i realli hate e past..e past had been followin me..no matter when..y is tis happenin..?i cant 4get e past..e past had taught me to b tough n strong..tough is nt to b bully by others..strong is nt to listen wat others sae abt me..tis had taught me to live..tat's y ppl sae abt me, no matter how bad they sae abt me i don care..ppl tht i care abt it..but in fact i realli don care..im nt tryin to contridict myself...of coz i don deny tat when they sae something bad abt me i do feel sad..but when i tink again..they r juz childish kids who love to talk ard..n i myself of coz do sae abt bad things abt ppl..but tink carefully if u din do anything wrong do u tink i will hav words 4 u..?no rite...?of coz myself i noe im bad..but tis doesnt mean tat im totally bad..im bad bcoz how u guys sae n treat me so when im gd to u do u rmb..?no rite..?u guys juz take me 4 granted so y sld i continue treat u all gd..?quote a phrase ' tink abt how u treat ppl b4 u tink she or he is bad'. If u treat e person gd eventually e person will treat u back gd..if u treat e person bad wat u will expect frm e person..?continuin treat u gd..?get ur ass off man..tere r no such things in tis world..i noe tat some ppl believe tat so long u treat everyone equally gd eventually they will treat u gd...HELLO..GUYS WAKE UP...b4 i had totally changed, i believed in tis..i once trusted tis..but wat is e outcome..?being betrayed 1 by 1..as days passed, i realised tat i need to change..y?coz i rather to b e one hurtin everyone den im being hurt. Being hurt is nt fun. Is a pain & veri endurin feelin..i believe those ppl who hurt b4 oso noe tis..so y do u wan2 continue to get hurt..? Is it ur mind gone crazy after being hurt so many times..? But truthfully, I am grateful to those who had hurt me b4, though it feels pain & sad, bcoz of u all, i learnt to b tough & strong. Now no matter how others ppl sae abt me, i can realli sae no use keep sayin abt me. Cause this will juz show others ur stupidity..how stupid of u sayin ppl, how petty u r. I admitted im like tat b4..but ever since gt hurt i rather to b e one hurtin ppl ard. Once u're bitten b4 u will noe e pain. But think about this, if u have never hurt ppl & sae abt ppl, do u tink i will sae abt u..? Always remember this : Do think before what u had done in the past. Reflect yourself b4 u tink e person is hurtin u.

Tough & Strong had accompanied me throughout the years i grew up.When i know how to tell rights & wrongs, i had learnt these 2 things. Now if u hurt me, i swear i will return u double. But now no one can hurt me coz i had learnt to let go. Let go is not to hang onto the past. I won't feel hurt aymore, but i will still know whether u're hurtin me. Cause i will take revenge on u. Trust what i'm saying. In order to protect myself, i will learn to take revenge. Trust me, slowly i will move to my plan. I swear. I won't allow anyone to hurt me or people surrounding me. Trust me , Believe me. Revenge is a part of my life. Be careful cause you will be the 1st person to recieve your punishment. Like what my MSN' nick [ A person can escape the law but not the Heaven's law ] But sorry, i can't wait to see your punishment so i will take this onto my hand. I hereby swear, those who had treated me badly, if i don't take revenge, i won't get happiness now & 4 the rest of my life. Guys reading my blog here, if u think im sayin abt u, please think this if u never hurt me & say me u won't feel this way.

♥ 10:08 PM

juz finish blog den nw come back blog again..lol..coz hor juz nw bz..wif wat...?watchin dramas in utube..hehe..super lazy tis few days..after go to e pub i more lazy..n i seems to hang over..coz i ard 3am reach hm den 5am den slp..den mornin early early wake up go wrk..but i realli tired so lie to my boss sae i fall down den go back hm slp again..haha..bad rite me..?opps...mayb goin to wrk under hoyu e dye hair product...tml go to e interview..my boss sae will help us do groomin n all sorts of things..scare scare..lol..sch goin to start wat if they dye my hair den how i go study..?lol...k la write to here le..realli end at here..hehe..

