catch her if you can, if cannot, at least help her up and make sure she is okay. Don't hesitate to help people, if you hesitate, means you are not that passionate to help people, and you are just a jerk, I'm sorry i have to use "jerk" on this kind of people, because being helpful doesn't need any money or what, by helping them, you will feel great.
Is not they are cheating your money or what, remember guys, always help the people that are unlucky then you, people who are blind, deaf, etc. Help people won't make you lose anything.
But if you don't help, you are just a JERK la, i have nothing to say.
A quote to share:
"It's not only until you lose someone important"
"Don't lose the person unnecessary"
"Love the people around you"
Well, i guess i have to wait slightly longer then can find the song that i want, but i don't wanna wait..=(
The song i super super like. :D
Oh ya, i just called the police to report a case, I'M A GOOD CITIZEN okay?? HAHA
But the police very slow then come, anyway, i made a call to the police already very good okay?
Being helpful should not hesitate. See a blind man crossing the road, the 1st thing to do, is to hold him/her arm and cross the road together. See an old granny in MRT, 1st thing to do, is to give up your sit and let her sit. See a granny fall down, quickly go up and catch her if you can, if cannot, at least help her up and make sure she is okay. Don't hesitate to help people, if you hesitate, means you are not that passionate to help people, and you are just a jerk, I'm sorry i have to use "jerk" on this kind of people, because being helpful doesn't need any money or what, by helping them, you will feel great.
Is not they are cheating your money or what, remember guys, always help the people that are unlucky then you, people who are blind, deaf, etc. Help people won't make you lose anything.
But if you don't help, you are just a JERK la, i have nothing to say.
A quote to share:
"It's not only until you lose someone important"
"Don't lose the person unnecessary"
"Love the people around you"
♥ 11:20 PM
Well well, i just finished my own training of making my own cocktail, well, my cocktail is getting good responses from my family members!! HAHA
Well, my cocktail's name is gonna change to another name, because 1stly, U & ME is my own recipe, if i really so lucky i really win the competition, and this concoction will belongs to APEC, this will defeats the purpose of my intention why i make this drink, because i make this drink when I'm thinking a matter; thus, i changed the name and the concoction of my this new drink, well, I'm still working on the name. I think till now, only myself had tasted U & ME the cocktail. No one had tasted it yet. :D
Tomorrow I'm not working, because after school, I'm gonna train my cocktail in school.
Well, my hand is super super super pain, after tons of hitting the boston shaker, SUPER SUPER DUPER X countless times PAIN.
Got to go again.
I guess that you guys understand
Well, my cocktail's name is gonna change to another name, because 1stly, U & ME is my own recipe, if i really so lucky i really win the competition, and this concoction will belongs to APEC, this will defeats the purpose of my intention why i make this drink, because i make this drink when I'm thinking a matter; thus, i changed the name and the concoction of my this new drink, well, I'm still working on the name. I think till now, only myself had tasted U & ME the cocktail. No one had tasted it yet. :D
Tomorrow I'm not working, because after school, I'm gonna train my cocktail in school.
Well, my hand is super super super pain, after tons of hitting the boston shaker, SUPER SUPER DUPER X countless times PAIN.
Got to go again.
I guess that you guys understand
♥ 9:27 PM
Doing some spring cleaning stuffs today, well, i did not realised it was so so so DIRTY till i cleaned it, OH MY GOD!!! IS FREAKING DIRTY!!!!
Okay, for yesterday post, (referring to both),
I realised that things don't turn out the way you want in everyway or everytime?
Well, i guess life is like that, you will gain; thus you will lose, is a matter whether you gain more or you lose more, for me, i guess i lose more..?? I think so.
Do people really think hard and carefully what they want in life? Regardless, is it fame, money or relationship, or maybe a career?
Or the person don't even know what she/he wants?
There are people who tend to hurt people without her/his knowing. Well, i guess the most painful thing on this earth is not don't have the courage to tell the person how much you like him/her, but is that you hurt a person that you don't even realised that, and the person is the person who you do not want to hurt most. And you know that you could not do anything to change the fact.
If you do not have the courage to tell the person how much you love or like him/her, it's still not very painful, so long you know that the person you like is with another person who can treat him/her very good, maybe even better then yourself; thus, you know the person is taken care very well. So no worries.
But if you hurt the person, do you have the courage to admit it? Say "SORRY" to him/her?
I think a lot of people are like this, they choose not to say "SORRY", they do not even have the guts to say it. Well, i can't comment much on this part as i really have no idea how to comment.
Well, i simply thinks that, people don't cherish whatever they have now, they always give up on something or a person, right?
They always let someone walk pass them, they don't even realised about this, till the day come, that they know this person is not going to pass by them again. Which is the day, they know that they have totally lost this person, for eternally. Which is a mistake that cannot be make up with anything.
Well, i guess someone had given up on me, or rather I'm the one who is doing this now.
Well, sometimes, give up doesn't mean that you have given up totally on him/her, but is to let him/her go, for a better life or a better future.
I seriously have nothing to talk about this topic now, because my mood is super super down, as i know that it has been totally been given up.
Well, it take 2 hands to clap, by oneself, nothing can be done much, unless you don't mind being the one who keep sacrificing and won't hope in return. Well, I can say I'm this kind of person, whatever i do, i won't expect in returns, but there are times i want, but i know it is impossible. Though there is a saying,"nothing is impossible, till you tried."
But there are things that is confirm impossible.
Currently, I'm sure what phase what I'm going through now, a phase to make me grow up and a phase to make me realised a lot of things, and a phase that i have to give up on a person/matter.
Which is the most i do not want to see myself in this way, but i can't. Because i will grow up one day, which i have to face a lot of matters by myself, by going through this phase, i will learn how to forgive & forget & give up on a person/matter?
Well, if you guys know what I'm writing now, i guess you guys will know what matter/person, I'm giving up now, can feel the pain in my heart, but is not gona stay long, is gonna be fine in another few days later.
Or rather, i should say that, I'm trying to put down whatever i can put down now, but not giving up.
I hope you guys understand what i mean, well, i guess you guys may not know what i mean ba, then never mind, just call and ask me ba, since previous post, you guys ask le, asking this again, is no harm, i will tell you, who I'm giving up (matter & person)
Okay, for yesterday post, (referring to both),
I realised that things don't turn out the way you want in everyway or everytime?
Well, i guess life is like that, you will gain; thus you will lose, is a matter whether you gain more or you lose more, for me, i guess i lose more..?? I think so.
Do people really think hard and carefully what they want in life? Regardless, is it fame, money or relationship, or maybe a career?
Or the person don't even know what she/he wants?
There are people who tend to hurt people without her/his knowing. Well, i guess the most painful thing on this earth is not don't have the courage to tell the person how much you like him/her, but is that you hurt a person that you don't even realised that, and the person is the person who you do not want to hurt most. And you know that you could not do anything to change the fact.
If you do not have the courage to tell the person how much you love or like him/her, it's still not very painful, so long you know that the person you like is with another person who can treat him/her very good, maybe even better then yourself; thus, you know the person is taken care very well. So no worries.
But if you hurt the person, do you have the courage to admit it? Say "SORRY" to him/her?
I think a lot of people are like this, they choose not to say "SORRY", they do not even have the guts to say it. Well, i can't comment much on this part as i really have no idea how to comment.
Well, i simply thinks that, people don't cherish whatever they have now, they always give up on something or a person, right?
They always let someone walk pass them, they don't even realised about this, till the day come, that they know this person is not going to pass by them again. Which is the day, they know that they have totally lost this person, for eternally. Which is a mistake that cannot be make up with anything.
Well, i guess someone had given up on me, or rather I'm the one who is doing this now.
Well, sometimes, give up doesn't mean that you have given up totally on him/her, but is to let him/her go, for a better life or a better future.
I seriously have nothing to talk about this topic now, because my mood is super super down, as i know that it has been totally been given up.
Well, it take 2 hands to clap, by oneself, nothing can be done much, unless you don't mind being the one who keep sacrificing and won't hope in return. Well, I can say I'm this kind of person, whatever i do, i won't expect in returns, but there are times i want, but i know it is impossible. Though there is a saying,"nothing is impossible, till you tried."
But there are things that is confirm impossible.
Currently, I'm sure what phase what I'm going through now, a phase to make me grow up and a phase to make me realised a lot of things, and a phase that i have to give up on a person/matter.
Which is the most i do not want to see myself in this way, but i can't. Because i will grow up one day, which i have to face a lot of matters by myself, by going through this phase, i will learn how to forgive & forget & give up on a person/matter?
Well, if you guys know what I'm writing now, i guess you guys will know what matter/person, I'm giving up now, can feel the pain in my heart, but is not gona stay long, is gonna be fine in another few days later.
Or rather, i should say that, I'm trying to put down whatever i can put down now, but not giving up.
I hope you guys understand what i mean, well, i guess you guys may not know what i mean ba, then never mind, just call and ask me ba, since previous post, you guys ask le, asking this again, is no harm, i will tell you, who I'm giving up (matter & person)
♥ 2:29 PM
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Well, I'm here to blog again, well i guess i can't do much tonight for my cocktail, because my hand is super super pain. -.-"
For the people who have questions for my previous post earlier on, I'm referring to everyone on this earth that includes me, but if you actually ask me about this, means that you are also one of the same kind, well, i have nothing to say.
But life is short, cherish whatever you have, don't ever let a person walk pass you, once it passes, it will be away forever, and won't be turning back again, life is to move forward but not to turn back, this applies to matters,people & things. And this applies to me too, not to turn back but to move on.
Well, nagging is over. =x
I'm gonna upload super super lots of pictures in my facebook, guys you can go take it from there, either i tag you all or you take from me in the facebook.
Anyway, i have to change my blog song la.
For the people who have questions for my previous post earlier on, I'm referring to everyone on this earth that includes me, but if you actually ask me about this, means that you are also one of the same kind, well, i have nothing to say.
But life is short, cherish whatever you have, don't ever let a person walk pass you, once it passes, it will be away forever, and won't be turning back again, life is to move forward but not to turn back, this applies to matters,people & things. And this applies to me too, not to turn back but to move on.
Well, nagging is over. =x
I'm gonna upload super super lots of pictures in my facebook, guys you can go take it from there, either i tag you all or you take from me in the facebook.
Anyway, i have to change my blog song la.
♥ 10:25 PM
Out for the whole morning, OH MY GOD, so so HOT!!!!!!! I almost melted. Went to Chinatown to get the stuffs for my own use, bar equipments.
Amanda & i meet at 11am, we were laughing along the way when we were walking to Sia Huat, because i took the wrong route to there; thus, we walked 1 whole round. =x
Got the stuffs we want, and we headed back to station and go to Causeway Point.
Went to Cold Storage and got our ingredients, okay, later I'm gonna try to make it out again, hopefully the taste will be better than yesterday night i made. =)
Amanda & i were talking about my birthday present, HAHA.
She got 4 choices to choose, but these 4 choices are the same but only the name & shape is different. LOL
Come to think, what is the most sweet and memorable birthday present?
Hmm, i think when the person receive a box, and when the person open it, inside is nothing, it is just an empty box, but the person who give the box, suddenly give the birthday girl/boy a kiss, this is a very very sweet and memorable gift that the person ever receive. Though it is not an expensive gift, but this is a very sweet present to recieve. Well, this is the most super SWEETEST SWEETEST thing on the EARTH.
What else can be very sweet apart from this?
I just love sweet stuffs, but not the sweets la.
Have you ever let a person who loves you so so much but you actually could not be together with him/her?
Have you ever think what you want?
Have you let go a person just because of one reason?
Have you ever give up on a person because you know that both of you won't have outcome?
Have you ever think of giving it a try?
Have you ever hurt a person?
Have you ever learn to LOVE?
Have you ever learn to cherish everything around you?
Have you ever lie?
Have you ever think of what you say?
Well, i just feel like writing all these out, so i just write it out.
Life is short, in one wholelife time, will you really meet a person who love you so so much, and you also love the person so so much back, and get into marriage and hold hands till both are old?
Well, i believe there are people who are like this.
Okay, i shall end my blog till here. Will update again later in the night.
Amanda & i meet at 11am, we were laughing along the way when we were walking to Sia Huat, because i took the wrong route to there; thus, we walked 1 whole round. =x
Got the stuffs we want, and we headed back to station and go to Causeway Point.
Went to Cold Storage and got our ingredients, okay, later I'm gonna try to make it out again, hopefully the taste will be better than yesterday night i made. =)
Amanda & i were talking about my birthday present, HAHA.
She got 4 choices to choose, but these 4 choices are the same but only the name & shape is different. LOL
Come to think, what is the most sweet and memorable birthday present?
Hmm, i think when the person receive a box, and when the person open it, inside is nothing, it is just an empty box, but the person who give the box, suddenly give the birthday girl/boy a kiss, this is a very very sweet and memorable gift that the person ever receive. Though it is not an expensive gift, but this is a very sweet present to recieve. Well, this is the most super SWEETEST SWEETEST thing on the EARTH.
What else can be very sweet apart from this?
I just love sweet stuffs, but not the sweets la.
Have you ever let a person who loves you so so much but you actually could not be together with him/her?
Have you ever think what you want?
Have you let go a person just because of one reason?
Have you ever give up on a person because you know that both of you won't have outcome?
Have you ever think of giving it a try?
Have you ever hurt a person?
Have you ever learn to LOVE?
