Okay, I'm seriously not okay now.
The blogger's mind is now in a blank.
Seriously, the blogger now don't know what to do now.
The blogger is feeling super down now, super sad now.
Super heart pain now
The blogger now is not in a right state.
The blogger said that, will blog till here.

♥ 9:39 PM

Okay, i'm so so tire, but i'm still here blogging.
Today school was so so not fun.
I'm so so tire.
Another promise added to it, cook for you. =)
And i will.
Wanna ask you come my house today to cook for you, but the moment i thought of you that you're a little bit of unwell, so i messaged you, telling you go back and have a good rest.
But i'm kinda of regretted it, because if i had asked you to come my house, at least i'm able to take care of you and cook for you. Century egg meat porridge.
Hope i'm able to cook for you soon. =)

♥ 9:27 PM

I'm so so tire, i've been sleeping today, woke up at 9plus, ate my breakfast, i went back to sleep again. -.-zzZz
I don't know why ar, i slept till 3plus, went out to CWP, bought some stuffs back.
Half way Henry called me, and the 1dt sentence he said was," yo, bro, where are you?"
LOL.
I was like huh?
You sure you called the correct number ma?
And he said of course correct la.
LOL
Anyway, I'm not free to go down find you guys la.
I'm outside already ok?

Went home about 6plus, too tire to continue walk around. :x

Today, C.Y called me, asked me what had happened, but but I'm too too tire, and i'm sleeping so i told her i will call her back later again, but i did not ar, so i'll guess have to call her later in the night.

♥ 7:48 PM

I'm so so sleepy but i'm still in here blogging. -.-zzZzz~~
MSN-ing with Nana and some other friends.
Nana told me she feel left out/ shi luo gan when with us.
Well, i can only said i'm sorry, how i wish i won't let you have this kind of feeling.
I do not mean to neglect u or what.
And u told me that u do not feel our enthu in the project, i'm sorry, i do not mean it too.
I promised u that, once my stuffs are sorted out, everything will be ok.
I won't let u left out, etc.
U told me that someone told another one that,"i'm just playing with her"
Is it someone who i know?
Or is it am i the one who said this?
I don't know.
But what i want to tell u is that, no matter what, i will always be with u when u're down or up.
I'm trying my very best not to let u feel left out, not to make u sad, and try not to hurt u.
But i seems that i had done all this?
Make u sad n feel left out. Did i hurt u before? I really don't know.
But if i do, please tell me, i do not wish to hurt u due to my carelessness.
Now the person that i do not want to hurt at all is nobody but u only.
Can we just like before, talk things out whenever there is something wrong?
Can we?

♥ 12:46 AM

I had a great day today!
I saw Enqi, Jasmine & J.W
And i had a long chat with Jas.
And Enqi actually working at the same place with me.
HAHA.
I did not know till i saw her in the toilet.
Then she was like, "eh eh"
And i was like," eh eh why are you here?"
Both of us were super funny la. LOL
Then accompany her walked around Ang Mo Kio then went back together to NTUC and work.
I waited her till 9pm and went back together.
Got to know 1 new girl.
Haha.
Super super funny.
Because Qi forgot her name. -.-"
And she's super young!
17 ONLY!
Sec 5!
LOL
Not young till anywhere la i know. -.-"

*NEWS*
I'm super super SAD!
Because everyday my class will be from 8am to 6pm.
Practicall is till 6pm, if not also will end around 5pm.
Well it does not make any difference, it's just 1 hour.
Well better than nothing la. -.-"
Then projects projects & projects.
All nothing but all projects and only Tuesday have Amber.
BORING!!
Well at least than staying in class doing nothing, but sit, talk and chat or sleeping! :x

♥ 11:36 PM

I'm seriously tire.
Emotionally and physically tired.
Tired of everything.
Tired of life.
But I'm not gonna do anything silly.
I'm sick of everything.
I'm really really emotionally and physically tired.
I cannot think anything well.
I might do a mistake.
I might end up hurting myself.
My brain has shut-down.
I seriously won't be able to think well now.
I feel like crying now.

♥ 10:04 PM

Seriously, I'm so so mad with myself now.
I feel so lost now, i don't know how to walk back to my world.
I don't know who will lead me back.
I'm simply lost now.
I'm really lost for good.
Won't be able to find me, or rather to say, i don't know who will manage to find me.

I'm seriously lost, standing alone is not easy.
I tried to stand when standing is not easy.
But being push down to the ground is hurt.
Being able to stand is tough, being push down, and wanted to stand again, is much more tough.

♥ 6:03 PM

Say goodbye to ANSON ONG ZHI YUN.
I seriously mean it.
Seriously, i think i should just shut my blog, and get back to my world.

