3 7 7 P

weekend is over, in another few more hours =/
LOL
tomorrow gonna set up Amber for our school's lecturers, celebrating teacher's day ar
after this, i'm gonna cut the rest of the stars
okay, i'm seeing stars already
LOL

yesterday msn with xiaowen, she told me that someone jump down at one of the blocks near the station
i was huh?!
why life seems to be so fragile?
she said that the person is younger than me =/
another life is gone from the earth
R.I.P

it's so scary, it's seem to be a routine that there are a lot of people are doing this kind of actions at my area
these people are so inconsiderate
just get away from here if you wanna kill yourself
this kind of action is so unacceptable okay?

anyway, not gonna blog more about this, it will just spoilt my mood again =/

i'm now watching a show, a taiwan drama show
actually not really now, i'm merely catching the show
a show that full of meaning in it
is not a sad show, it doesn't make people cry while watching
is not a happy show, it doesn't make people laugh while watching
is not a romantic show, it doesn't make people feel the loved while watching
so what is the show then?
i have no idea =/

my head is spinning again, i shall go eat my medicine now
okay, a bit later after i blog finish then

gratitude and love is only a line apart
habit and love is only a line apart
false and true is only a line apart
fake and real is only a line apart

i can't differentiate which is which
the line is so thin till i can't think a proper way of it
is it good or bad?
i don't know

perhaps it's afraid, or rather it's not.
perhaps it's hesitate, or rather it's not.
perhaps it's love, or rather it's not.
perhaps it's running away, or rather it's not.

perhapswhywhatmaybe
it does not matter anymore, correct?

♥ 8:11 PM

if someone cooks for you, by eating only, you can feel the happiness means you had found your Mr. or Ms Right.
if someone eats with you, you feel the joy and happiness mean you love the person more than loving yourself.

why do you still remember all these?
do you still remember?
do you choose not to remember?

♥ 3:08 AM

OH MY GOD, i can't believe what i had done today. O.O"
it's so amazing man, i seriously can't believe it at all
woo hoo~~~~
so so surprised!

only HL know what i've been doing for the whole day
OH MY GOD, she's a stalker ar?
hihi, stalker
thanks dude
you know what i mean =)
though this dude is so much younger than me, but this dude is so caring
LOL
well, she's a dumb dude i guess?
OH MY GOD, i bet this dude gonna kill me after reading my blog
i'm gonna run 1st

anyway, looking forward to meet you guys soon~~~~~~ :D

♥ 11:05 PM

- voluntary work day -
overall, though is not what i expect, but it's still okay.

games were fun, for the benes i think?

i was talking to amanda while we were in the cinema and on the way back home
people might think this voluntary work is a success, but to me, is No.

ya,everyone did have fun, i can't deny this fact, but another point of it, they did not come for this voluntary work willingly, those who always come my blog and read will know the reason why.

if you come for this V.W, just for the sake of the 10 BLOODY POINTS, then just get out okay?
why force yourself to come just for the BLOODY POINTS?

ya, it's the 1st time for them to do this V.W, they might feel very weird/awkward, as they do not come into contacts with them before.
i can't blame them for this, but why must be so fake?
doing V.W, you need sincerity to do the job
like what amanda said,"ah yo, 1st time ma, can't blame them"
that's why i said that i'm not blaming them at all, but to myself
why should i organise this kind of V.W?
i should have organise another kind of V.W instead the Home visit.
anyway, i'll just keep the thoughts to myself.

the benes do have fun
thanks guys!

♥ 11:28 AM

Quote to share:
"fool me once, shame on you, shame me twice, shame on me"

sometime life does not turn out what you want, but does it matter?
people take things so hard that they could not let go at all
there is a saying," it takes a minute to fall in love, it takes a lifetime to forget the person"
kinda of this meaning i'm saying now
but not about relationship

why do people want to take things so hard?
in the whole lifetime, there is bound to have setbacks, so what's the point of seeing things so important etc?

today is a voluntary work day, practically there are only 24 people from our class went.

when i'm alone in the train earlier on, i was crying.
i was listening, "The Climb"
i've been thinking and thinking over and over again.
what's the point?
i'm not only thinking about the voluntary matter and another matter too

the sentence
i mean it
it hurts me.
it might be just a casual sentence to you
but for me, is not

even though i'm blogging now, i'm trying my best to hold my tears
i would never ever thought that this would hurt me so much.