Have you ever learn to cherish everything around you?
Have you ever lie?
Have you ever think of what you say?
Well, i just feel like writing all these out, so i just write it out.
Life is short, in one wholelife time, will you really meet a person who love you so so much, and you also love the person so so much back, and get into marriage and hold hands till both are old?
Well, i believe there are people who are like this.
Okay, i shall end my blog till here. Will update again later in the night.
♥ 6:50 PM
Friday, January 16, 2009
So so tired today, well, school today was okay okay, not very chaotic?
As I'm not involve in the service. =)
Group 2 people were very "ke lian" because they were made to come back to school for nothing huh? I think so
Okay, at 1pm, group 2 and i were "rushing" to whatever room, i forgot what is the room name called la.
And funny happenings going on in there, we took videos in there, HAHA, super super funny, and after that we were made to "pluck out" the plastic from the chairs?? Well, kinda of doing some contractor's stuffs la.
And sir actually said that we will also get the cert by doing this, HAHA, funny lor.
Everyone's hands were super super pain, it took a lots of ENERGY to do that okay?
Then, after that, everyone went home, but Amanda & me went to Tanglin Mall Market Place.
Before that, Celeste & Amanda went to St. Regis to take their pay, well, their pay was ~~~ TOP SECRET LA!!!
Then Celeste went off, and only left Amanda & me. :D
LOL
We went to Market Place, to look for our ingredients for our cocktail preparations. HAHA, lots of happenings happened in there, we saw super super BIG PEAR & BIG APPLE, we took the pictures with the fruits, will upload in facebook. Is super super FUNNY!!! LOL
We managed to get the items we want, but still quite a few missing, i think. I got 7 countries of items already, Amanda still sort of 1. But she will gonna get it soon, if I'm not wrong.
We stayed around 2-3hours just in Market Place, we still have to go to Jason's Place.
After got the items, we went to Mac's chill out, well, actually we just want to eat la, because we were super super HUNGRY, as we did not eat anything in the morning till 3pm plus, we ate only 2 mouthful of noodles, which is definitely NOT ENOUGH!!!!
As we were having our dinner, we talked a lot of stuffs, well, kinda of stupid, okay, maybe part of the conversation is very serious, but is the truth okay? Super super true, well, there are nothing to hide or to lie la, so whatever we said are true. Okay, Amanda do frighten me in the morning, you know what i mean, don't act huh!!
Well, at Mac's, we were talking about mindset and thinking's, though these both may sound the same, but actually, if you think carefully, it is two different matter.
And we were "gossiping", HAHA, kinda of stupid stuffs and we were crapping around?? I think so.
After that, we went to a shop, OH MY GOD!! I will definitely go back to the shop, to buy lots of things..!! HAHA, because all the things inside are so so so CUTE!!!
We were inside for almost half an hour, we saw a lot of cute stuffs we like, HAHA
Then we slowly walked back to Orchard MRT, so so funny, we talked a lot la, super super a lot of craps la.
We were super super tired too, -.-zzZZz
We took the train back home, i was so so super tire that i fall asleep in the train, super soundly!! HAHA, almost miss my stop, lucky Amanda woke me up.
Tomorrow gonna meet her again, going to Sia Huat to buy the equipments. Later tonight, I'm going to make my cocktail, hopefully it will turn out well.
Who wanna be my 1st "customer" to try it out?
HAHA, free of charge, no GST & no service charge.
The name of my cocktail is "U & ME"
Ingredients are, TOP TOP SECRETS
Story behind of this, TOP SECRETS TOO
Story for this, is also need to be submit to the organiser, need to be handwritten.
Well, I'm gonna think how to write it out on to the paper, the story is quite long? I need to cut cut cut superX10000000000000000 SHORT.
Then i need to have the exact amount for the ingredients and submit together with the story.
As for the garnish, i gonna change, because of ~~~~ ARGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
Well, time-being is gonna be like that only. Any more info, will update here again
HAHA.
I'm freaking so so TIRE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
A quote to share:
'It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel.'
As I'm not involve in the service. =)
Group 2 people were very "ke lian" because they were made to come back to school for nothing huh? I think so
Okay, at 1pm, group 2 and i were "rushing" to whatever room, i forgot what is the room name called la.
And funny happenings going on in there, we took videos in there, HAHA, super super funny, and after that we were made to "pluck out" the plastic from the chairs?? Well, kinda of doing some contractor's stuffs la.
And sir actually said that we will also get the cert by doing this, HAHA, funny lor.
Everyone's hands were super super pain, it took a lots of ENERGY to do that okay?
Then, after that, everyone went home, but Amanda & me went to Tanglin Mall Market Place.
Before that, Celeste & Amanda went to St. Regis to take their pay, well, their pay was ~~~ TOP SECRET LA!!!
Then Celeste went off, and only left Amanda & me. :D
LOL
We went to Market Place, to look for our ingredients for our cocktail preparations. HAHA, lots of happenings happened in there, we saw super super BIG PEAR & BIG APPLE, we took the pictures with the fruits, will upload in facebook. Is super super FUNNY!!! LOL
We managed to get the items we want, but still quite a few missing, i think. I got 7 countries of items already, Amanda still sort of 1. But she will gonna get it soon, if I'm not wrong.
We stayed around 2-3hours just in Market Place, we still have to go to Jason's Place.
After got the items, we went to Mac's chill out, well, actually we just want to eat la, because we were super super HUNGRY, as we did not eat anything in the morning till 3pm plus, we ate only 2 mouthful of noodles, which is definitely NOT ENOUGH!!!!
As we were having our dinner, we talked a lot of stuffs, well, kinda of stupid, okay, maybe part of the conversation is very serious, but is the truth okay? Super super true, well, there are nothing to hide or to lie la, so whatever we said are true. Okay, Amanda do frighten me in the morning, you know what i mean, don't act huh!!
Well, at Mac's, we were talking about mindset and thinking's, though these both may sound the same, but actually, if you think carefully, it is two different matter.
And we were "gossiping", HAHA, kinda of stupid stuffs and we were crapping around?? I think so.
After that, we went to a shop, OH MY GOD!! I will definitely go back to the shop, to buy lots of things..!! HAHA, because all the things inside are so so so CUTE!!!
We were inside for almost half an hour, we saw a lot of cute stuffs we like, HAHA
Then we slowly walked back to Orchard MRT, so so funny, we talked a lot la, super super a lot of craps la.
We were super super tired too, -.-zzZZz
We took the train back home, i was so so super tire that i fall asleep in the train, super soundly!! HAHA, almost miss my stop, lucky Amanda woke me up.
Tomorrow gonna meet her again, going to Sia Huat to buy the equipments. Later tonight, I'm going to make my cocktail, hopefully it will turn out well.
Who wanna be my 1st "customer" to try it out?
HAHA, free of charge, no GST & no service charge.
The name of my cocktail is "U & ME"
Ingredients are, TOP TOP SECRETS
Story behind of this, TOP SECRETS TOO
Story for this, is also need to be submit to the organiser, need to be handwritten.
Well, I'm gonna think how to write it out on to the paper, the story is quite long? I need to cut cut cut superX10000000000000000 SHORT.
Then i need to have the exact amount for the ingredients and submit together with the story.
As for the garnish, i gonna change, because of ~~~~ ARGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
Well, time-being is gonna be like that only. Any more info, will update here again
HAHA.
I'm freaking so so TIRE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
A quote to share:
'It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel.'
♥ 10:08 PM
I'm freaking FED UP with 2 people, well shall not mention in here la.
Today school was ended late for me, or rather for me, Fionna & Amanda.
Because we were helping out for our school iDelite, well, kinda of media stuffs.
Then we were doing this and that, kinda of all media stuffs la.
Then we left school around 6pm, super super late, i was supposed to meet my sweeties at 6.30pm huh? And i reached there around at 7.30pm, OH MY GOD, I'm freaking super duper LATE.
After met them up, we went to Xin Wang Cafe to have our dinner together, well, i can said that we really ate alot, OH MY GOD, is really beyond my imagination, or rather our's.
We met up at Yishun Northpoint (NP)
After some renovations had done, there were new shops and more foods at there, WOW!! Is cool okay, there were alot alot of new shops, i really spent a lot of time just now at there to walk around, and you know what?!! I got my 1st birthday present already, HAHA, given by Qi & Xin.
Qi gave me a water bottle and a bottle of sweets, and Xin got me a shoe bag, okay, i will say that Xin really gave me a shock by giving me a shoe bag, HAHA, 4 of us know why can already, is a secret, if not i will be super super "paiseh".
Then we kept walking around there, OH MY GOD, i really saw a lot of things i want, even Xin & Qi said the things that i want, are very nice, they like it too, =) hmm, anyone please buy for me can..???~_~ (i really don't mind if you guys wanna get for me, because i really really superX10000000000 LOVE IT A LOT!!!!)
I will really go back there and buy, so must must wait for me to "claim" them,=) HAHA
Then we went to Mac's, slacked over there and have some "gossiping"
Then we saw quite a few of our friends, oh my goodnesssake, a lot of our own friends could not recogise us, well, i actually also don't recongise them till Xin & Qi said who they are, HAHA.
Took quite some pictures, will upload in my facebook & friendster, HAHA, some funny funny pictures huh?? I think so..??
We were really walking a lot at there, our legs are super super PAIN!!!!!!
So long never meet up with them already, like 2 weeks already? I think so, so so MISS them, well, we are going to have a reunion lunch/dinner at my house, HAHA, they also quite some time did not come to my house, as everyone were freaking so busy with school life.
But our friendship still remains there. :D
Okay, I'm now doing the videos for iDelite, I'm freaking so tire already. School tomorrow for me will still be the same, i will still be tire as today, but tomorrow I'm going to Sia Huat, to get the equipments that i need, hopefully i will smoothly come up the concoction for my cocktail, "U & Me", the name of my cocktail, well, i simply love the name, there is a story behind it, why i will choose this as the name. =)
Will blog till here, will update again.
Today school was ended late for me, or rather for me, Fionna & Amanda.
Because we were helping out for our school iDelite, well, kinda of media stuffs.
Then we were doing this and that, kinda of all media stuffs la.
Then we left school around 6pm, super super late, i was supposed to meet my sweeties at 6.30pm huh? And i reached there around at 7.30pm, OH MY GOD, I'm freaking super duper LATE.
After met them up, we went to Xin Wang Cafe to have our dinner together, well, i can said that we really ate alot, OH MY GOD, is really beyond my imagination, or rather our's.
We met up at Yishun Northpoint (NP)
After some renovations had done, there were new shops and more foods at there, WOW!! Is cool okay, there were alot alot of new shops, i really spent a lot of time just now at there to walk around, and you know what?!! I got my 1st birthday present already, HAHA, given by Qi & Xin.
Qi gave me a water bottle and a bottle of sweets, and Xin got me a shoe bag, okay, i will say that Xin really gave me a shock by giving me a shoe bag, HAHA, 4 of us know why can already, is a secret, if not i will be super super "paiseh".
Then we kept walking around there, OH MY GOD, i really saw a lot of things i want, even Xin & Qi said the things that i want, are very nice, they like it too, =) hmm, anyone please buy for me can..???~_~ (i really don't mind if you guys wanna get for me, because i really really superX10000000000 LOVE IT A LOT!!!!)
I will really go back there and buy, so must must wait for me to "claim" them,=) HAHA
Then we went to Mac's, slacked over there and have some "gossiping"
Then we saw quite a few of our friends, oh my goodnesssake, a lot of our own friends could not recogise us, well, i actually also don't recongise them till Xin & Qi said who they are, HAHA.
Took quite some pictures, will upload in my facebook & friendster, HAHA, some funny funny pictures huh?? I think so..??
We were really walking a lot at there, our legs are super super PAIN!!!!!!
So long never meet up with them already, like 2 weeks already? I think so, so so MISS them, well, we are going to have a reunion lunch/dinner at my house, HAHA, they also quite some time did not come to my house, as everyone were freaking so busy with school life.
But our friendship still remains there. :D
Okay, I'm now doing the videos for iDelite, I'm freaking so tire already. School tomorrow for me will still be the same, i will still be tire as today, but tomorrow I'm going to Sia Huat, to get the equipments that i need, hopefully i will smoothly come up the concoction for my cocktail, "U & Me", the name of my cocktail, well, i simply love the name, there is a story behind it, why i will choose this as the name. =)
Will blog till here, will update again.
♥ 1:11 AM
Thursday, January 15, 2009
TIME CHECK: 12.40AM
Just got home not long, and I'm here to blog already, well, i had shower already, so i can happily use the laptop. =)
Okay, how is my day for today?
Well, i woke up at 6.30am, went out at 7.10am, and i waited Celeste at Woodlands station around 20mins if I'm not wrong. As she had overslept, so she was late, then after she came, we went to take train together and till Bukit Batok, we need to wait for Amanda again. Then she came, and Celeste realised that she brought the wrong thing, instead she bring her vest, she bring an extra skirt. HAHA, funny right? Amanda and i just could not stop laughing, anyway, Celeste was laughing too.
And how she got her vest, bleah bleah bleah, i won't say much in here, because the story is super super funny, well, Celeste, don't forget you have to go buy 4D okay?LOL She know what i mean and Amanda too.
Well, we were been tricked to go to Dover ITE HQ at 9am. Because the actual thing actullay starts at 1pm, and all of us were freaking so boring, i mean it, is REALLY VERY BORING.