♥ 10:00 PM

i don wan2 get marry..i wan2 play..yeah yeah..wahahahahahaha................PLAY IS MORE IMPORTANT....sat went to pub wif cy n bernard..lol..fuuny thing happen at tere..cant stand it man..cy n me laugh till like....~~~~~stomach pain...haha...blue gt new gals but hor..hmm...nt realli pretty de wor..lol..but of coz nt sae they ugly la..mayb to diff ppl hav diff define for 'pretty'.. e gal tere super take care of me..lol..when she pour e martell like alr 1/3 of e cup liao..cy n bernard de is like 1/4 de..super take care of me..den keep cheers wif us..me n bernard drink whole cup..cy huh..half cup..1st few time whole cup but behind half cup liao..tat day drink super fast..lol...will go back to blue ask her number liao..coz super funny tat day..opps..lol.. tis few days i love 'super' tis word..i dunno y..but suddenly love tis word..keep usin tis word to everyone ard me..haha..nxt wk goin out wif juan,dia n jing..go drink..cant wait 4 tis outin man..coz previously we always go shoppin or sentosa..super healthy lifestyle..haha..nxt wk goin drink...yeah yeah..1st time 4 of us go pub drink..though we gt drink de but is always at Vivo City..our usual sittin place..dunno y tere always little ppl sit de..but gd..we sing n play at tere..yeah yeah...=) ytd went out wif them too..ytd gt a super super long story happen..but i wont sae..coz is super long..lol..
i write till here 1st..tml den continue again..hahahahaha....

♥ 8:53 PM

2 days ago i had a bad fall...super super bad fall..cant stand man..lol..y will someone fall down like tat leh...?nt onli i fell...my sis fell with me..lol..both of us juz fall onto e ground man...nw my legs gt cuts..hand oso hav..a patch of cuts on my leg..hand de onli abit...my sis leh...onli knee..but she gt bleed..mine don hav..apply medicine liao..super pain.........im nt gonna write in here how we fell..super funny...onli can sae like tat..haha...
nw how huh...realli like hell nw...ever since e fall my whole body super suan...wrk oso like no energy...den sick againn..sian..recently easy to fall sick..dunno y..e virus like to find me liao..lol... sch goin to start le..more sian..haha...everyone can see me how im gonnaa wear super formal outfit liao...OH MY TIAN.....haha...continue my jie fei plan..nw every mornin go jog..nw stamina veri gd...jia you jia you..nw every wkend wrk..so when sch starts im gonna no time 4 shoppin..takin up 2 jobs at e same time..earn more $$$$ ma...wahahaha...go find hotel job..hope in e future my path towards hotel line is smooth...go go jia you...!!!

♥ 10:23 PM

actullay i wan2 blog 4 e past few days but i super sian n tired so in e end nv blog..nw blog oso e same de la..past few days been tokin on phone wif cy..lol..tok alot of rubbish..but some quite true..nw e problew is i super head pain..y pain..?i tink coz i drop into a well..wat well..?cy u noe de lor..relationship well..damn it..super sian...=( so wat's e point u sae u like me leh...?or sld i sae u lov me..?i don LOVE OR LIKE U at all...super sian de leh..i don like u coz someone has touches my heart..who is e person i wont sae..i die die oso wont sae...but even e person do nt exist i oso wont like u...i treat e person super duper good nt bcoz i like e person but i noe i care e person frm my bottom of my heart..a place in my heart has been reserved especially for tis person..i do nt noe whether e person noe i care alot but i noe tis person oso care n treats me veri gd...but nw e problem is tat tere r 2 persons i care but i dunno who had moved into my heart..hey cy help me leh.......you fu tong xiang you troubles tong tang..kkz...?haha..story finished

ytd minghui n emily come my house...play..?eat..?watch tv..?ermm..eat n watch tv correct but play..hmm don tink so ba..oh ya..play wif my dog..haha...both of them gt frighten by my dog.. wahahaha....veri funny...den after awhile ok again emily walk here n tere..when minghui walk i acc her..still scare scare my dog..haha..den after she oso ok liao den when she walk alone my dog suddenly bark..haha..me n emily laugh like..........den minghui gt frighten again..LOL...haha.. but overall both of them ok wif my dog le la..still can play wif him throw e ball to him..ard 7pm leave my house..dunno y tis few days my head super pain..when minghui cal me i was still slpin..too tired n sick...dunno y my heas super dizzy de..dizzy like hell...who wan2 bring me go see doc..? no one rite..?haha...k la write to here..will blog again...