the feeling of trust is gone
it can't be retrieve back anymore
fool me once, shame on you, shame me twice, shame on me.
thanks.
i'm idiot, i'm dumb, i'm stupid
thanks once again

i wanna blog about the voluntary work, but my mood is totally upside down
will blog about it tomorrow

♥ 10:25 PM

life is so bored nowadays
as school starts getting bored O.O"
school life is getting worse, i don't know how to say
so just gonna skip the school part
since is not a good thing to blog =/

practically everyday after school, i was outside
tuesday i did not attend school, as i have something on
LOL
went to temple etc etc
temple you guys should know why i'm there ar
followed by, K.M Heng
my family doctor =)
went there to see him, lol
got my medicine etc

then followed by P.S, went to meet up with kiddo
ate dinner and we went off
sent her back before i head-ed to my own place

- wednesday -
went to school at 10am
well, wasted our time to come
came at 10am, end at 12.10pm
cool ar?
2hours and 10minutes O.O"
so called "lesson"

then after school, amanda, fang, kiddo and me went to Suntec's Astons
settled our lunch there
food is nice, but service =X

after that, amanda and fang accompanied kiddo and me walked around M.S
as our show starts at 4pm
"UP"
there is meaning behind this show, if you understand what is the show about, you will know what i mean.

this show indeed taught me something
though is a funny cartoon, a super super funny cartoon
but the meaning behind it is very meaningful

after the show, went to have dinner, but kiddo ate only as i'm not hungry
as usual, sent her back
on my way back home, i saw MJ, from NSS ar, not PRPS
lol
both are MJ too

i'm not in a mood to blog
mood spoilt, so forget it.

♥ 6:49 PM

okay, i know i'm blogging in the middle of the night of nowhere
lol
i should be sleeping now at this kind of timing, but obviously i'm not
lol
is because i slept earlier on, that's why i could not sleep now =/
i kinda of remember that amanda called me, chris called me
okay, i checked my handphone
they did. O.O
and surprising, i did answer their call
lol
and some private number called me too
and i'm messaging too

- monday -
practically is not a smooth day for me
so shall not mention about it
is my fault for the misunderstanding
but at least we cleared up i think?
i hope so too
ok, i can't concentrate on blogging now, so i'm not gonna continue la

♥ 2:12 AM

what's the point of saying it?
what's the point of asking it?
what's the point of doing it?
what's the point of maintaining it?
what's the point of arguing over it?
what's the point of hiding it?
what's the point of keeping it?
what's the point of lying it?
what's the point of moving it?
what's the point of being initiative?

so many what's the point, but it turns out to be pointless.
don't ask me what's the point, as it's pointless now

- saturday -
i suddenly remember about what QQ asked me on that day, did i ever feel inferior?
nope, i didn't
both of us were talking about human beings in Singapore
surprisingly, HL asked me something after reading my blog
LOL
wahahahaha, maybe i will tell you when the time is right ar
cause till now, i also don't know how to tell everyone about this thingy.

♥ 9:33 PM

so tire
lol
just came back not long
wao, i can't believe myself ate twice
as in, i had my dinner twice
MJ, see my blog must be laughing
LOL
can't wait for next Thursday and Friday
wahahahahahahaha
LOL
i'm so tire, shall blog till here then
grape soda ^-^V

♥ 9:24 PM

- friday -
went to Icon mall, iluma, cine, marina square last stop at suntec
wao
i'm so so IMPRESSED with myself, or rather i bet a lot of my friends are impressed by me
because it's my 1st time that i really go everywhere
by right those who know me very well, i'm really a very lazy person
won't be runningall over the place.