But luckily, there were a lot of us to entertain each others, and we took a lot of pictures and videos. And you know what, today is a super HILARIOUS AND FUNNY day for us.
Honestly speaking, we were laughing the whole day out okay? I mean it man, we were laughing and laughing till the whole event end, okay, maybe when we were doing the service we did stop laughing for awhile, we really hold it down man.
Oh ya, i saw Papa Conrad, he was just right in front of me, he was one of the speakers today
and he got himself a new specs, which made him look more cuter, Amanda agreed with me (If i remember correctly she did say that sentence)
Then we took tons of pictures during the event, which includes we took the pictures of the food!!!! The food was so so so so NICE, well, maybe not all, but at least 2-3 huh?
Today, the event that held at Dover ITE HQ, it is to officially launch the iDelite.
There were a lot of people today, but i don't know who they are, except a few.
The event ends around 3.30pm, well, before we left Dover, Fang, me, Amanda, Celeste & Sue were trying out a lot of things, i can only use 1 word to describe this, which is "SHIOK"
Then after we left there, okay i shall said that we used a lot of time before we really leave there, well, I'm the culprit for this, but i won't say why I'm the one, is just super super freaking funny la okay?
Then we went off to take bus to Dover station, Rizal was super super funny, because we were doing something, and he was shouting here and there, all of us just cannot stop laughing, and everyone in the bus were looking at us, so paiseh okay?
Then off we go to take the train, Amanda, Celeste & myself alighted at Bona Vitas, we went to Holland V, as they did to get some stuffs from there, and i need to work today.
Well, today's working was still normal, but kinda of tire? Not only me, but everyone working at there?
During work time, Lovein keep ask me this and that, then i answer him this and that, well, you know what, everything really don't come with an answer la.
But thanks to him, i realised a lot of things and come to terms with it, well, Celeste & Amanda, by FRIDAY!!! Don't forget, i really by FRIDAY la.
Then now, what I'm gonna do, is that i need to think of a way how to carve this fruit that I'm gonna use as my garishing, i can only say this fruit is simply so stubborn that is very hard to carve.
But then, whenever i come to think of this matter, really la, something cannot be changed means cannot be changed, because the person's mindset is fixd, nothing can be done to the mindset okay??!!
Just kinda of~~~~~~~~~~~~
Tomorrow gonna celebrate my birthday and Xin's birthday, gonna eat again huh??
Well blog till here, will upload the pictures i took today, and if tomorrow have, i will upload too..=)
Night guys.
Just got home not long, and I'm here to blog already, well, i had shower already, so i can happily use the laptop. =)
Okay, how is my day for today?
Well, i woke up at 6.30am, went out at 7.10am, and i waited Celeste at Woodlands station around 20mins if I'm not wrong. As she had overslept, so she was late, then after she came, we went to take train together and till Bukit Batok, we need to wait for Amanda again. Then she came, and Celeste realised that she brought the wrong thing, instead she bring her vest, she bring an extra skirt. HAHA, funny right? Amanda and i just could not stop laughing, anyway, Celeste was laughing too.
And how she got her vest, bleah bleah bleah, i won't say much in here, because the story is super super funny, well, Celeste, don't forget you have to go buy 4D okay?LOL She know what i mean and Amanda too.
Well, we were been tricked to go to Dover ITE HQ at 9am. Because the actual thing actullay starts at 1pm, and all of us were freaking so boring, i mean it, is REALLY VERY BORING.
But luckily, there were a lot of us to entertain each others, and we took a lot of pictures and videos. And you know what, today is a super HILARIOUS AND FUNNY day for us.
Honestly speaking, we were laughing the whole day out okay? I mean it man, we were laughing and laughing till the whole event end, okay, maybe when we were doing the service we did stop laughing for awhile, we really hold it down man.
Oh ya, i saw Papa Conrad, he was just right in front of me, he was one of the speakers today
and he got himself a new specs, which made him look more cuter, Amanda agreed with me (If i remember correctly she did say that sentence)
Then we took tons of pictures during the event, which includes we took the pictures of the food!!!! The food was so so so so NICE, well, maybe not all, but at least 2-3 huh?
Today, the event that held at Dover ITE HQ, it is to officially launch the iDelite.
There were a lot of people today, but i don't know who they are, except a few.
The event ends around 3.30pm, well, before we left Dover, Fang, me, Amanda, Celeste & Sue were trying out a lot of things, i can only use 1 word to describe this, which is "SHIOK"
Then after we left there, okay i shall said that we used a lot of time before we really leave there, well, I'm the culprit for this, but i won't say why I'm the one, is just super super freaking funny la okay?
Then we went off to take bus to Dover station, Rizal was super super funny, because we were doing something, and he was shouting here and there, all of us just cannot stop laughing, and everyone in the bus were looking at us, so paiseh okay?
Then off we go to take the train, Amanda, Celeste & myself alighted at Bona Vitas, we went to Holland V, as they did to get some stuffs from there, and i need to work today.
Well, today's working was still normal, but kinda of tire? Not only me, but everyone working at there?
During work time, Lovein keep ask me this and that, then i answer him this and that, well, you know what, everything really don't come with an answer la.
But thanks to him, i realised a lot of things and come to terms with it, well, Celeste & Amanda, by FRIDAY!!! Don't forget, i really by FRIDAY la.
Then now, what I'm gonna do, is that i need to think of a way how to carve this fruit that I'm gonna use as my garishing, i can only say this fruit is simply so stubborn that is very hard to carve.
But then, whenever i come to think of this matter, really la, something cannot be changed means cannot be changed, because the person's mindset is fixd, nothing can be done to the mindset okay??!!
Just kinda of~~~~~~~~~~~~
Tomorrow gonna celebrate my birthday and Xin's birthday, gonna eat again huh??
Well blog till here, will upload the pictures i took today, and if tomorrow have, i will upload too..=)
Night guys.
♥ 12:39 AM
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Well, school today was super a waste of time of MINE!!
I reached school around 9.30am, and you know what time did my school end? It ended at 10.30am huh? Maybe even earlier okay? Freaking so stupid right? But i have to do some shootings videos, so i have to stay in school till 4.30pm or 5pm.
I was like so so so "stoning" there just to wait for the shooting.
Then after the shooting, i went to have dinner with Celeste & Amanda.
Well, we were sitting right under the television, and everyone were watching the show.
So funny.
Celeste keep laughing, as there were people wearing sunglasses to watch the television huh? Kinda of weird, wearing sunglasses and watch television.
And she kept laughing at me, Amanda also huh?
I promised la, really will means really will, but you guys really just don't believe me right?
No matter i said how many times, you guys just don't believe me, well, i cannot do anything with it already.
Well, it's time to make a way out okay, I'm really trying my hard already la, then you guys still laughing at me, can't stand you guys. ><"
By friday, can? I will make it on friday, I'm sure, but still the fun would be there as normal, there will be no changes.
It will be more funny if there are changes to it la, understand? Well, i bet Celeste don't understand, this is an agreement between me & Amanda, as we think that Celeste's definition for this word, which is i don't know how to say in english, kinda of weird la.
Well, i shall prove it to you, AH LIAN!!!!!!!
Whatever you said during the dinner, i can said that there will be no changes, NO CHANGES, understand??!! LOL
Just remember, nothing is gonna change not my heart but the mind.
Love is just a part of “emotion” in life.
How to escape from LOVE?
How to avoid LOVE?
How to learn to LOVE?
How to learn to cherish LOVE?
LOVE is just a noun that you cannot explain in words but in actions.
I reached school around 9.30am, and you know what time did my school end? It ended at 10.30am huh? Maybe even earlier okay? Freaking so stupid right? But i have to do some shootings videos, so i have to stay in school till 4.30pm or 5pm.
I was like so so so "stoning" there just to wait for the shooting.
Then after the shooting, i went to have dinner with Celeste & Amanda.
Well, we were sitting right under the television, and everyone were watching the show.
So funny.
Celeste keep laughing, as there were people wearing sunglasses to watch the television huh? Kinda of weird, wearing sunglasses and watch television.
And she kept laughing at me, Amanda also huh?
I promised la, really will means really will, but you guys really just don't believe me right?
No matter i said how many times, you guys just don't believe me, well, i cannot do anything with it already.
Well, it's time to make a way out okay, I'm really trying my hard already la, then you guys still laughing at me, can't stand you guys. ><"
By friday, can? I will make it on friday, I'm sure, but still the fun would be there as normal, there will be no changes.
It will be more funny if there are changes to it la, understand? Well, i bet Celeste don't understand, this is an agreement between me & Amanda, as we think that Celeste's definition for this word, which is i don't know how to say in english, kinda of weird la.
Well, i shall prove it to you, AH LIAN!!!!!!!
Whatever you said during the dinner, i can said that there will be no changes, NO CHANGES, understand??!! LOL
Just remember, nothing is gonna change not my heart but the mind.
Love is just a part of “emotion” in life.
How to escape from LOVE?
How to avoid LOVE?
How to learn to LOVE?
How to learn to cherish LOVE?
LOVE is just a noun that you cannot explain in words but in actions.
♥ 11:28 PM
Monday, January 12, 2009
Well, guys, the most most funniest thing had happened, i don't know whether should i say is funny or whatever la.
Just can say is really really funny
Well, call me and i will tell you what is the most funniest thing had happened, i can really say is beyond my imagination & beyond everyone's imagination.
I swear, trust me, call me & ask, don't act huh you guys..LOLOLOLOLOLOLsss!!!!!!!!!
Just can say is really really funny
Well, call me and i will tell you what is the most funniest thing had happened, i can really say is beyond my imagination & beyond everyone's imagination.
I swear, trust me, call me & ask, don't act huh you guys..LOLOLOLOLOLOLsss!!!!!!!!!
♥ 11:13 PM
愛上一ㄍ人..........如此的甜蜜卻又讓人受傷害
放棄一ㄍ人..........如此的難過卻又讓人心碎
珍惜身旁的每一ㄍ人,不要等到失去了
才瞭解到遺憾.和後悔是如此的痛苦....
~※→因為愛你.所以放手還你自由←※~
~※→因為愛你.所以不再讓你困擾←※~
~※→因為愛你.所以寧願自己難過←※~
~※→因為愛你.所以我逼自己離開←※~
如果我還一直深愛著你...你是否還會待在我身邊?
如果我還一直在乎著你...你是否會再多看我一眼?
是否我已不存在了...你才感覺的到我的離開?
是否我已離開了....你才感覺的到我對你的好?
This is a email that my friend sent it to me, i find it super super meaningful, so i copy & paste here, just a piece of normal email, that taught you how to be a good lover, even though you may not be a couple together, love does not mean have to own you, so long you live happily, another person will still be happy for you. =)
♥ 8:43 PM
"I'm sorry, sincerely sorry, truly sorry, really really very sorry." <--- Just a phase i'm going through. School today was rather so so FUN!! There was food tasting, well, let me think think, what i have eaten today,
The best food i like most, is the red snappers!!! Is really really super nice to eat, Amanda agreed with me too.
Service for the 1st day today, was quite corked up? (i think so as there are only 10 guests but there are over 10plus servers)
So is like, super super a lot of people in the restaurant?? I think so.
And the table i taking care of was Mr Jonathan & his friends come and eat, OH MY GOD, is super freaking so funny okay? Amanda & i was laughing away as there are quite a few funny stuffs happened when we were serving him. (Amanda you know what i mean, we just can't help stop laughing okay?)
School ended around 4pm, but a lot of things happened after all the guests had left. Like Mr Paul, i seriously don't know what his mind is thinking, we have been cleaning over & over again, just to ensure the tables and the cutlery were placed carefully & nicely, everything were done super super NICE already, but he still can pick on us, and you know what? He actually threw the fork & knife to the floor, well, a lot of things happened as i said. Then Amanda's table was super super, i really don't wanna mention in here, HAHA.
Well, but Paul did not pick on me, which is after that, i talked to Amanda as we were taking train back home, she said,"is so obvious lor, he is playing favouritism" well, but i don't care what others think okay? Because i did whatever he said, well, except ask me go and die.
And my attendence till now is still 100%, i did not take MC before or skip school before. Cool huh, this is my 1st time i did not absent once in school.
I'm gonna be away~~~~~~~away to where?? TO MALAYSIA AGAIN!!!
And how long? Just gonna be 1 night, LOL
Do what? Just to eat
Things had been done, things cannot be changed, things cannot escape anymore.
What can i do now? She says,"do nothing now." Another said,"no need to care le la."
And another said this,"do whatever you think is right.."
Well, i have so so many advices huh? I think so
You have been bugging me ever since (very very long)
I have told you many many times before
I have do whatever i can do already
I think I'm clueless, speechless, brainless & helpless.
That's why no matter what i said or done, nothing is important anymore.
I will just remain quiet & lock myself up.
Thank to you, you make me realised the reason only now.
Well, i guess you know what i mean.
Love is an unblemished emotion while an infatuation is sometimes just lust masquerading as true devotion
Love is a language spoken by everyone, but understood only by a heart.
Feelings aren't logical.
The world is just to small for the 2 persons, who love each others but nothing can be done.
- Amber's chef salad
- Rolled crepes with chicken & morzzella
- Bisque (seafood soup)
- Mushroom soup (Cappuccino)
- Carbonara
- Seafood Ling
- Lamb ~~
- Rib eye
- Fish & chips
- Red snappers
- Roasted chicken breast
The best food i like most, is the red snappers!!! Is really really super nice to eat, Amanda agreed with me too.