♥ 9:25 PM

hmm...actually i dunno wat to write today..i hav nt online 4 e past 3days..bz wrkin n im tired to online..so bloggin i oso no time..told wawa & cy alot of things tis few days...they both sae e same thing is tat SHIT..like OMG..coz 1 of e things i told them is tat my heart seems to hav another person livin alr..& who is tat person..i wont write in here..but i hope tat person will noe..den tis few days i hav been thinkin abt tis..n i find out is e truth..! e past 3days im wrkin at Vivo..wawa oso wrkin at there..den break time we eat tgt..luckily e time same sia..if nt 1 person eat huh veri super duber SIAN......den we oso tok alot of things..her problems n mine too..but mine was like draggin quite long alr so tat one can count as old de..wawa oso feel she hav feelin 4 me..cy oso...lol..if 1 person sae might nt b e truth..but e problem is more den tat..nt onli them..even 1 of my yishun frzs oso sae..SHIT...!!den how..?stop contact her..?cant b..stop being frz wif her..?i oso cannot..den wat..?shit la...juz let it b neutral..when something happen eventually will happen n u cannot run away frm it..tis few days funny sia..wan2 meet cy but in e end we din manage to meet..lol..nvm la..someday will meet again de la..nt like we r in diff country..lol..i write to here 1st ba...tml den continue

♥ 10:56 PM

cut new hair style le..quite short..haha...tis time hair style is diff...one side long another is short den behind is totally straight short..nid to see me den will noe wat kind of haiur style i cut..=) bz lookin 4 jobs n bz wif others stuffs too..april mayb goin to wrk 4 e John Little Big Sales..lols..i wan2 go shop but in e end hav to wrk..haha..hope tat i will find a job b4 april so at least i can reject my boss den after tat i can go tere shop..haha...wan2 find cafe job or restaurat de ba..but i will hope cafe de instead restaurant...coz cafe atmosphere will b much more better den restaurant..haha...hope by nxt wk i wll hav a job..so i wont slack at hm till im goin to mould.. haha...ever since i came back frm my trip my mind has been tinkin 1 person..e person who chen gong dian dao wo...e gal is realli pretty..haha..i sounds like im a hao se gui..lols..when will i get to see her again..?spore oso nt big y i juz cant juz see her on e streets leh..?funny rite..?God always like tis..wheneva u wan something u wont get it..when u don wan it will juz appear rite in front of u....isnt it?to me, it always happen on me.....so nw i wont tink much..let it b natural....

♥ 11:26 PM

back le...so so so so so HAPPY..haha..bought quite alot of stuffs..LOL...but mostly 4 frzs n my sisters..of coz i myself oso gt buy la..haha....but 1st of all i wan2 sae..OMG..e gal realli dian dao wo le.............................dian dao wo le..haha...den another one thing is e pilot who control e plane frm Thai back to spore realli chen gong scare me...LOL..ok..1st thing sae..e hotel room damn big..gt livin room n bedroom..2 bed..me n xin share one den my mum slp one...but den hor..e funniest thing is tat me n xin nv slp on e bed..both of us slp on e sofa....lol...gt 2 sofa den we combine tgt e sofa n slp..watch tv n tok tok den slp..haha..both of us oso buy alot of things..her sis n yin li oso buy alot of things..coz they go tere buy stocks n come here to sell..haha...den wat we buy r usin e wholesales price..is damn super duper cheap..buy tis n tat..buy till i oso dunno wat i buy..nt onli me..xin oso..haha..buy too many le..LOL...Thailand had changed alot..compared to e last time e place is dirty n bags n wallets r easy to steal..but nw is cleaner..toilets n markets r oso veri clean.. den nw mostly don hav robbers..mayb juz we havent see so i sae ok..but i pray tat i don see..haha..
nw huh i cant write more..coz nw my mind is e gal who realli manage to dian dao wo..OMG..she win le la...realli dian dao..................................k la..i write till here..when xin email e pics to me i will upload in here....hehe...