went to icon mall tigthen my braces
iluma, wait-ed for fionna,amanda,celeste and maisy
as we were looking for the deco for our D&D thingy.
did manage to buy the stuffs
not all but some, i think? O.O

saw my friend at iluma, so we went together to cine to meet MJ
lol
met up with MJ at cine, then changed place again just to eat
end-ed up in marina square
wait-ed for another friend, LL, to come
so we walkwalkwalk to think what to eat of
LOL
legs BREAK =/
end-ed up in pizza hut for my dinner
what a crowded place
Mj wanted yuki yaki
but too EX
so give a miss of it
haha, too bad
then MJ & CJ, one tell me walk to cinema, another asked me walk to toilet
and the toilet is another side of marina square, not the one near arcade
-___________________-"
my face is super super long
i can't spilt myself into half to go to two different places
so we end-ed up in toilet and then walk back to pizza hut to wait for LL
LL came in late
late comer -.-"
tsktsktsk
we sat kinda of long in the pizza hut
so paiseh
because there were so so many people queuing up outside it
but not our fault that we sat so long ar
cause the food came out kinda of slow too
too busy la they
LOL
oh, there was a birthday celebration on that day
so cool
haha
they were such a big gang man
so scary O.O"
after dinner, walked around marina square
wahahahahahahaha, before i fly fly away, MJ,CJ & LL gonna do ................
LOL
saw a few things i wanna buy
soon it will be mine
hehehehehehehehehehehe
then went to suntec after that, okay, this is the part that is most funniest
there is a bridge connected to suntec
but somehow, we walked the long way, almost going down the escalator, we then realised, thus we made a U-turn
lol
all of us were laughing
just can't help to laugh la
walk around suntec
seewalkseewalkseewalkseewalk
and buy somethings again from the supermarket ^^V

i just simply love to walk around supermarket
i don't know why
haha.

- saturday -
morning part i updated le
so now is the night part
LOL
met up with fionna and henry at plaza sing
ate F&C
we stayed there very long i think?
henry went off 1st
after dinner, sent fionna back home
okay, night part is quite short ar.

got to go, will update again. O.O

♥ 11:07 AM

wee wee...i'm here to blog again
HAHA
so weird to see me update kida of early hor?
because i just came back home
=)
woke up super bright early, cause don't know the stupid gangster message me and woke me up
LOL
woke up, bath-ed and head-ed off to yewtee =)
met up with MY,HL & QQ
lol
QQ!
haha
HL, you know who is QQ right?
LOL
ohmygod, this morning damm super super FUNNY
ohmy, you guys really brighten my day up :D

thanks man!
i can't stop laughing till now even i'm blogging about this
LOL
don't forget our next outing!

i fall in love with Subway now, i seriously don't mind eating it everyday man!
subway subway subway
please buy me subway everyday and i will say i love you
haha.
byebye
i'm really super high mood now as you guys really made my day super BRIGHT!
and i'm watching show now la, cannot concentrate blogging, so my dear, stop bugging me to update
dots!
BB

♥ 1:37 PM

guess what?
it's my 366 posts!
wao, that's really super super fast
i just came back home, shower-ed and i am here to blog
requested by mirror
LOL
i've been busy with my school's stuffs as usual -,-
so tiring can?
now if you ask me any places in Singapore there is 99% of chances i can reply you
the roads etc O.O"
LOL

today i've a SUPER LONG DAY
LOL
legs - BROKEN
hands - BROKEN
okay, let me think which part i'm still okay?
okay, i guess there isn't.! =x

okay, i'm serious
i'm as good as dead now.

tomorrow another long day to go
sigh
bye.

♥ 12:04 AM

what's wrong with the correct or worng thing?
what's wrong with this?
what's wrong with everyone? O.O"

oh my
i'm like retreating to my small little tiny world ^-^V
the world is so messy .______."
no one can handle it at all
even i myself stuck in the middle of nowhere
oh my
where's the medicine to cure all these? >______<"

don't people feel tire after all these?
wao..i bet they have so much energy to deal with
but i do not have this kind of energy so i will just keep quiet
though i'm hearing everywhere i think? O.O"
though i did talk about it, but there are things i still keep to myself

i'm so so tire
physically and emotionally tire

hope you guys on saturday will brighten my day up
even though we only have 2 hours LOL
treasure the one and only 2hours hor =)

:D

exams approaching soon
Sept 7 & 8
oh ya, things might change for me about the NZ thingy
though i've sorted my mind out
but there is things that my family have to think before they allow me to fly fly away....
well, now the call is not on my hand, but my family.
but i respect them, whatever they decide. :D

and and i am having so many things holding on now
OH MY GOD
Why the hell when i step into ITE, i'm so super busy
can anyone tell me?
i've never been so busy in my life before till i stepped into ITE

- today -
went to school, have a so called mock test
LOL
then after school, went to Bugis etc
okay, why i say etc
because the places we went is kinda of wasted trips
don't how to say
then ended up at Maxwell PLace to have food

and i saw someone
i shall not mention.
bye.