Service for the 1st day today, was quite corked up? (i think so as there are only 10 guests but there are over 10plus servers)
So is like, super super a lot of people in the restaurant?? I think so.
And the table i taking care of was Mr Jonathan & his friends come and eat, OH MY GOD, is super freaking so funny okay? Amanda & i was laughing away as there are quite a few funny stuffs happened when we were serving him. (Amanda you know what i mean, we just can't help stop laughing okay?)
School ended around 4pm, but a lot of things happened after all the guests had left. Like Mr Paul, i seriously don't know what his mind is thinking, we have been cleaning over & over again, just to ensure the tables and the cutlery were placed carefully & nicely, everything were done super super NICE already, but he still can pick on us, and you know what? He actually threw the fork & knife to the floor, well, a lot of things happened as i said. Then Amanda's table was super super, i really don't wanna mention in here, HAHA.
Well, but Paul did not pick on me, which is after that, i talked to Amanda as we were taking train back home, she said,"is so obvious lor, he is playing favouritism" well, but i don't care what others think okay? Because i did whatever he said, well, except ask me go and die.
And my attendence till now is still 100%, i did not take MC before or skip school before. Cool huh, this is my 1st time i did not absent once in school.
I'm gonna be away~~~~~~~away to where?? TO MALAYSIA AGAIN!!!
And how long? Just gonna be 1 night, LOL
Do what? Just to eat
Things had been done, things cannot be changed, things cannot escape anymore.
What can i do now? She says,"do nothing now." Another said,"no need to care le la."
And another said this,"do whatever you think is right.."
Well, i have so so many advices huh? I think so
You have been bugging me ever since (very very long)
I have told you many many times before
I have do whatever i can do already
I think I'm clueless, speechless, brainless & helpless.
That's why no matter what i said or done, nothing is important anymore.
I will just remain quiet & lock myself up.
Thank to you, you make me realised the reason only now.
Well, i guess you know what i mean.
Love is an unblemished emotion while an infatuation is sometimes just lust masquerading as true devotion
Love is a language spoken by everyone, but understood only by a heart.
Feelings aren't logical.
The world is just to small for the 2 persons, who love each others but nothing can be done.
♥ 7:37 PM
Sunday, January 11, 2009
请告诉她 我不爱他
笑著难过 自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心 说真心谎话
别告诉她 我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默 代替所有回答
我才终于明白 办不到的承诺
就成了枷锁
This is a song sang by JJ Lin.
A part from the lyrics i copy and paste here, i love this part, so i sharing with you guys, but I'm not putting this song as my blog song.
I suddenly think of a matter, a super super funny matter that happened yesterday at my friend's house, kinda of some "idiotic" stuffs, i think so..?ah huh???!!
I need to fulfill my promises that i made ASAP..??
I need to do a lot of things in the next 2 months..??
I need to think of a way out for the next 1 month..??
I need to think seriously about this matter..??
I need to get this for myself as birthday present..??
I need to find LOVE??? LOL!!!!!!!! HAHA (just crapping around)
Well, i guess sometimes when you're alone, what will you think of? A person or a matter?
When you's are alone, what will you think of? A person who always manage to cheer you up?
When you're alone,what will you think of? A person that you never thought you will think?
When I'm alone, i will think of a lot of things, happy or unhappy all have, this is a phase of my life, there are always unhappy stuffs surrounding me, of course there are happy stuffs too.
A phase where i need to reset my thoughts and my mindset. How i wish i can be like others that don't think a lot, but i knew i cannot, a lot of things i have seen it by myself, by my own eyes, how i wish i do not need to witness all this, but i knew i cannot, surrounding does not allow me to do so.
I'm just a normal human-being, but because of something, it changes my whole life, whereby i seen the humans' evil side, a dirty part of them, made me feel so disgusted with the reality, even though i, myself maybe belong to them too, but this is in order to protect myself.
I simply feel so disheartened and disgusted with the ways how they act. A part where everyone do not like to see.
But i see everything, i kept quiet, i remained silence, i remained calm & i stayed away from them. But you never know what I'm thinking, because I'm able to hide from everyone, you might think I'm a kind of this person or that kind of person. But who knows the truth? What kind of person i am? I might don't even know for myself
Well, from today onwards, i will just keep to myself and i shall allow no one to hurt or lie to me. If i find out someone lies, you will be a no friend of mine, and i really mean it, i realised that in the past, I am really really too soft-hearted.
The night where everybody are sleeping soundly,
there is a person, who don't sleeps
there is a person, the mind is floating
there is a person, the heart is painful
and no one is there to give a hand,
and pushes away from the person;
thus the person is hurt,
and locked up ever since then;
never let go of anything,
never said anything,
but simply just stay away from everyone.
This is a song sang by JJ Lin.
A part from the lyrics i copy and paste here, i love this part, so i sharing with you guys, but I'm not putting this song as my blog song.
I suddenly think of a matter, a super super funny matter that happened yesterday at my friend's house, kinda of some "idiotic" stuffs, i think so..?ah huh???!!
I need to fulfill my promises that i made ASAP..??
I need to do a lot of things in the next 2 months..??
I need to think of a way out for the next 1 month..??
I need to think seriously about this matter..??
I need to get this for myself as birthday present..??
I need to find LOVE??? LOL!!!!!!!! HAHA (just crapping around)
Well, i guess sometimes when you're alone, what will you think of? A person or a matter?
When you's are alone, what will you think of? A person who always manage to cheer you up?
When you're alone,what will you think of? A person that you never thought you will think?
When I'm alone, i will think of a lot of things, happy or unhappy all have, this is a phase of my life, there are always unhappy stuffs surrounding me, of course there are happy stuffs too.
A phase where i need to reset my thoughts and my mindset. How i wish i can be like others that don't think a lot, but i knew i cannot, a lot of things i have seen it by myself, by my own eyes, how i wish i do not need to witness all this, but i knew i cannot, surrounding does not allow me to do so.
I'm just a normal human-being, but because of something, it changes my whole life, whereby i seen the humans' evil side, a dirty part of them, made me feel so disgusted with the reality, even though i, myself maybe belong to them too, but this is in order to protect myself.
I simply feel so disheartened and disgusted with the ways how they act. A part where everyone do not like to see.
But i see everything, i kept quiet, i remained silence, i remained calm & i stayed away from them. But you never know what I'm thinking, because I'm able to hide from everyone, you might think I'm a kind of this person or that kind of person. But who knows the truth? What kind of person i am? I might don't even know for myself
Well, from today onwards, i will just keep to myself and i shall allow no one to hurt or lie to me. If i find out someone lies, you will be a no friend of mine, and i really mean it, i realised that in the past, I am really really too soft-hearted.
The night where everybody are sleeping soundly,
there is a person, who don't sleeps
there is a person, the mind is floating
there is a person, the heart is painful
and no one is there to give a hand,
and pushes away from the person;
thus the person is hurt,
and locked up ever since then;
never let go of anything,
never said anything,
but simply just stay away from everyone.
♥ 11:48 PM
Today i had a super super FUNNY day.
Woke up around 10plus in the morning, and the 1st message i received was "causeway point? movie?up man?" LOL right?
I was like "oh, okay"
Then i was still slacking, using laptop & watching drama shows.
And it was 12.45pm, i was supposed to leave my house at 12.45pm, as the show starts at 1.45pm. Anyway, I'm late.
And I'm super super super hungry, though the yesterday i had a food feast, but i did not eat much.
Well, watched Ip Man today. OH MY GOD, i can said this movie is super super super COOL, NICE, EXCELLENT & MARVELLOUS!!!!!!!! I simply love this show, from the start till the end, you guys haven't go watch, please please go watch it now before it down show.
My head is super super pain. =(
I have been suffering headaches for the few months? days? I think so.
Well, i think i seriously need to go see my doctor, but i seriously don't know when I'm able to go. If I'm not wrong, i think my mum just keep nagging me about this, that i need to go see already, well, nagging is on the way...?? ><"
Today got myself some stuffs, well, for CNY anyway. Need to get a belt and a shorts, I'm only sort of these 2 things, well anyone want to get for me? Since my birthday is around the corner, and i need this 2 things, just get for me, can? PLEASE? (well, i'm just saying saying only,but if you really want to get it for me, i also wont' mind..LOL)
I seriously need to go to Bugis and get some stuffs, some stuffs that i wanna get it long time ago. Anyway, i got Amanda to buy me a bag for my birthday present? Kinda of FUNNY right? I actually tell her what i want, well, is better to tell people what you want, rather then they get you some stuffs that you won't even use it, isn't it? But anyway, I'm also gettig a bag for her too for her birthday okay? So we are just getting the bags for ourselves. LOL
(Anyway, alot of people know what to buy for me already, I'm so so happy)
Anyway, blog till here, I'm so sick to continue blog.
My day was ended with a "broken arm" today.
Woke up around 10plus in the morning, and the 1st message i received was "causeway point? movie?up man?" LOL right?
I was like "oh, okay"
Then i was still slacking, using laptop & watching drama shows.
And it was 12.45pm, i was supposed to leave my house at 12.45pm, as the show starts at 1.45pm. Anyway, I'm late.
And I'm super super super hungry, though the yesterday i had a food feast, but i did not eat much.
Well, watched Ip Man today. OH MY GOD, i can said this movie is super super super COOL, NICE, EXCELLENT & MARVELLOUS!!!!!!!! I simply love this show, from the start till the end, you guys haven't go watch, please please go watch it now before it down show.
My head is super super pain. =(
I have been suffering headaches for the few months? days? I think so.
Well, i think i seriously need to go see my doctor, but i seriously don't know when I'm able to go. If I'm not wrong, i think my mum just keep nagging me about this, that i need to go see already, well, nagging is on the way...?? ><"
Today got myself some stuffs, well, for CNY anyway. Need to get a belt and a shorts, I'm only sort of these 2 things, well anyone want to get for me? Since my birthday is around the corner, and i need this 2 things, just get for me, can? PLEASE? (well, i'm just saying saying only,but if you really want to get it for me, i also wont' mind..LOL)
I seriously need to go to Bugis and get some stuffs, some stuffs that i wanna get it long time ago. Anyway, i got Amanda to buy me a bag for my birthday present? Kinda of FUNNY right? I actually tell her what i want, well, is better to tell people what you want, rather then they get you some stuffs that you won't even use it, isn't it? But anyway, I'm also gettig a bag for her too for her birthday okay? So we are just getting the bags for ourselves. LOL
(Anyway, alot of people know what to buy for me already, I'm so so happy)
Anyway, blog till here, I'm so sick to continue blog.
My day was ended with a "broken arm" today.
♥ 9:22 PM
Yesterday
A big day for me and my classmates, we were having our exams at Tourism Board, wine scholarship. Well, seriously, i don't know what is my results... I think i will pass but not the top 5 scorer, okay? HAHA.
Then after that, Mr Jonathan brought us to have lunch, Chicken Rice, the food was not bad, and we treat him for lunch, as he has been teaching us since we had join the wine scholarship.
Then after that, he brought us to Shaw Tower, to have wine tasting, i can said that the wine are very nice to drink, especially Chardonnay & Moscato. I love it, i will go back with Gerald to buy for this year Christmas Feast. WEE WEE COOL~~~~
Then, Celeste, Eric, Gerald & me headed down to Cineleisure, to meet Fionna and to watch a movie.
We watched "Passengers", kinda of mystery movie?? And you know, before the movie starts, i actually fall asleep -.-
And when i woke up, the movie was like already showing 10mins? I think so.
After the movie, everyone were going back home, except Fionna & me. OH MY GOD, can you guys think?? Is a weekend!!! And everyone were heading back home so EARLY???!!
So Fionna & me went to Centre Point, supposed to get something, but too bad, it had sold out again?(I think Amanda know what i mean)
Then we headed down to Fullerton, Starbucks. Well, Fionna got herself a drink and a pie, while me i just got a ice chocolate.
And we sat outside, enjoy the scenery,(but there is no scenery okay??)
So we were chit-chatting, having some some some "serious talk" huh? I suppose so??
I kinda of letting of my mind but is kinda of hard too, well, let nature take its course.
irealliicouldholdurhands4eva,tilledayuwillleaveme.
isitardorisiteasytomakeedreamcometrue?
iwisheveryhingudreamtofwillcometrue
butanotherthinkin,ihopeitwontcometrue,bcozitseemsi'mabadpersonisntit?
ijustwan2lovueverydayasdayspass,cani?
A big day for me and my classmates, we were having our exams at Tourism Board, wine scholarship. Well, seriously, i don't know what is my results... I think i will pass but not the top 5 scorer, okay? HAHA.
Then after that, Mr Jonathan brought us to have lunch, Chicken Rice, the food was not bad, and we treat him for lunch, as he has been teaching us since we had join the wine scholarship.
Then after that, he brought us to Shaw Tower, to have wine tasting, i can said that the wine are very nice to drink, especially Chardonnay & Moscato. I love it, i will go back with Gerald to buy for this year Christmas Feast. WEE WEE COOL~~~~
Then, Celeste, Eric, Gerald & me headed down to Cineleisure, to meet Fionna and to watch a movie.
We watched "Passengers", kinda of mystery movie?? And you know, before the movie starts, i actually fall asleep -.-
And when i woke up, the movie was like already showing 10mins? I think so.