♥ 3:21 AM

flyin off in a few hrs time..come here blog 1st coz im nt gonna bring my laptop to there...nw msn wif frzs..tok tok to them..coz goin to fly le ma..haha..today went to xinni's party..den play n eat.. den after tt me.minghui n emily go 1st..late liao le ma..but den veri funny wor..we were under blk talkin..lol....talk till 12plus..den i n minghui go hm tgt..but of coz la..she go back her house i go back my house..haha..nw i still msn wif frzs..n watchin tv..OMG..4days i cannot watch SCV leh..how?????LOL.......but no choice..shoppin more impt..haha..msn wif frzs n msg wif frzs..wa lao like i realli fly to tere den stay tere..nt comin back..but i gt ask lydia b4 wat if i juz fly away without any notice to anyone..no one noes i fly till where, no one noes wat had happen...i change my number n address n email..how r u goin to find me..?will u rmb me as days pass?will u try veri hard to find me...?im gonna do it soon..since i had done it b4..no harn do it 1 more time..no one will noe where n wat im doin..trust me n believe me..
[CY, i hope tt when im back i will b able to contact u..but i hope u contact me 1st coz i realli dunno how to contact u..]
Take care guys..i blog till here..when im back i will do my blog 1st...good nite..bye guys...

♥ 1:39 AM

i realised tat i believed u man..OMG..im such a stupid..u sae u wont wan to do anything to do with tt gal..im referin a gal sae don wan to hav anything with another gal..yet i found out tt u r e one who keep contactin her..u r a mother-fucker, truthfully i cant find any words to describle u..r u a 2 head snake?i tink so..u sae i 2 head snake..fuck q..!at least i wont betray my dearest frzs..n u like to bad-mouth tis n tat..OMG..even ur own frzs u can do so, n so i tink u will sae like tis abt me too..im a dumb to believe u..oh ya,till here im writin is sayin abt frzship,nt GGR.. yet nw u r e one who contact wif her n tok to her...kaninabei...wa lao..i can feel tat my blood is boilin man..u may find me childish n immature...y nt sae urself...?realli wan2 giv myself a tight slap..so stupid to believe u n trust u..to my dear frzs, do u tink sld i continue trust ppl?????????????????i blog to here le ba..reallii dunno wat sae

♥ 9:40 PM

nw bloggin here again..mid of e nite listenin to e song...which song..i tink is easy to guess..e one tt i had uploaded e lyrics in my blog...im listenin to tis song tis few days..keep tinkin alot of stuffs.. some gd n bad..happy n sad..wat if i sae i love u..?wat if i sae i hate u..?hav u ever tink..?i don tink so..u always onli bother of urself..nv tink of other's feelin..wat u always sae me u nv reflect on urself..ya i admit tt i don care ppls' feelins but to ppl who i care frm my bottom of my heart i wont do so..but wat abt u...?to me, even e person u lov u will oso hurt them..so wat's e pt of gettin me to compare wif u..?ya im bad,uncarin,stupid,hard-hearted..n more n more..i noe u can sae alot of stuffs rite in front of others..but y u juz don dare to sae it in front of me..?u're juz a coward to me..i don see e nid to care u or lov u..isnt it..?i tink u will tink e same as me..y do u always appear e time wheneva i had tried to delude myself in e new thing..?sometimes when im alone, i wld tink alot of stuffs..y sld i bother tis n tt..?i myself had enough troubles alr yet...seems tt to troubles r 4eva nt endin..ok..troubles r ok..but e pro is tt troubles r hard to solve..y is it so hard to solve..in e past to me troubles r easy to settle..tok to frzs n giv advices..nw myself..?haha..realli tere is a sayin 'sae to ppl easy but when urself doin it is hard' isnt it sound like me..?i feel tt tere is no need tt u come n tok to me..coz i realli hate u alot..ok mayb u can sae i lov u b4 but i don even giv a damn to u nw coz i hate u like how i hate her..4 such a long time i had nv ever let tis matter down..nw i look back i find myself so stupid..realli like an idiot..!!!!!!!!!!!
n last thing i wan2 sae don let me keep repeatin to u e same sentence to u again n again.. no matter wat e 2gals ask i will sae yes to them. is tis clear enough to u..?stop askin me anymore n stop askin me who r e 2gals coz u will nt hav a chance to noe who they r...
[ btw,cy if u're readin my blog.pls get me a call ]