♥ 11:24 PM

你确定这就是爱吗 真的爱我吗
手牵着手漫步斜阳 就当作浪漫
两个人眺望远方 以爲爱的晴朗
当我回头望 却 已泪湿了眼眶
当夕阳变成星光 当爱情换了方向
你一如过往 对爱太紧张
但未来又会怎样
未知的明天总让我徬徨 谁给我力量
我不怕你 爱不爱我
只害怕你 以为爱我
抓紧我 不算拥有 你总学不会放手
我不怕你 不懂爱我
只怕你 把习惯 当作爱
你猜不透 我要什麽
喔 你猜不透 我要什麽

favourite mirror's song ^-^V

i suddenly realised, when i'm not in my right mind, i will talk a lot O.O"
whatever people said, i will just say oh okay
lol
this prove how i am okay
really not in my right mind
but lucky my friends are not that bad to ask me go and die :
but someone cheated me
what the hell -.-
anyway, i'm much more better now =)

♥ 11:33 AM

after many many months later
i'm really really very surprised with the things man
oh my god
i'm really really very grateful/thankful to you

sometimes i feel that ....
sometimes i feel that ....
somehow i feel that ....
somehow i feel that ....

i know you are telling me that i should
perhaps i should listen to what you said
we shall see how again =]
if i really listen to what you said ar, then i think i will owe you 1 big favour =]
but i'm not gonna return hor, because you owe me even more >u<
wahahahahahaha

- sometimes ago -
someone told me that i'm always there to be for,be it rain or shine and for happy and down moments. its enjoyable to be with and make someone feel loved and wanted.and enjoyed every moment of it. ^-^V

i'm very touched with what you wrote.
Thanks, and remember i will always be there for you no matter what.
though i'm nobody.

♥ 10:57 PM

- AFTER HONG KONG TRIP -
reached singapore in the midnight of nowhere
did not manage to sleep a lot
the next moment i woke up and go school for service
then after school's service, went to Suntec for working
as i promised Gene le ma
and amanda was nagging at me, because we said when i'm back, we will go watch G.I Joe
in the end, we did not manage to watch it on that day

so i work for tuesday and wednesday
then thursday, alvin took over my shift
thanks ar :D

so amanda and i went to watch G.I Joe on thursday, like finally ar?
tata went with us too
then friday amanda and i were helping group 2's event
we were acting as paparazzi
LOL
damm funny lor
especially Stella
her handphone's camera is damm professional lor
got the sound hor
don't play play ar

after that, amanda and i went to MS
atewalkatewalk again -.-"

then kiddo came and find me
ate dinner and kiddo went back

- interrupt -
ohmygod, i wanna buy a camera
alvin tempted me! *BOO*
anyway, it's cheap la.

everyday work and eveyday go school
lol
damm tire okay?
anyway this is all my post during and after HK

so the next update post will be back to my normal life =)

♥ 9:06 PM

- DURING HONG KONG TRIP -
makes me realised a lot of things
though i'm in HK
but practically, i was messaging everyday O.O"
ohmygod...in here i also message
in HK, i'm also messaging =x

my mum almost killed me for over messaging
i think only a few know what i mean ><

and this stupid amanda, message me when i'm in HK already
still ask me where are the laser disc =
LOL
told her long long time about the laser disc thingy, still ask me

i did message kiddo when i reached HK, but kiddo did not receive it, according what kiddo's said.
message amanda about the FYE, and she did not reply, reason was "don't want waste my $$ ar"
wth -.-"

♥ 8:49 PM

- HONG KONG TRIP -
went to Hk for 5days
what i did was shopping & sightseeing
it was summer sales when i'm there
went to Macau and ZhuHai
i bought a lot of things from HK

bought for my friends and myself too
i bought tops and bottoms kinda a lot
and 2 bags only :D

ate a lot too, but i don't seem that i gain weight
in fact i lost weight O.O"
kinda of shocked ar? -.-"
LOL