After the movie, everyone were going back home, except Fionna & me. OH MY GOD, can you guys think?? Is a weekend!!! And everyone were heading back home so EARLY???!!
So Fionna & me went to Centre Point, supposed to get something, but too bad, it had sold out again?(I think Amanda know what i mean)
Then we headed down to Fullerton, Starbucks. Well, Fionna got herself a drink and a pie, while me i just got a ice chocolate.
And we sat outside, enjoy the scenery,(but there is no scenery okay??)
So we were chit-chatting, having some some some "serious talk" huh? I suppose so??
I kinda of letting of my mind but is kinda of hard too, well, let nature take its course.
irealliicouldholdurhands4eva,tilledayuwillleaveme.
isitardorisiteasytomakeedreamcometrue?
iwisheveryhingudreamtofwillcometrue
butanotherthinkin,ihopeitwontcometrue,bcozitseemsi'mabadpersonisntit?
ijustwan2lovueverydayasdayspass,cani?
♥ 11:37 AM
Friday, January 9, 2009
Today school was rather boring again, super super BORING, we are having SELF-PHYSICAL EDUCATION???!!!! Can you believe that? Then we have our birthday celebration for Nov, Dec & Jan, this includes ME ME ME!! Well, this time we ordered muffins instead cake, well, the muffins taste okay okay, nothing special or what.
Then, Paul Paul asked me for a talk, serious serious talk, talk till I'm almost gonna cry again, but this time i really hold my tears, seriously I'm really hold onto it. I seriously owe him one "SORRY" because when yesterday (8/1/09), he asked for me and have a talk, i was really very upset and i hit the table, i actually hit the table in front of my own lecturer, I'M SUCH A BAD PERSON, I SHOULD NOT DO THIS IN FRONT OF MY OWN LECTURER. I'M REALLY REALLY VERY SORRY.
I do not want my lecturer change his view on me after seeing my another side, i know whatever i had done is too late to change anything. I can only say, i will do my best from now onwards.
And today, i feel seriously very very hurt and very upset. My mood is very very super super super duper duper duper down Xcountless time. Down till i really do not want to talk to anyone, and so i left early for the class, but in the end, i walked pass the hall, and Singh & Naz asked me to go in and play badminton for awhile, so i decided to go in and play, at least do something that i am able to vent my frustrations on somewhere else, and Joan accompanied me to play. Thanks to her, i'm able to let go my mind for sometime.
We played till around 6.30pm, and we left and took a bus back home, Amanda saw me in the bus, and her head was like turning 180 degrees??!! Just to confirm that the person she saw is me. Kinda of weird
Can anyone make my day brighter? I feel really really super super down, lots of happening surrounding me, though i may not be the person who totally involve in it, but i will still feel down and whatsoever okay?
I feel hurt today, i am down today, i feel like i'm now like a corpse walking around without my soul.
Sometimes even though i'm just right beside my friends but i'm thinking another matter, which is hanging in my heart for quite a time, like 1 month or might be even longer.
Sometimes i think that what will happen between you and him, if i have never say my pieces out? Maybe both of you might have a chance of getting together. But i also do not have the 100% of faith that will be together.
iluvewayuholdmyhandsamiabletoholdurhandstilledayuwillleaveme?
iwannaasku,caniholdurhands4eva?
Then, Paul Paul asked me for a talk, serious serious talk, talk till I'm almost gonna cry again, but this time i really hold my tears, seriously I'm really hold onto it. I seriously owe him one "SORRY" because when yesterday (8/1/09), he asked for me and have a talk, i was really very upset and i hit the table, i actually hit the table in front of my own lecturer, I'M SUCH A BAD PERSON, I SHOULD NOT DO THIS IN FRONT OF MY OWN LECTURER. I'M REALLY REALLY VERY SORRY.
I do not want my lecturer change his view on me after seeing my another side, i know whatever i had done is too late to change anything. I can only say, i will do my best from now onwards.
And today, i feel seriously very very hurt and very upset. My mood is very very super super super duper duper duper down Xcountless time. Down till i really do not want to talk to anyone, and so i left early for the class, but in the end, i walked pass the hall, and Singh & Naz asked me to go in and play badminton for awhile, so i decided to go in and play, at least do something that i am able to vent my frustrations on somewhere else, and Joan accompanied me to play. Thanks to her, i'm able to let go my mind for sometime.
We played till around 6.30pm, and we left and took a bus back home, Amanda saw me in the bus, and her head was like turning 180 degrees??!! Just to confirm that the person she saw is me. Kinda of weird
Can anyone make my day brighter? I feel really really super super down, lots of happening surrounding me, though i may not be the person who totally involve in it, but i will still feel down and whatsoever okay?
I feel hurt today, i am down today, i feel like i'm now like a corpse walking around without my soul.
Sometimes even though i'm just right beside my friends but i'm thinking another matter, which is hanging in my heart for quite a time, like 1 month or might be even longer.
Sometimes i think that what will happen between you and him, if i have never say my pieces out? Maybe both of you might have a chance of getting together. But i also do not have the 100% of faith that will be together.
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♥ 9:48 PM
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Today went to NUSS for service..okay, service to serve VVIPs, even though there is President, but I'm not to serve President okay? HAHA, but anyway, he is just a human too, not made of gold or what okay? But everything seems to cork up, I'm not going back there anymore man.
I'm super super down today, when back to school to have a talk with Paul Paul, okay, i admitted it, okay?? I feel like I'm really a "JERK"??!! AH HUH??!!
I cried in front of him and Amanda, 7 years i have not drop 1 single tear at all, okay, maybe last year have, but once only because of~~~ but this year, i actually cried, and i still cried in front of 2 persons? Or maybe 3 persons? or 4? Whatever okay??!!
Whatever it is, I'm really really freaking emotionally & physically tired.
I'm so so tire, feel like just continue sleeping till i won't wake up, can it be true?
When I'm on my way back home, I was sleeping in the train, i was sleeping very soundly, because i feel tire, till Celeste wake me up, as she is alighting soon, when she touch me, she asked me,"why you are so hot?" I think she called me a few times before I'm awake, but I don't know why I'm hot, but Celeste said that I'm having a fever, but I think she's right.
I'm really having a fever, just got taken my temperature, guess how many degrees? Guess yourself okay? HAHA
I'm really feeling very unwell, I know that i cannot take it anymore already, well, let's see when i will collepes only, i think the time is coming already, and is getting nearer.
My dear friends, i know you guys are worrying about me, but honestly speaking, i feel like I'm just gonna go away for quite awhile, well, away as in I'm gonna stop contacting people, I'm really really very tire, i know that after you guys read my blog, will straight call me and ask me what happen, just call and ask, i won't be avoiding you guys or what, i will just say the truth, as i don't want you guys to worry about me.
Anyway, thanks to my dear little little friends who were there for me when I'm always down, never always fail to accompany me when i need it, and always will make me smile. Thank guys, i really appreciate it.
I'm super super down today, when back to school to have a talk with Paul Paul, okay, i admitted it, okay?? I feel like I'm really a "JERK"??!! AH HUH??!!
I cried in front of him and Amanda, 7 years i have not drop 1 single tear at all, okay, maybe last year have, but once only because of~~~ but this year, i actually cried, and i still cried in front of 2 persons? Or maybe 3 persons? or 4? Whatever okay??!!
Whatever it is, I'm really really freaking emotionally & physically tired.
I'm so so tire, feel like just continue sleeping till i won't wake up, can it be true?
When I'm on my way back home, I was sleeping in the train, i was sleeping very soundly, because i feel tire, till Celeste wake me up, as she is alighting soon, when she touch me, she asked me,"why you are so hot?" I think she called me a few times before I'm awake, but I don't know why I'm hot, but Celeste said that I'm having a fever, but I think she's right.
I'm really having a fever, just got taken my temperature, guess how many degrees? Guess yourself okay? HAHA
I'm really feeling very unwell, I know that i cannot take it anymore already, well, let's see when i will collepes only, i think the time is coming already, and is getting nearer.
My dear friends, i know you guys are worrying about me, but honestly speaking, i feel like I'm just gonna go away for quite awhile, well, away as in I'm gonna stop contacting people, I'm really really very tire, i know that after you guys read my blog, will straight call me and ask me what happen, just call and ask, i won't be avoiding you guys or what, i will just say the truth, as i don't want you guys to worry about me.
Anyway, thanks to my dear little little friends who were there for me when I'm always down, never always fail to accompany me when i need it, and always will make me smile. Thank guys, i really appreciate it.
♥ 8:16 PM
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Okay, today school was rather BORING?? Worse then yesterday i think..??
Everyone were like soon to fall asleep? Okay me too, but i did not sleep, because i keep disturbing Fionna, in order not to make myself to sleep in class, i keep disturbing her, >< LOL
Everyone seem very uptight today? As my sir was holding a pair of scissors, preparing to cut the people's hair that are very very long, but seems like only a few got this "punishment" HAHA
Today Rajeev's lesson was cancelled, so Mr.Paul take over it, so it was like, a sleeping lesson again? A super super super long chat, or rather a discussion?
Then we have the wine lesson again, but today we were self-studying, as Mr Jonathan was busy, manage to study awhile, till my hand phone rang. Well troubles always start when my hand phone RINGS!!
Well, my head is pain, I'm having a relapse of my headaches, and my medicine had finished, this means i have to really go for my check up now, i did not went for my check up last year, i actually skip for the past ONE WHOLE YEAR!!! LOL
Well, let me see see, when I'm free to go for the check up, well, NO TIME??!!?? I think
Anyway, I'm seriously feeling the pain pain pain...super PAIN
Okay, tomorrow few of us will be excused from school, as we will be going to NUSS to serve, serve who, we are gonna serve President, if we will be able to get near him, HAHA.
Then I'm gonna go back to school again, for wine & cocktail stuffs, and another important stuff, a super super important stuff, that really cause myself a severe headaches.
Well, i just really hope that everything will come to an end by tomorrow is the best or by Friday. I just wanna get out of this, my dear friend.
I just reached home not long, i'm so so so TIRE, but still i have to do some research and some stuffs, and you know what??!!! I'm hungry again!!!!!! Honestly speaking, i really have taken my dinner, but why just after 2hours i'm hungry again?? This is my 1st time that i feel hungry so fast. Well, that's too bad, i can only eat tomorrow morning as my house has nothing to eat at all, -.-
Well, I'm now msn-ing with a few of my friends, some heart-to-heart talking, i guess?? HAHA
Honestly speaking, i don't know what to blog already, because my headaches are super super pain till i can't think of anything, so I'm just gonna stop at here, wait till my mind is on the right track.
If only the world don't change till i dead, how good can it be?
Sometimes i will think, what will happen if i do not know you?
Sometimes i will think, is this the right decision?
Well, there are no answer for it. =)
Everyone were like soon to fall asleep? Okay me too, but i did not sleep, because i keep disturbing Fionna, in order not to make myself to sleep in class, i keep disturbing her, >< LOL
Everyone seem very uptight today? As my sir was holding a pair of scissors, preparing to cut the people's hair that are very very long, but seems like only a few got this "punishment" HAHA
Today Rajeev's lesson was cancelled, so Mr.Paul take over it, so it was like, a sleeping lesson again? A super super super long chat, or rather a discussion?
Then we have the wine lesson again, but today we were self-studying, as Mr Jonathan was busy, manage to study awhile, till my hand phone rang. Well troubles always start when my hand phone RINGS!!
Well, my head is pain, I'm having a relapse of my headaches, and my medicine had finished, this means i have to really go for my check up now, i did not went for my check up last year, i actually skip for the past ONE WHOLE YEAR!!! LOL
Well, let me see see, when I'm free to go for the check up, well, NO TIME??!!?? I think
Anyway, I'm seriously feeling the pain pain pain...super PAIN
Okay, tomorrow few of us will be excused from school, as we will be going to NUSS to serve, serve who, we are gonna serve President, if we will be able to get near him, HAHA.
Then I'm gonna go back to school again, for wine & cocktail stuffs, and another important stuff, a super super important stuff, that really cause myself a severe headaches.
Well, i just really hope that everything will come to an end by tomorrow is the best or by Friday. I just wanna get out of this, my dear friend.
I just reached home not long, i'm so so so TIRE, but still i have to do some research and some stuffs, and you know what??!!! I'm hungry again!!!!!! Honestly speaking, i really have taken my dinner, but why just after 2hours i'm hungry again?? This is my 1st time that i feel hungry so fast. Well, that's too bad, i can only eat tomorrow morning as my house has nothing to eat at all, -.-
Well, I'm now msn-ing with a few of my friends, some heart-to-heart talking, i guess?? HAHA
Honestly speaking, i don't know what to blog already, because my headaches are super super pain till i can't think of anything, so I'm just gonna stop at here, wait till my mind is on the right track.
If only the world don't change till i dead, how good can it be?
Sometimes i will think, what will happen if i do not know you?
Sometimes i will think, is this the right decision?
Well, there are no answer for it. =)
♥ 8:07 PM
TIME CHECK- is 2.54am EARLY IN THE MORNING, and i'm not asleep yet. =.="
Well well well, why the hell am i in here blogging right in the middle of nowhere? Kinda of weird huh? I supposedly think so..??As i need to wake up like in another 5hours later for school...??
I was out just now, so sorry to guys who i talked earlier on in MSN, i did not reply anything, and i'm out of MSN within a second..??Ya i think
And i'm out after that.