I'm not a perfect person, I am a kind of person, who is bad-tempered, bad attitude, bad thinking, bad communications skills, evil, hard-hearted, cold, treat people without sincerity, impatient.
And many many more to go.
But but but I'm really very very happy that I have my bunch of friends who are always with me.
They just simply know me too well.
I simply love them so so much like how they love me too.
I had said earlier on, I'm not a perfect person, or rather i should say a super bad person ar.?
But they still love me as much as before, and what is the reason?
Because they know me inside out.
And that's why, we have been friends more than 10 years!!!!!!!!!
And there are more to count down. =)
I'm so glad you guys really understand my world and willing to accept who i am.
Regardless bad or whatever.

Especially C.M.C.Y
LOL.
By the time you read this, you know who are you ar.
I'm glad that whatever had happened, you are always with me.
From my primary school, till secondary school, from my father passed away, i moved house, i transferred out from Coral Sec, till i went into a new environment.
You are always with me.
Though in between we did not contact each other, as we were busy busy with "N & O" level, then i retain 1 year, then when I'm in Sec 5, you're in Shatec liao. -.-"
Oh my god, time files super super fast.
Just a blink of eye, and now we are friends almost 13years!!!
And we are still as close as in the past.
Though sometimes we did not speak out something, but even when we did not speak out, we actually know what is in each other's mind.
That's cool.
I'm really really glad i have you as my friends.
I think if my whole life i were to choose 1 friend only, i will choose you.
Because you know me just too well. =)
I'm so so grateful you had appeared in my life and stepped into my life. =)
Happy friendship!!!!!!
Forever Friends!

♥ 7:59 PM

Hurt, pain, speechless, heartbroke, etc.
i want to cry now.

♥ 11:18 PM

i have nothing to say.
End of the post.

♥ 10:25 PM

After A Kiss~
Here we are
On different sides
Of the fence
These angry words
Just don't make any sense
It doesn't really matter
Who's right or wrong
I'd rather hold you
Than argue all night long
I'm gonna walk
Out that door
And walk right back in
Straight to your arms
Start all over again
'Cause you and I know
Our love's bigger than this
Let's talk about it
After a kiss
Funny how it seems
We hurt the ones
We love
Tell me now
That you agree
We've said enough
Baby, we were laughing
An hour ago
Can we back up and
Make up and let it go?
I'm gonna walk
Out that door
And walk right back in
Straight to your arms
Start all over again
'Cause you and I know
Our love's bigger than this
Let's talk about it
After a kiss
It doesn't take much
To turn this around
If we both know
Our hearts are in it
Baby, your touch has
Never let me down
So wait right here
Just a minute
I'm gonna walk
Out that door
And walk right back in
Straight to your arms
Start all over again
'Cause you and I know
Our love's bigger than this
Let's talk about it
After a kiss.

If everything were meant to be, then accept it.
Whatever it comes, just accept it.
No point rejecting it or pretending that it never happened at all.
You will just feel hurt, not anyone hurting you, but you are hurting yourself.
Why do you always want to act that it never happens before when it had already took place?
I don't understand.
Why do you always want to say sorry as and when you make a mistake?
Why do you always hurt the people around you?
Why do you want to make yourself to another when you jolly well know you are not?
Why do you want to say words that you know wil hurt people?
Why do you always try to hide away from?
Why do you always want to do things that you know is impossible?

Why do you always want to say "i love you" when you made a mistake?
Why do you act nothing had happened?

I have so so many questions to ask you, but which question should i start off with to ask you?
So many to ask that i would not want to ask anything.

Yesterday, i saw you.
You act as if nothing happened.
Can you really do that or you are just acting in front of me whenever you see me?
Why the moment i see you, i feel like crying?
Is it just because you are acting or is it because of.?
Or should i say why will i feel heart pain?
Remember the days that we were once so close, as close as sisters?
As close as that everyone will jealous about us.
Well, i guess this is the time to really put a full-stop to this story.
Without any doubts, without any possibilities.
I'm really emotionally and physically tired of everything.
Not sick of it.
I'm really really.

If everything can be solve with a kiss, then i hope this would be the last kiss.

♥ 12:32 PM

Continue to post as i forget to post something ar.

If you wanna do whatever you want, by all means.
I don't even want to bother about you, is just gonna waste of my time and energy.

Anyway, i had got back to my own world, which includes i won't be blogging in this blog but another.
Well, for this, i will blog too, but is just daily post, whatever i do or whatsoever.
For another one, will then be the true side of mine.

Anyway, just get out of my life.

♥ 11:23 AM

Kinda of boring now, in school blogging, while I'm doing the videos.
There are new people today.
I'm so so HUNGRY now.
And and and I'm ALONE. -.-"
Nahhs, nana never come as she's sick. -.-
I'm so so tire. Did not manage to sleep enough.

Will update tonight again if i remember. -.-"

- i have nothing to say already.-

♥ 10:39 AM

okay, now in school blogging ar.
HAHA.
BORING!
Teaching videos ar. -.-""""

BORING.

[ Ysterday, 5/4/09 ]
Woke up bright early ar.
Went to KTV.
WEE WEE, sing alot of songs, new and old songs plus plus love songs. =)
Settled dinner at CWP food court.
Had my favourite food. =)
Went home around at 7plus in the night.
I think i have nothing much to blog for yesterday ar.