♥ 1:12 AM

sometimes i find tt im a fuck-up person..y do i tink so...?wheneva i wan2 cry i juz cant cry i dunno y..i juz dunno y i bother alot of stuffs..?am i stupid..?am i askin 4 troubles..?i tink so..i find myself veri STUPID...stupid in alot ways..i dunno how to put into words..y i am so stupid..?do i tink alot..?i tink so..y sld i bother alot of stuffs....?i onli noe tt i hav alot of question marks in my mind..to my frzship & e relationship within tt guy......i dunno wat to sae..though im flyin soon i sld nt bother alot of stuffs but how am i suppose to let go when i care e matter so much..is realli veri hurtin me n let me feel tt im an IDIOT...i wan2 4get alot of things...alot alot of things..which includes u n me...y do i find alot of stuffs veri irritatin..........?i wan2 4get who i am..i wan2 4get who r u......but y i cant do so...?i tried my best to 4get btw u n me..but i cant do so..i am juz contradictin my own words...i dunno y im doin so...sometimes i hate bein myself..someone who i don even noe who's tis person...?ME..?ya..im referrin to myself...i do nt noe myself..i do nt noe who i am..i dunno alot alot of stuffs...r u hidin alots of things behind me..?i tink so...perhaps i sld sae tt im a lonesome person..a lonely person..a person who don cares anything...i realli hate who i am nw...........................................................can i b someone tt i wan2 b....?story ends

e last thing in here i wan2 write is tt if these 2gals ask me, i will sae 'yes' to them. No matter what. Cause i do noe tt i care 4 them frm e bottom of my heart. I hope they do so

♥ 1:58 AM

*在你左右还要多久
怎么样才能让时间倒流
每一分每一秒都珍重
yeah.......
握紧的手不愿放松
十点半的飞机它在等候
不要再让自己的眼泪流
我必须要走
要记得

**我们的故事真难忘
太多的回忆和希望
不管它有多疯狂
我愿意一生收藏
我们的故事不能忘
太多的情节要发展
不要放弃
因为有一天缘份会继续
一定会继续

我知道你寂寞
一个人确实好难过
思念是一种痛
没有你叫我怎么活
身边充满诱惑
不坚定就容易犯错
你是否能看见未来的收获
你愿意再耐心等候yeah.....

tis is e song lyrics 4 e 1st box..i lov tis song coz i find it meaningful..perhaps tis had reflected on me tat's y i lov tis song..tis song consist alot of emotions wheneva im listenin...some ppl may find tis song nt nice..but i juz simply lov tis song..=)
today is sat don hav programs yet..at nite den gt..=) but actually still nt sure..whether will go out or nt..nw hor my eyes is damn pain n swollen..nw go out sure hav to wear sunglass le..haha.. den cannot wear contact lens..LOL...den i wear sunglass 4 wat??nv wear contact lens alr see blur blur..den if i still wear sunglass later i walk walk den fall down..wa lao..sure veri funny lor..goin to fly soon...veri stress........diao...-_-"' ppl fly happy but i veri stress..mayb can sae tt i don like to fly ba..though im nt gonna fly is e aeroplane goin too..but den i still don like ba...
tis few days i realised i had sae something tt i sldn't sae..but wat to do?sae liao le ma..cannot take back e words or turn back e time..juz hope tt my dears will 4get...hope too..i tink will 4get..i oso will 4get..haha..=)write to here 1st ba..=)

♥ 11:41 AM