Went to check facebook & friendster, okay, there are quite alot of people had updated their profiles, changed pictures and status, single or not single. HAHA
Should i change my picture too? I think i need to change, i've been using the same one for like years already? Okay, maybe not years but months la..LOL
Listening to "No Matter" again huh..HAHA, i just really love this song, maybe when i have more time i will edit everything in my blog, change the song to this. :D
The lyrics for "No Matter" sang by Angel
Doesn't Matter who you are with
Doesn't matter where you are going
Don't you know I'm still waiting here for you
And Pray for you
In the sunny days, Suns will light your day
In the windy days, When will lead your way
I have to say, you're my treasure moments
Never gonna walk away
In the rainy days, rains will share my tears
In the stormy days, storms will steal my pain
Just go your way and leave things all behind
Spread your wings and fly away
I'm pretending you are mine
I'm wishing you'll be mine
The moments we share never die
You've make a difference to my life
Actually there are a few sentences gone, hmm, and i don't know why??
Well, the main part that i like is when the start of "in the rainy days.."
I just find this lyrics meaningful and really can touches my heart, deeply, i mean really deep.
Sometime when it rains, how i hope that the rain will help me wash away everything in my mind that i do not want to remember, but it doesn't help. That's why i fall sick super super easy, hmm, maybe i walk too much under the rain??
Well, so don't be surprise if i fall sick during the rain season, -.-"
Anyway, i'm like getting emo-ing? I think..????
Well, i suppose so, but things always don't turn out the way how people want, oh ya, i forgot to say that i have a few cuts on my ~~~~~~~~~~ well, i seriously don't know how did i get the cuts, this means that i'm seriously really don't know what actually happen to myself? Well, i'm just repeating the same sentence =.=
Now i really need to ...~~~
Till here for the moment, will update again
Well well well, why the hell am i in here blogging right in the middle of nowhere? Kinda of weird huh? I supposedly think so..??As i need to wake up like in another 5hours later for school...??
I was out just now, so sorry to guys who i talked earlier on in MSN, i did not reply anything, and i'm out of MSN within a second..??Ya i think
And i'm out after that.
Went to check facebook & friendster, okay, there are quite alot of people had updated their profiles, changed pictures and status, single or not single. HAHA
Should i change my picture too? I think i need to change, i've been using the same one for like years already? Okay, maybe not years but months la..LOL
Listening to "No Matter" again huh..HAHA, i just really love this song, maybe when i have more time i will edit everything in my blog, change the song to this. :D
The lyrics for "No Matter" sang by Angel
Doesn't Matter who you are with
Doesn't matter where you are going
Don't you know I'm still waiting here for you
And Pray for you
In the sunny days, Suns will light your day
In the windy days, When will lead your way
I have to say, you're my treasure moments
Never gonna walk away
In the rainy days, rains will share my tears
In the stormy days, storms will steal my pain
Just go your way and leave things all behind
Spread your wings and fly away
I'm pretending you are mine
I'm wishing you'll be mine
The moments we share never die
You've make a difference to my life
Actually there are a few sentences gone, hmm, and i don't know why??
Well, the main part that i like is when the start of "in the rainy days.."
I just find this lyrics meaningful and really can touches my heart, deeply, i mean really deep.
Sometime when it rains, how i hope that the rain will help me wash away everything in my mind that i do not want to remember, but it doesn't help. That's why i fall sick super super easy, hmm, maybe i walk too much under the rain??
Well, so don't be surprise if i fall sick during the rain season, -.-"
Anyway, i'm like getting emo-ing? I think..????
Well, i suppose so, but things always don't turn out the way how people want, oh ya, i forgot to say that i have a few cuts on my ~~~~~~~~~~ well, i seriously don't know how did i get the cuts, this means that i'm seriously really don't know what actually happen to myself? Well, i'm just repeating the same sentence =.=
Now i really need to ...~~~
Till here for the moment, will update again
♥ 2:53 AM
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Okay, school as usual for today, well, school was boring today, or rather was super dramatic? I think so, this is what Amanda said in the morning when we meet up to go school together. Okay, my lunch time was like 2hours? I think so, my click went to Sumo House to have our lunch at there. And after that, Amanda and i got an ice cream for our desert, Mac Flurry + flurry, well, i guess no one really know what is it, well, is just a normal ice-cream anyway.
Then we walked back to our school, for lessons, okay, i shall say that is not lesson or rather is doing presentation, well, the presentation is super super making us falling asleep, thanks to MR.PAUL.
This project was like years ago we had done, but he just want us to do and do and do again.><
And soon, it was the wine lesson again, as usual.
Then the class ended around 6.30pm..?? I think
Went to Lot 1, accompanied Celeste to collect her pay, okay, she is so so honoured to have Fionna & me to accompany her to Lot 1.
Before that, Celeste and i were walking in front of the twin sisters, she told me alot alot of things, HAHA, so Celeste, i'm able to threaten you already okay..??!!! HAHA, i'm just joking anyway, i'm such a good person, won't do anything that is bad okay..?!!OPPS..!! -.-"
And when we reached Lot 1, Fionna & Celeste went to BATA to collect the pay, while i'm in one of the shops "sightseeing" rings that i like, well, i found 1 that i like. :D
The ring was engraved with my name in it, since it is free-engraving, but is 6 letters only, so i only got my english name engraved in it.
Oh ya, bought a necklace to go along with the ring, as i want to hang it over my neck, rather then having it on my finger. =)
And this Celeste was so so funny huh, thought i'm buying for my friend, LOL
But is not, no matter how many times i said, she just don't believe it, anyway is for myself OKAY??!! AH LIAN
Well, Celeste said something today, opps opps, she should not said it out man, i think she don't even know what she had said today, well then, Celeste do you still remember in the train that we were taking towards Chua Chu Kang? You asked me something, and i said that i really really don't know, well, i really mean it, i really don't know OKAY?!! So AH LIAN, don't keep asking me the same question la you..LOL
And anyway, ahlian, nothing is gonna happen already, well, i know you will ask me why, so when you ask, i will tell you then okay? HAHA
Anyway, i decided the answer for myself already, well, i had made my stand clear, but seems that you still don't get it, well, i'm really clueless, since you don't get it, then well, forget it.
Now listening, "No matter" sang by Angel. Is a super super NICE SONG, i simply LOVE IT!
Well, i have tried, but nothing is gonna be ~~~~~??
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Then we walked back to our school, for lessons, okay, i shall say that is not lesson or rather is doing presentation, well, the presentation is super super making us falling asleep, thanks to MR.PAUL.
This project was like years ago we had done, but he just want us to do and do and do again.><
And soon, it was the wine lesson again, as usual.
Then the class ended around 6.30pm..?? I think
Went to Lot 1, accompanied Celeste to collect her pay, okay, she is so so honoured to have Fionna & me to accompany her to Lot 1.
Before that, Celeste and i were walking in front of the twin sisters, she told me alot alot of things, HAHA, so Celeste, i'm able to threaten you already okay..??!!! HAHA, i'm just joking anyway, i'm such a good person, won't do anything that is bad okay..?!!OPPS..!! -.-"
And when we reached Lot 1, Fionna & Celeste went to BATA to collect the pay, while i'm in one of the shops "sightseeing" rings that i like, well, i found 1 that i like. :D
The ring was engraved with my name in it, since it is free-engraving, but is 6 letters only, so i only got my english name engraved in it.
Oh ya, bought a necklace to go along with the ring, as i want to hang it over my neck, rather then having it on my finger. =)
And this Celeste was so so funny huh, thought i'm buying for my friend, LOL
But is not, no matter how many times i said, she just don't believe it, anyway is for myself OKAY??!! AH LIAN
Well, Celeste said something today, opps opps, she should not said it out man, i think she don't even know what she had said today, well then, Celeste do you still remember in the train that we were taking towards Chua Chu Kang? You asked me something, and i said that i really really don't know, well, i really mean it, i really don't know OKAY?!! So AH LIAN, don't keep asking me the same question la you..LOL
And anyway, ahlian, nothing is gonna happen already, well, i know you will ask me why, so when you ask, i will tell you then okay? HAHA
Anyway, i decided the answer for myself already, well, i had made my stand clear, but seems that you still don't get it, well, i'm really clueless, since you don't get it, then well, forget it.
Now listening, "No matter" sang by Angel. Is a super super NICE SONG, i simply LOVE IT!
Well, i have tried, but nothing is gonna be ~~~~~??
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♥ 8:47 PM
Well, school 1st day today was funny, or rather is kinda weird? I think so, who will do spring cleaning before CNY that is a long long way to go? Ya, that's right, is US!!!!!!! Our class were made to clean training restaurant & Amber, well well well, do you guys know how we clean it? Okay, is kinda of normal of spring cleaning, but anyway, we were made to wash the air-cons too, can you actually believe, AIR-CONS okay????!!! Sound weird right? How the hell did we manage to wash it, anyway, in the end we really did manage to wash and clean it, till it sparkle (maybe not)
After school, as usual, we have wine class, which lasted for 15mins??-.-" Short huh?because Sir was busy, so we did it quite short.
And after that, supposedly, to get "something" but since it was raining, kinda of heavy rain, did not manage to get the "something"
After that, i was supposed to head home, but i did not, because i went to Baden, meet C.Y at there, was preparing to get pay, but you know what, our BIG BIG boss, actually drag till he came at 10pm!!!!! Can you actually believe this??!!! C.Y & me reached Baden at 5pm, we actually waited for 5hrs++, then he came, what the HELL right?!! We were suppose to have dinner together as C.Y is flying off tomorrow, because of our big boss, we ended up eating the staff meal, anyway, we did not eat much.
And in between the waiting time, big Terrence was making fun of C.Y, HAHA, C.Y, you know what i mean, or rather, everyone in Baden know what is going on, is just the mosquito don't know, anyway, we know who is the mosquito can already, okay?HAHA
Today was so so so SUPER FUNNY at Baden, but anyway, is not fun till something happen, when there is a call that i recieved.
Well well well, i shall just remain like that. I think so, or rather, i will be going back to my old-self, a person who don't talk much, don't ask and don't say.
Well well well, the wall that had build around me, is not gonna demolish, because of ~~~
Okay, unless someone or some matter that is able to help me demolish.
The more i laugh, means the more hurting i'm getting, C.Y know what i mean, i can said that, she & i belong to the same kind of person, isn't it C.Y??
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butloveisalwaysntagdthingformehuh..?
ithinkso,maybisldjuz~~~~
After school, as usual, we have wine class, which lasted for 15mins??-.-" Short huh?because Sir was busy, so we did it quite short.
And after that, supposedly, to get "something" but since it was raining, kinda of heavy rain, did not manage to get the "something"
After that, i was supposed to head home, but i did not, because i went to Baden, meet C.Y at there, was preparing to get pay, but you know what, our BIG BIG boss, actually drag till he came at 10pm!!!!! Can you actually believe this??!!! C.Y & me reached Baden at 5pm, we actually waited for 5hrs++, then he came, what the HELL right?!! We were suppose to have dinner together as C.Y is flying off tomorrow, because of our big boss, we ended up eating the staff meal, anyway, we did not eat much.
And in between the waiting time, big Terrence was making fun of C.Y, HAHA, C.Y, you know what i mean, or rather, everyone in Baden know what is going on, is just the mosquito don't know, anyway, we know who is the mosquito can already, okay?HAHA
Today was so so so SUPER FUNNY at Baden, but anyway, is not fun till something happen, when there is a call that i recieved.
Well well well, i shall just remain like that. I think so, or rather, i will be going back to my old-self, a person who don't talk much, don't ask and don't say.
Well well well, the wall that had build around me, is not gonna demolish, because of ~~~
Okay, unless someone or some matter that is able to help me demolish.
The more i laugh, means the more hurting i'm getting, C.Y know what i mean, i can said that, she & i belong to the same kind of person, isn't it C.Y??
themoreitrytolove,themoreharderihavetotry
idontwanttohurtanyoneoranybody
iwanttobelovedandlovesomebody
butloveisalwaysntagdthingformehuh..?
ithinkso,maybisldjuz~~~~
♥ 12:36 AM
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Well, i'm here again to blog, i told you, today will have 3 posts, i'm now on the phone, C.Y. She is going to Hong Kong on tuesday morning, cool huh?
She is going for 4days, i asked her to get me a eeyore, but she said that if i keep bombard-ing her, she said she will get me a Mickey, but i said don't want, i want Minnie, HAHA
Okay, makes no much difference i know. Msn with Amanda & some others friends, so boring when school starts, Joan said she miss the school, while i said to her that i want to work instead of studying, well, human nature are always like that isn't it? Always go opposite way.
Well, i somehow feel something strange is going on secretly, what do i mean by secretly? I think only C.Y know about this, and she kept asking me go and die, anyway, both of us always said to each other go and die, no big deal about it, but of course not asking you really go and die.
Well, sometimes i think that i should not go into relationship now, because i don't want to get hurt, being hurt once is enough, like what i had wrote in my previous post. Should i really stay out from relationship? Being the one who get hurt, or being the one who hurt other, is always not a good feeling.
So being hurt or being the person hurt others, both feeling are just very terrible and horrible.
Will someone change my thinking about getting hurt or not hurt in a relationship? Or will someone change my mind to get me into a relationship?? I really don't know, like what i always said about myself, i'm always contridicting myself.
I always don't know what my heart wants, but i'm used to it already, because there are times i really don't know what i'm thinking and what i want, so just let it be, hopefully time will tell me what i want.