Allison, i bought something for you hor, something that you confirm will like it man
haha
and your name ar, stop changing la, making me confuse don't know what to call you -.-"
sometimes call you this sometime call you that
making myself so blur lor -.-"

overall, my HK trip was fun
will upload pictures into my facebook ASAP :D

♥ 8:36 PM

just came back home not long, woo woo, i actually forget to tell everyone that my lappy has an "N" now
HAHA
because i'm using a new lappy now :D :D :D
Macbook :D
WAHAHAHAHA

so nice to use and the connection is damm fast
but Macbook is not so easy to use
LOL

let me recall today
went to school halfway then come back home
as i'm not feeling well -.-

then went out around 5plus
went to yishun to cut hair :D
new hair style! i like it! :D
M.H accompany me.. :D :D :D
so kind of her to accompany
but actually she wanted to hmm ermm ar
LOL
M.H told me,"you finally ar?finally?oh yes!"
HAHA
i was like,"ya, is really finally!"
then both of us can't stop laughing -.-"
keep making me laugh, can't stand her la =x
we went to Jessica's place, cut my hair and chit chat
it's been a long time that we did not see Jessica

after that we went home, okay, i shall miss the bad part okay?
simply bad bad part -.-"

i'm sort of clearing some stuffs =]

♥ 8:22 PM

woke up bright early to go school
but as i'm not feeling well, so i came back home =/
ate my medicine felt slightly better =)

now i know what's the difference if i did not eat the medicine -.-
when i'm walking in school, wawa called me
lol
keep saying this and that =x

then i just keep say,"okokokokokokok"
because whatever she says, i only can say ok, because she sure win me
tsktsktsk >u<

this whole week, i'm gonna go a lot of places
i will pray hard i'm not going to faint -.-
lol

♥ 3:29 PM

the hurt have been done
it will just remain there till the time fades it away
you never know what you had done
you never know what is going on
you never know what i'm thinking now
because you do not bother at all
you do not even bother to say
it seems you are the one who wants in, and pushes it away
then what's the point of doing it?

once it's done, it will remain there forever
it will heal but it leave a scar

so just leave it as it be
whatever you wanna do to make it up, is pointless
a scar is at there to follow me forever
once it's broken, it wil never mend it back

bye guys

♥ 5:31 PM

just woke up
C.Y called me
LOL
what a timing she called me -.-"
i simply just woke up man
i've been sleeping the whole day man ^^V

- friday -
woke up bright early 5am
met nana 6.30pm but she's late
fang was early too
i saw her while tapping my card out
then we chit chat till nana and celeste reached

took bus to school
help-ed out with the group 2's event thingy
i was so so worn out -.-"
after helping them out, amanda and i went to MS
like finally
because we finally ate our Carl's Junior!
Chilli chesse fries with a cup of small drink ^^V
LOL
we ate and talk talk
talk a lot of things -.-"
then this woman scolded me over chilli chesse fries -.-"
LOL
then we went to Watson's to buy something
then after that, she went off, while i'm waiting for nana
but she can't make it on time so i went to work
but she came at 7pm and we had dinner together =)

after that she went home
while i go back and continue working
-.-"
damm it, what an unlucky day
last minute need to OT ='(
reached home like 12.30am
then bath-ed, then sleep
lol

- saturday -
woke up bright early
just to have my heavy breakfast
then go work
message nana whether she wanna come and have dinner with me?
she came down, and she wait-ed till i knock off
i sent her back home
hmm..in between we talk-ed kinda a lot of things also
but well, i don't know how to say =/

- sunday -
woke up at 12plus
ate a little
go back sleep again
till C.Y called me and i woke up
still talking on the phone with her
she told me one shocking news

seriously heartbreak
RIP my dear
i'm so shocked to hear the news from C.Y
you were a nice person, everyone love to be with you
but now you are gone forever
you will always live in our heart

i'm still very shocked to hear this news.
it's so unbelievable
i guess it will take long time for me to accept this reality

♥ 4:42 PM

thanks
i'm as good as dead now.