♥ 1:26 PM

What's wrong with human beings nowadays?
Thanks to you, i realised a lot of things, not only she, but you also.
Sadly to say, is actually my both classmates made me realised these things.
THANK YOU, FROM MY BOTTOM OF MY HEART.
I MEAN IT.

Read till here, do you know who i am referring to?
I doubt so, only 2 person will know, 1 is also from my class ar, AMANDA P N G & C.Y. =)
They know who I'm referring to.

WAO WAO WAO.
My mood is down to endless well.
And this time, how long will i be able to get over it?
Oh gosh, seriously i will take a long long time to recover.
I hope there will people who help me to get over it these real soon.

Why do you have to make me realised tha i should go back to my past?
Do you really want to see that?
Why you are lying to me and lying to another too?
Don't you feel hurt when you're doing so?
Well well well, i feel hurt.
Thank you for hurting me, or rather i should say, i'm willing to get hurt.
Or rather i should not use hurt but i'm like a foo to u ar?
I think so.
I mean not only to u, but to others too, you know who i'm saying my dear friends.

Anyway, i'm tire of everything.

♥ 10:45 PM

Chalet
[ 2nd day & last day ]
Woke up bright early, thanks to AMANDA P N G
Because she got V.ball FRIENDLY MATCH, according to her.
She has been saying is FRIENDLY not competition or training ar.
HAHA
Then everyone went back home to rest.
For me, i went back home to pack my bag and off i go again.

Reached Pasir Ris at 12plus.
Bought more food back to chalet for evening BBQ.

Day 2 nothing much to update, because a lot people went back home.
Till the night, the others went to the Red House while Amanda and i went for a stroll around Pasir Ris, but according to her, that is not a stroll ar. HAHA.

Bought chicken rice, coke light & mineral water back to chalet.
Nana joined us after we came back.
And Eric & Dave also came down, they ordered Mac delivery.
The guys saw us playing SNAP and and we were so so INSANE.
Laughing like hell.
And and AMANDA P N G, actually do something funny funny when Dave was playing songs.
OH MY GOD, i bet you guys never see her before like that, I'm referring to my classmates, who never see her before like that, i can't stop laughing and using the pillow to hit her head.
HAHA.

Then play till very tire, all of us slept on the floor.
AND I MEAN IT AS FLOOR.
IS REAL HARD & COLD FLOOR.
lol
My arms and legs are hard liao lor.
LOL
Not only me, Amanda and Nana too ar.
HAHA.
Woke up around 10plus.
Went for shower then off we go to settle our breakfast.
Then i went to my friend's house to continue my sleep, HAHA.
And and i finally know what is the difference between BED AND FLOOR.
lol. :x

Sleep super super unwell.
LOL

Blog till here.
- SUDDEN BLANK -

♥ 9:47 PM

Just back home, so so so TIRE after from chalet!!!!!
Chalet was FUN!! When the is alcohol is involved. :D
HAHA.

[ 1st day ]
I went to put my braces 1st ar.
After that, went down to Bedok, meet Amanda, Shernice, Fang & her boyfriend, Justin.
OH MY GOD. Bought so so many foods, but but but is kinda of still not enough for us ar. :x
Then we went to settled our lunch at KFC, wanted to settle at the hawker centre, but but but we just went to the supermarket to buy the food, thus we could not go hawker centre, as the trolley is super super hard to push and it's super HEAVY.
Then when we reached KFC, Shernice was so so FUNNY.
Because she wanted us to push the whole damm trolley into KFC.
Amanda and i was so so embarrass lor. -.-""
Fang and Justin keep laughing at us.
After lunch, cabbed down to chalet, Coasta Sands Pasir Ris.
Meet Nana straight at there, but she kinda of lost in that area ar. HAHA.
In the end, she managed to came to the chalet.

All of us were so so HOT.
Rested awhile and Shernice start doing everything, unpack and marinate the wings.
And and and we named her as our "mama" HAHA.

The rest came around in the later afternoon, some even came in around in the evening.
And in the first night, we start drinking.
And Celeste was DRANK!!!!!!!!!!
Drank till she speaks anyhow.
And we still have to take care of her. -.-"
Then behind behind, Shernice can't stand her le, bring her to the toilet and wash her head with cold water.
Then Fang showered with her.
Then when she's out, she is still whinning awhile then off her go, she went to sleep.
Then we were watching television, playing cards and continue drinking.

Amanda and i rented the bike for overnight, cool huh, is super windy when you riding the bike.
We went to the central to buy food, because me me me is is so tire of biting the food ar, as i just put on braces thus i buy porridge back to chalet and eat. Sad right?
1st day chalet, i put braces. LOL

1st day of chalet, we did not sleep, Amanda and i find that we are like working for F1, everyday chiong work then did not sleep. Cool huh?
Shall update day 2 of chalet soon. =)

♥ 9:11 PM