But sometimes, what actually do i want? I seriously really don't know.
Some people said that, a broken heart is like a broken mirror, i agreed.
While some people said that when a person is hurt, the person will tend to build a wall around him/her. Just to protect himself/herself to get hurt again, i agreed too.
Some said that, we should get hurt at times so we learn how to grow up, and won't be repeating the same mistake again, i agreed too.
So many agrees, so what actually does a person want? Sometimes in life, who really know what they really want?
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canirealliloveapersonwithoutgettinhurtorihurteperson..?
Some said that this world is round, and life is like a show, no matter how much it turns, it will still turn back to you, but will the show be a new one or is just history repeating it mistakes?
No point saying sorry so may times when you keep repeating the same mistakes or you have hurt the person.
If you said sorry after you hurt the person, why do you want to hurt the person in the 1st place? Have it ever cross your mind? I doubt so.
If you meant to hurt the person, just go ahead, don't say sorry, because you are just like making yourself like a fool, hurt finish you would apologise.
Kinda of weird mindset isn't it?
To me, i try not to hurt the people surrounding me, but sometimes i hurt them without my notice, I'm truely SORRY, because i never meant to hurt anyone in the 1st place.
I hate myself when i'm hurting people without knowingly, and i also hate people who hurt me purposely or intentionally, whatever it is, i just super super super irritated with the people who hurt me.
If you hurt me, i will tends to take it back to you, and i mean it.
Okay, but i still know how to differentiate whether is playing a prank or me okay??
Sometimes when i'm alone roaming around, i will think alot of stuffs, will people cherish love? Will people learn how to love a person? Or rather, will i cherish and learn?
I will cherish, but i don't know how to learn, to me, love is sustained with actions and devotion to the stuffs we do, even though sometimes we may find it childish and stupid, isn't it?
Whenever i want to cherish love and love a person, it seems to be so so so so HARD, till, i myself do not know what to do.
I shall said that sometimes when i'm sleeping, i actually dreamt of you, a person who does not belong to me but to another.
The dream was so real, the feeling was so real. Does it mean anything? The answer is "NO"
Because you belong to another but not me? In the dream, we did alot of things that in the reality we won't be doing it. (guys, please don't think to dirty parts huh =x)
In the dream, you would hug me, like i'm your's forever and you won't let go your hands, you were afraid that i would abandon you behind, but in the dream, i promised you that i won't.
You would always kiss me whenever you have the chance, because you said you really love me alot, but you do not know how to describe in words, so you do it in actions.
You love the way how i dote on you, how i surprise you and how i always cook for you.
You love the way how i always look into your eyes and how i always hug you.
You love the way how i always ordering you and controlling you, because you know that i
love u alot Xcountless times, as i love you in the manner of this way.
You love the way when i coax you into sleeping, because you would always sleep before me.
You love the way how i protect you from others preventing them to hurt you.
So many loves, so what?? IS JUST A DREAM, IS ALWAYS MEANT IT TO BE A DREAM, ISN'T IT??
Use a needle to prick it, and it will become ashes and fly into the air.
Well, everything will have a start, means everything will have an end too. Is just a matter of time when it will end, maybe people do not want to have an ending, or rather i'm also one of them too.
So let it be, unless you say you love me & i will make the dream come true.
How to save a life? A life that is being hidden for the a long time, a life that doesn't want to get hurt again.
Well, i really don't know what to say in here, i'm just out of words, i'm just gonna stay quiet now.
She is going for 4days, i asked her to get me a eeyore, but she said that if i keep bombard-ing her, she said she will get me a Mickey, but i said don't want, i want Minnie, HAHA
Okay, makes no much difference i know. Msn with Amanda & some others friends, so boring when school starts, Joan said she miss the school, while i said to her that i want to work instead of studying, well, human nature are always like that isn't it? Always go opposite way.
Well, i somehow feel something strange is going on secretly, what do i mean by secretly? I think only C.Y know about this, and she kept asking me go and die, anyway, both of us always said to each other go and die, no big deal about it, but of course not asking you really go and die.
Well, sometimes i think that i should not go into relationship now, because i don't want to get hurt, being hurt once is enough, like what i had wrote in my previous post. Should i really stay out from relationship? Being the one who get hurt, or being the one who hurt other, is always not a good feeling.
So being hurt or being the person hurt others, both feeling are just very terrible and horrible.
Will someone change my thinking about getting hurt or not hurt in a relationship? Or will someone change my mind to get me into a relationship?? I really don't know, like what i always said about myself, i'm always contridicting myself.
I always don't know what my heart wants, but i'm used to it already, because there are times i really don't know what i'm thinking and what i want, so just let it be, hopefully time will tell me what i want.
But sometimes, what actually do i want? I seriously really don't know.
Some people said that, a broken heart is like a broken mirror, i agreed.
While some people said that when a person is hurt, the person will tend to build a wall around him/her. Just to protect himself/herself to get hurt again, i agreed too.
Some said that, we should get hurt at times so we learn how to grow up, and won't be repeating the same mistake again, i agreed too.
So many agrees, so what actually does a person want? Sometimes in life, who really know what they really want?
irealliwan2loveubutitseemstobesososososososoHARD
canirealliloveapersonwithoutgettinhurtorihurteperson..?
Some said that this world is round, and life is like a show, no matter how much it turns, it will still turn back to you, but will the show be a new one or is just history repeating it mistakes?
No point saying sorry so may times when you keep repeating the same mistakes or you have hurt the person.
If you said sorry after you hurt the person, why do you want to hurt the person in the 1st place? Have it ever cross your mind? I doubt so.
If you meant to hurt the person, just go ahead, don't say sorry, because you are just like making yourself like a fool, hurt finish you would apologise.
Kinda of weird mindset isn't it?
To me, i try not to hurt the people surrounding me, but sometimes i hurt them without my notice, I'm truely SORRY, because i never meant to hurt anyone in the 1st place.
I hate myself when i'm hurting people without knowingly, and i also hate people who hurt me purposely or intentionally, whatever it is, i just super super super irritated with the people who hurt me.
If you hurt me, i will tends to take it back to you, and i mean it.
Okay, but i still know how to differentiate whether is playing a prank or me okay??
Sometimes when i'm alone roaming around, i will think alot of stuffs, will people cherish love? Will people learn how to love a person? Or rather, will i cherish and learn?
I will cherish, but i don't know how to learn, to me, love is sustained with actions and devotion to the stuffs we do, even though sometimes we may find it childish and stupid, isn't it?
Whenever i want to cherish love and love a person, it seems to be so so so so HARD, till, i myself do not know what to do.
I shall said that sometimes when i'm sleeping, i actually dreamt of you, a person who does not belong to me but to another.
The dream was so real, the feeling was so real. Does it mean anything? The answer is "NO"
Because you belong to another but not me? In the dream, we did alot of things that in the reality we won't be doing it. (guys, please don't think to dirty parts huh =x)
In the dream, you would hug me, like i'm your's forever and you won't let go your hands, you were afraid that i would abandon you behind, but in the dream, i promised you that i won't.
You would always kiss me whenever you have the chance, because you said you really love me alot, but you do not know how to describe in words, so you do it in actions.
You love the way how i dote on you, how i surprise you and how i always cook for you.
You love the way how i always look into your eyes and how i always hug you.
You love the way how i always ordering you and controlling you, because you know that i
love u alot Xcountless times, as i love you in the manner of this way.
You love the way when i coax you into sleeping, because you would always sleep before me.
You love the way how i protect you from others preventing them to hurt you.
So many loves, so what?? IS JUST A DREAM, IS ALWAYS MEANT IT TO BE A DREAM, ISN'T IT??
Use a needle to prick it, and it will become ashes and fly into the air.
Well, everything will have a start, means everything will have an end too. Is just a matter of time when it will end, maybe people do not want to have an ending, or rather i'm also one of them too.
So let it be, unless you say you love me & i will make the dream come true.
How to save a life? A life that is being hidden for the a long time, a life that doesn't want to get hurt again.
Well, i really don't know what to say in here, i'm just out of words, i'm just gonna stay quiet now.
♥ 6:47 PM
Okay, i know what happen to the blogger, because i do not know how to use some of it's functions, okay i'm like a idiot, i use the blogger so long already, but i still don't know how to use it's functions >.<
Whatever it is, is fine now, (is always fine, is just that i do not know how to use =.='')
okay, i'm very tired already, shall blog till here 1st, perhaps at night i will blog again, before my school starts. So i have a total of 3 blogs for today, LOL
Whatever it is, is fine now, (is always fine, is just that i do not know how to use =.='')
okay, i'm very tired already, shall blog till here 1st, perhaps at night i will blog again, before my school starts. So i have a total of 3 blogs for today, LOL
♥ 12:59 PM
Well, i just copy this from my friend's blog, okay, maybe is bad that i took her words, but is quite true, maybe this is like myself in the past but not now, HAHA, i just paste it in here, and you guys can just take a look of it.
Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
fI'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
Don't know whether is it true for you guys, but i know for me now, is not.
Well, school starts tomorrow, T^T
Well, school starts tomorrow, T^T
It means that i do not have time again, for myself, or rather for yanling and others friends too, i promised her to bring her go sing (see) KTV & have steamboat.
Well, "O" level results are coming out soon, okay, is not i'm the one who getting the results, but Yanling, wish her all the best, i believe her results will be very good, because she is a person good in studying, but according what she said, during the "O" level period she did not study, so...~~~~ okay, i also don't know how to say already. HAHAHAHAHA
Chinese New Year is around the corner, OH MY GOD, IT MEANS I AM OLDER BY 1 YEAR AGAIN. T^T
Well, i shall blog till here, i don't what happen to the blogger, something went wrong, maybe again in awhile later
Edited : Yanling said that she studied only just 2 weeks before "O" level, cause she said that i wrote wrong in my blog, so now edit already, HAPPY?? HAHA
Well, "O" level results are coming out soon, okay, is not i'm the one who getting the results, but Yanling, wish her all the best, i believe her results will be very good, because she is a person good in studying, but according what she said, during the "O" level period she did not study, so...~~~~ okay, i also don't know how to say already. HAHAHAHAHA
Chinese New Year is around the corner, OH MY GOD, IT MEANS I AM OLDER BY 1 YEAR AGAIN. T^T
Well, i shall blog till here, i don't what happen to the blogger, something went wrong, maybe again in awhile later
Edited : Yanling said that she studied only just 2 weeks before "O" level, cause she said that i wrote wrong in my blog, so now edit already, HAPPY?? HAHA
♥ 10:51 AM
Saturday, January 3, 2009
Well, today i had a very good day.
Firstly, in the morning around 10am, i meet Celeste to go to Jurong's library to study, surprisingly, i STUDY okay?!! HAHAHA
Then Amanda & Maisy came around 12pm, they have to do their project, caveman's project.
Then i left to meet Eric, as he need to pass me my cheque, bike fair's pay. Total is (SECRET)
HAHA
Then i went to meet YANLING, at tiong bahru to watch movie, "YES MAN!!"
Okay, this show is super super funny!!! I think the whole theatre only yanling & me laugh the loudest, okay??!!
Throughout the whole movie, she ate alot, popcorns & nachos. (at 1st i don't want to say she is piggy, but since on the phone she said it, so i write it in here, HAHA, i'm now the phone with her now)
Guys you know what, the movie starts at 4.15pm, and i meet her at 1pm, during the time in between we were waiting the movie, we walked around and have our lunch at MOS, weel, why we will choose MOS, is a really very funny story behind it, so i won't say it out in here.
Then we went to walk around, went to More Than Words & Comics Collections. I bought her a seal, according to her, she said is a seal, but is it really a seal, i have no idea. >.<
After the movie, we went to Suntec City, to look for May, yanling's mum. She said i look like i lost some weights again, HAHA, i think i did not see her for a week, okay, maybe because i work at Baden that's why i like lost some weight again.
And she managed to buy her stuffs, to wear it on mon, hmm, looks cools, =) look stylist also too.
Okay, shall blog till here, will update again.
Firstly, in the morning around 10am, i meet Celeste to go to Jurong's library to study, surprisingly, i STUDY okay?!! HAHAHA
Then Amanda & Maisy came around 12pm, they have to do their project, caveman's project.
Then i left to meet Eric, as he need to pass me my cheque, bike fair's pay. Total is (SECRET)
HAHA
Then i went to meet YANLING, at tiong bahru to watch movie, "YES MAN!!"
Okay, this show is super super funny!!! I think the whole theatre only yanling & me laugh the loudest, okay??!!
Throughout the whole movie, she ate alot, popcorns & nachos. (at 1st i don't want to say she is piggy, but since on the phone she said it, so i write it in here, HAHA, i'm now the phone with her now)
Guys you know what, the movie starts at 4.15pm, and i meet her at 1pm, during the time in between we were waiting the movie, we walked around and have our lunch at MOS, weel, why we will choose MOS, is a really very funny story behind it, so i won't say it out in here.
Then we went to walk around, went to More Than Words & Comics Collections. I bought her a seal, according to her, she said is a seal, but is it really a seal, i have no idea. >.<
After the movie, we went to Suntec City, to look for May, yanling's mum. She said i look like i lost some weights again, HAHA, i think i did not see her for a week, okay, maybe because i work at Baden that's why i like lost some weight again.
And she managed to buy her stuffs, to wear it on mon, hmm, looks cools, =) look stylist also too.