♥ 10:09 PM

*BOO*
i'm back guys!
i was back for 2 -3 days already. =)
but was damm bloody bloody busy that i can't even use my lappy =(
i came back on monday night don't know what time got home
then i slept at 5am plus plus, 7am woke up go school
then after school straight go work at city hall
i'm so so exhausted -.-"
may & haizal saw me and said, you looked so exhausted
lol

then wednesday never go school
haha
sleep till 1pm
then go see doctor, just to take the bloody MC
lol
but i think i misplace the MC, it's the 2nd time
damm it
gonna find it soon, before Paul starts nagging at me -.-"

then after that i'm the kidnapper, someone said i kidnapped someone
tsktsk
say me till like that ='(

then today go school
the moment Paul stepped in, he nagged -.-"
then say mock test
lol
i did not study at all
fail =)
haha :l

then after school, went to eat Subway
then Tata came and find us
after that, fang & nana went back to school for the final year event thingy

while amanda, tata & me went to Westmall
wanted to watch G.I Joe
but start at 5pm
too late
lol
so we decided to go Lot 1 watch
and guess what
the movie starts at 4.50pm
10 minutes earlier only
amanda was like asking us, what's the difference???
lol
i was like no difference leh
tata was like laughing away -.-"
we went to many places before we went in to watch the movie

the movie was awesome!
amanda and i kept talking throughout the movie, tata was so quiet
but as she watched before already she accidentally revealed some parts to amanda
and amanda was like telling her to stop saying if not she will kick her out
lol
i was laughing and laughing
the movie is kinda of funny also
at the end of the show, amanda and i was thinking about something
that makes amanda and me laugh like hell
tata was too far behind from us that she don't know what we were talking
anyway, amanda, if you manage to see the name you don't know must inform me
i will go google for the special person
lol

anyway, blog till here
when i'm more free i will blog more about what i'm doing in HK =)


- cost, time and human management -
no one knows what this means except her

♥ 8:20 PM

HAHA
now i'm in airport already O.O"
blggin while i'm waiting -.-"
1 more hour to go

coming back on monday =)
anyway, will blog another thing when i'm back
something even more important =)

and to MDF, don't anyhow update my blog ar
tsktsk -.-"
bye guys!
take care!

♥ 5:52 AM

no updates
tsktsktsk

she msg me sayin tat she wont b updatin anymore
anw, i'm nt e real blogger
e real blogger sld b havin headaches nw
hah
don ask me y
she's havin serious headaches -,-
dumb dumb sld stop havin headaches
b'coz she's nt into anything nw O.O
hah

she's flyin off soon
mornin flight
she promised me will msg me b4 she leaves spore ^^V
hope she will msg me when she reach hk

^^V my face is havin bigger smile nw :D

♥ 10:06 PM

PHEW~~~
i'm back to blog again :D
after 2days of not touching my lappy -.-

[ thursday ]
went to school just for an interview
overseas attachment interview
our class do not have school at all, as there isn't any single of our lecturers are there O.O"
one was sick, another became nanny
so we do not have school, so called our off day =/

then went to Conrad Hotel with nana for D&D thingy
overall, everything is quite good.

then after that, went to Pizza Hut with nana for lunch
- skip the part where we were having lunch =) -

then met up with amanda at orchard, changed the shoe & shorts
dots
then after that, took train back
my eyes SWOLLEN
oh gosh, i can't even open my eyes on that night -.-
my family was so so shock to see my eyes like that o__-
LOL


[friday]
went to see doctor
doctor asked me," open your eyes bigger " (he was holding a touch shinning into eye)
the biggest problem is I CAN'T EVEN OPEN MY EYE dumbass
still ask me open big big -tsktsktsk-
i can open a little is already very good, still ask open my eye big big O.O"
then i tell the doctor,"pain la"
still ask me open big big -tsktsktsk-
ANGRY
T^T
my eyeball is super super red plus super super swollen
that caused me couldn't touch my lappy & my handphone
as i could not open my eyes at all, how the hell am i suppose to see my lappy & handphone?
i can't even watch television T^T
so i turned to the MTV channel listen songs
that's very ke lian okay?
T^T T^T T^T

i practically forget what i'm doing the whole day for today
i even forgot whether i got go out ma?
i remember i did went out for awhile but i don't remember where did i go -.-

my memory is failing =/
blog till here then =)

♥ 10:55 PM