Okay, shall blog till here, will update again.
♥ 11:20 PM
Friday, January 2, 2009
Let me say a story to everyone,
This story starts on Aug 15 and ended on April 25, total of 8 months & 10 days of simple & pure happiness that everyone yearn for it.
It started at 2004 June hoilday, how a girl slowly fell in love with another girl though she knows that they are impossible in the 1st place, at least this is what the girl thinks 1st.
But as days slowly pass, the girl slowly changed her mind, realised that nothing is impossible on this earth.
2004
JUNE
18 - the girl undergo a really very big changes in her whole life, supposingly till now i think
24- 4 days right after the change she made, she ask the girl out, the girl agreed, this was the 1st time that the 2 girls go out together without any others friends (they really feel very happy at that moment)
JULY
School reopens, which means these 2 girls are not able to meet up as often as they want to, due to the tons of school work
1st week of the saturday, the girl asked her out again for a movie, and she agreed, the girl was so happy about it, because this is their 1st time to watch a movie together without others.
15- the girl told her,"hmm, i think i had fall in love with you, will you allow me to woo you?"
She was shocked, stunned and unable to reply her immediately, when her mind is back to her again, she said,"yes". The girl knew that eventually she will be able to be together with her, but is just a matter of time when it will come true.
20- the girl asked her out, to have lunch together, the girl gave her a box of chocolates (a normal box that consist of different types of chocolates) as the girl knows that she love to eat it alot, even though she will not grow fat no matter how much she ate.
27- the girl asked her out, this time is another way round, she asked, "do you want to go sing k?" Of course she said "YES" because this is her 1st time asking her out, not the usual one who plan the outing.
AUGUST
12- the girl asked her out to watch a movie again, and august, is a big big month for the girl.
17- she asked her out again, surprised her with a bouquet of Rochers chocolates & a sketchbook (drawings of her different smile that the girl saw) as her birthday present, she is over the moon.
20- they went out again, to have dinner and they had deserts at Anderson's, this was when the 1st time that the girl could pay for her, because she is unable to get the bill from the waitress.
28- they went for shopping at Bugis, this was the 1st time that the girl could help her carry the things she bought even though she is not the one who paying, but by carrying her stuffs she felt very happy too.
SEPTEMBER
26- after a long long time of never meet up, due to the exams that both of them are having in the same month, they decided to come out to relax, and they went to east coast park to look at the sea and blow the wind (though the sea is super not CLEAN)
OCTOBER
15- they went to have a stroll at Pasir Ris park, even though there are alot of people
27- the girl waited at her house downstairs to surprise her with chocolates again, she feel that it's very sweet to give her surprise at times
NOVEMBER - DECEMBER
Holiday starts, which means they have more time to be together, even though they do not have much money at that time to go out everyday, but both of them will always make it a point to talk on the phone in the night before they go to bed, even just a second they hang up, before they sleep, they will message to each other to say that "i'm now going to bed, you sleep early too, baby"
2005
JANUARY
School starts but not much big changes between the 2 of them
21- the girl's big day, the girl gave her a present, a very meaningful present that she herself never expect from her, she was very very very HAPPY
FEB - JUNE
Both of them still went out as often as they can, regardless after school or during the weekend, and as usual, the girl will always surprise her out of nowhere, and once she almost got beaten by her, because she thought the person is a stalker but not her, but luckily, nothing happened to the girl, because she dodged very fast =)
(as this story is very long, i tried to cut short already, but it seems no difference)
JULY - DEC
Both of them went out together, but the times is getting more and more, which both of them are very happy about it, especially whenever they go out, the girl will never fail to send her home no matter what time, this was when the 1st time where she finally able to send her home, as the time is very late, and very unsafe for her to go home alone.
2006
JAN - DEC
I'm so sorry that i really have to cut short till like that, because is really really very long.
Throughout this whole year, both of them will celebrate birthday for each other & Valentine's day. The girl will always never fail to surprise her at times, giving her some presents that she feels sweet and happy. From 2004 - 2006, the presents add together can said that is more than 100 presents, okay, maybe not that much, but at least 80 over, as the girl will always make it a point to surprise her twice every each wk (due to privacy, what kind of presents had been given out, won't be saying out in here)
This had really caused a big big hole in the girl's pocket. And this is really mean it, the girl's mum will always ask her,"where do all your money went to?"But the girl is speechless.
Despite the scolding she got from her mum, she still continue to surprise her with gifts or some DIY stuffs, as budget is getting tighter.
But the girl still feel that she is very sweet, because even though the budget is getting tighter, but she will still make it a point to surprise her.
2007
JAN - AUG
School starts again, and this time the girl is getting busier as "O" levels is the Major exams for her in 2007.
Unable to meet her so often like how both of them did in the past, due to the girl's remedial she had everyday for "O" levels.
She felt very very very SAD, as she cannot see her as and when she can, vice verse for the girl too.
But they still make an effort to go out once or twice in 2 weeks if they have the chance, even they only meet out for 1 or 2 hours, but both of them are very content with it already.
Till one day, the girl decided to ask her one question, which is on Aug 15, she asked her out, bring her to have good food, and as usual, give her surprise, a big big one, really mean it as a BIG.
After which, she sent her home without fail, at her block downstairs, both of them were sitting down at there corner staircase, both of them were talking everything, everything under the sun, including why the girl will fell in love with her, and this was when she know, this is a very good and rare chance that she could asked her this question, the girl asked her to hug her, and she gave the hug, and this was when the girl did not let go her hands even though the girl wanted to do so, but she continue hug her and whispered into her ears,"will you be my girlfriend?" She suddenly hug the girl more tight and she said "YES"
The girl knew it, she is very very very happy, at that point of time, no words could describe her happiness that the girl given to her, a girl who only have her in the eyes, unable to see anyone else, all she knows that, the girl is her everything, she wants to give her the best that she could. And that night, they have their 1st kiss, a very memorable 1st kiss.
Unfortunately, the happiness did not last long. During the period they were together, the girl will always surprise her without fail, and another way round, she will also surprise her too, both of them really feel very appreciate what both of them have done for each other.
Talking and messaging on the phone is also a part of their life too, without fail, both of them will message and call at the right time, but both of them did nothing to invade each other's privacy. Because honesty and trust were with them no matter what happens.
2008
But on April 25, the girl knew something, something that really hurt her deeply, a scar forever that stays in the heart. And she knew that nothing could save this relationship, thus she chose to end it.
8 months & 10 days of happiness, just ended it with a sentence,"we need to break up, nothing will change my mind now."
Started with a question, ended with a sentence. The person who started it and it was the same person who chose to end it.
Yes, it's me.
I'm the one who starts and i'm the one who chose to end this, it started with a "yes" ended with a "break up"
Somehow i know that, nothing will not change my mind, you have really hurt me deeply, you know what you have done. Being hurt once is enough.
This story starts on Aug 15 and ended on April 25, total of 8 months & 10 days of simple & pure happiness that everyone yearn for it.
It started at 2004 June hoilday, how a girl slowly fell in love with another girl though she knows that they are impossible in the 1st place, at least this is what the girl thinks 1st.
But as days slowly pass, the girl slowly changed her mind, realised that nothing is impossible on this earth.
2004
JUNE
18 - the girl undergo a really very big changes in her whole life, supposingly till now i think
24- 4 days right after the change she made, she ask the girl out, the girl agreed, this was the 1st time that the 2 girls go out together without any others friends (they really feel very happy at that moment)
JULY
School reopens, which means these 2 girls are not able to meet up as often as they want to, due to the tons of school work
1st week of the saturday, the girl asked her out again for a movie, and she agreed, the girl was so happy about it, because this is their 1st time to watch a movie together without others.
15- the girl told her,"hmm, i think i had fall in love with you, will you allow me to woo you?"
She was shocked, stunned and unable to reply her immediately, when her mind is back to her again, she said,"yes". The girl knew that eventually she will be able to be together with her, but is just a matter of time when it will come true.
20- the girl asked her out, to have lunch together, the girl gave her a box of chocolates (a normal box that consist of different types of chocolates) as the girl knows that she love to eat it alot, even though she will not grow fat no matter how much she ate.
27- the girl asked her out, this time is another way round, she asked, "do you want to go sing k?" Of course she said "YES" because this is her 1st time asking her out, not the usual one who plan the outing.
AUGUST
12- the girl asked her out to watch a movie again, and august, is a big big month for the girl.
17- she asked her out again, surprised her with a bouquet of Rochers chocolates & a sketchbook (drawings of her different smile that the girl saw) as her birthday present, she is over the moon.
20- they went out again, to have dinner and they had deserts at Anderson's, this was when the 1st time that the girl could pay for her, because she is unable to get the bill from the waitress.
28- they went for shopping at Bugis, this was the 1st time that the girl could help her carry the things she bought even though she is not the one who paying, but by carrying her stuffs she felt very happy too.
SEPTEMBER
26- after a long long time of never meet up, due to the exams that both of them are having in the same month, they decided to come out to relax, and they went to east coast park to look at the sea and blow the wind (though the sea is super not CLEAN)
OCTOBER
15- they went to have a stroll at Pasir Ris park, even though there are alot of people
27- the girl waited at her house downstairs to surprise her with chocolates again, she feel that it's very sweet to give her surprise at times
NOVEMBER - DECEMBER
Holiday starts, which means they have more time to be together, even though they do not have much money at that time to go out everyday, but both of them will always make it a point to talk on the phone in the night before they go to bed, even just a second they hang up, before they sleep, they will message to each other to say that "i'm now going to bed, you sleep early too, baby"
2005
JANUARY
School starts but not much big changes between the 2 of them
21- the girl's big day, the girl gave her a present, a very meaningful present that she herself never expect from her, she was very very very HAPPY
FEB - JUNE
Both of them still went out as often as they can, regardless after school or during the weekend, and as usual, the girl will always surprise her out of nowhere, and once she almost got beaten by her, because she thought the person is a stalker but not her, but luckily, nothing happened to the girl, because she dodged very fast =)
(as this story is very long, i tried to cut short already, but it seems no difference)
JULY - DEC
Both of them went out together, but the times is getting more and more, which both of them are very happy about it, especially whenever they go out, the girl will never fail to send her home no matter what time, this was when the 1st time where she finally able to send her home, as the time is very late, and very unsafe for her to go home alone.
2006
JAN - DEC
I'm so sorry that i really have to cut short till like that, because is really really very long.
Throughout this whole year, both of them will celebrate birthday for each other & Valentine's day. The girl will always never fail to surprise her at times, giving her some presents that she feels sweet and happy. From 2004 - 2006, the presents add together can said that is more than 100 presents, okay, maybe not that much, but at least 80 over, as the girl will always make it a point to surprise her twice every each wk (due to privacy, what kind of presents had been given out, won't be saying out in here)
This had really caused a big big hole in the girl's pocket. And this is really mean it, the girl's mum will always ask her,"where do all your money went to?"But the girl is speechless.
Despite the scolding she got from her mum, she still continue to surprise her with gifts or some DIY stuffs, as budget is getting tighter.
But the girl still feel that she is very sweet, because even though the budget is getting tighter, but she will still make it a point to surprise her.
2007
JAN - AUG
School starts again, and this time the girl is getting busier as "O" levels is the Major exams for her in 2007.
Unable to meet her so often like how both of them did in the past, due to the girl's remedial she had everyday for "O" levels.
She felt very very very SAD, as she cannot see her as and when she can, vice verse for the girl too.
But they still make an effort to go out once or twice in 2 weeks if they have the chance, even they only meet out for 1 or 2 hours, but both of them are very content with it already.
Till one day, the girl decided to ask her one question, which is on Aug 15, she asked her out, bring her to have good food, and as usual, give her surprise, a big big one, really mean it as a BIG.
After which, she sent her home without fail, at her block downstairs, both of them were sitting down at there corner staircase, both of them were talking everything, everything under the sun, including why the girl will fell in love with her, and this was when she know, this is a very good and rare chance that she could asked her this question, the girl asked her to hug her, and she gave the hug, and this was when the girl did not let go her hands even though the girl wanted to do so, but she continue hug her and whispered into her ears,"will you be my girlfriend?" She suddenly hug the girl more tight and she said "YES"
The girl knew it, she is very very very happy, at that point of time, no words could describe her happiness that the girl given to her, a girl who only have her in the eyes, unable to see anyone else, all she knows that, the girl is her everything, she wants to give her the best that she could. And that night, they have their 1st kiss, a very memorable 1st kiss.
Unfortunately, the happiness did not last long. During the period they were together, the girl will always surprise her without fail, and another way round, she will also surprise her too, both of them really feel very appreciate what both of them have done for each other.
Talking and messaging on the phone is also a part of their life too, without fail, both of them will message and call at the right time, but both of them did nothing to invade each other's privacy. Because honesty and trust were with them no matter what happens.
2008
But on April 25, the girl knew something, something that really hurt her deeply, a scar forever that stays in the heart. And she knew that nothing could save this relationship, thus she chose to end it.
8 months & 10 days of happiness, just ended it with a sentence,"we need to break up, nothing will change my mind now."
Started with a question, ended with a sentence. The person who started it and it was the same person who chose to end it.
Yes, it's me.
I'm the one who starts and i'm the one who chose to end this, it started with a "yes" ended with a "break up"
Somehow i know that, nothing will not change my mind, you have really hurt me deeply, you know what you have done. Being hurt once is enough.
♥ 10:10 PM