if i sae i don wan2 walk alone, will u hold my hands to walk wif me..?i doubt so..coz if u did tat i will push u away..i tink im juz contradicting my own words..coz im oso veri confuse after wat u had told & done to me..but u're e one who had reallli hurt me, u wont see me goin back wif u again..u heard frm others abt her n u keep askin me after tat..so wat e hell u been askin me 4? tryin to show u still care or lov me..?im sorri..pls leave me alone..im nt gonna b so dumb to believe wateva u said..i trusted u more den i trust others but u betrayed my trust..i noe who had been tellin u abt tat gal, guys out tere readin my blog, i noe who was e one to sae it out..coz nt alot ppl noe my blog..n another blog..(prince)...i wrote e msg in Prince's blog. n Prince's blog no one noe except...i don wanna mention u in here....im nt so dumb tat i don even noe who was e person..
Afterall, i wanna tat person to get out of my life n stop disturbin me 4eva. Btw, i thank u 4 sayin out. Pls leave me alone n stop steppin into my life..though u were once part of my life but nt nw anymore n nt in e future. I Swear.

♥ 12:17 PM

haiz..dunno y my tears keep slidin down my cheeks..i juz cant stop it..i wanna to stop it..but it seems to b veri hard 4 me to control it..i cant even control it..today i went to sch, im so quiet.. most of them can see it..don even talk much n play much..mornin cal cy i oso cried..afternoon after finished talk to cy i oso cried..haiz..i realli dunno wat to do..nt i wan2 tink negative side but tis matter seriously had made me veri sad..i tink everyone in 4NC will feel sad..i noe her since i was transfered to Northland..though in Sec 3, we gt seperated coz she retained den when my turn to retain, i was e same class wif her..den we talked again...yet nw, i cant see n talk to her le..=( suan le..don wanna talk abt it again

♥ 9:51 PM

im super depress nw coz i noe a shockin news...my frz had juz passed away..a frz of mine..i had noe her abt 5-6yrs alr..1mth ago, i sitll saw her n talk to her..yet nw, i wont b able to see her anymore in e rest of my life...we were once so close tgt..e days we played tgt n e days how we always fought back tgt wif others...i dunno wat to sae...i cant send her e last time n i cant see her e last time..im realli depress over it...who r e ppl r so cruel to flung her out frm e blk n is 10 storeys...???!!!!u r too cruel to do tis to e gal..tis gal n i were once so close yet nw im gonna to lose her 4 good...im realli realli realli veri sad n depress over it..i realli cant accept e truth..wat am i gonna do..?i noe my frzs had been consolin me after they heard e news but i realli realli cant accept tis coz we r realli veri close..though gradually we drifted apart but e frzship still stays at tere..we always hav fun tgt n played tgt..yet nw..im realli unable to accept tis truth..but i hav to face it...guys out tere pls giv me time to face it..n it will take a long time to do it..nt to 4get her but to rmb her in e bottom of my heart..

♥ 8:24 PM

wat is e hardest word to sae it out..?the word is 'sorry' & 'i lov u'.........guys always sae i lov u i lov u but do they mean it or sld i sae do u believe they mean it..?how do u define by urself whether they mean it or nt..?i believe gals throughout their whole life were stupid once..coz it is e truth tat guys will use their talents into cheatin gals by usin their mouth sae how nice n etc...blah blah blah...~~~mayb in btw e progress, both of u love each other like hell n miss each other like hell but once e honeymoon period gone, e feelins tend to fade off gradually tat u urself don even noe it..till either e guy or e gal sae, 'let's break up,i hav no feels 4 u alr' OR 'let's break up,our personality r nt suitable' if ur relationship can continue 4 a veri veri long period, den i sld ask u, whether is it a habit to b wif him or wat..?i noe in a relationship, nid both hands to clap but when e feels r gone n u're still hangin up tere, i tink u sld hav a check wif ur mind..gals hav fickle mind so do guys too..but don 4get when a gal changed she can b veri vicious..gals can b bitches but guys cannot b bastards. If guys can b bastards, they r nt guys they r juz sissy..n if like tat, i wld advice those guys to b GAYS..it will suit u all e best..nn tis will let u guys to stop hurtin others gals..gals do hurt guys too but nt as deep as how guys hurt gals..4get it..no point continue tis topic

♥ 7:57 AM

tml is my off day..finally..coz mon our class all hav to go back sch 4 something..n change everyone to thurs off..onli tis wk..=) tml goin out wif my classmates..goin to watch movie at causeway point..will update again after i go out wif them..

today in class super SIAN..do nth sia..frm mornin till 1pm we r like sittin down n chit chat..LOL.. pllay games n talk cock..wa lao..i realli don understand wat is her's thinkin..wat e hell logic does she hav..?sayin tat she n her bf can hav others stead outside n trust each other..KNN BEI CHOU CB...wa lao...i super long nv use bad words le lor...as in usin to scold gals k..?i super hate liars man..KNN..don anyhow make promises to ur bf/gf if u noe u cant fufil it..so wat e fuck out tere u sae u're wrong n sae a sorri after wat u had done to him..?wa lao..mayb he's in e wrong too but does it mean tat u can hurt him in such a way..?!?!?!?!!!KNN..e ans is NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!n even after all wat u had done, u still can tell others..OMG..y do i noe u in e 1st place..?i tink my eyes r blind..i sld go 4 a eye check..!! i don wanna sae abt it anymore..

today went to causeway after sch..coz i nid to go tere n buy bulb..OMG..STUPID BULB..go tere juz to buy tis..i dunno y my house downstair din sell man..waste my time go tere buy..LOL.. luckily i meet mh..wee wee..haha..den she acc me go buy bulb n another thing..=) mh sae something wor..coz i tell her abt~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ haha..guess lor..LOL..gtg will continue blog again

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♥ 9:00 PM

im super stress...STRESS STRESS STRESS...y stress..?alot of things add tgt = STRESS
den my problem nt solve yet..=( i tink im realli veri gd in hidin things man..go to sch as usual i can play like hell but my heart is actually bleedin..mayb im a person who don show my feelin out...so wheneva im playin, as usual i will act like how i always play..but im actually tryin to make them happy..cant expect them to b sad wif me rite...?i din tell them wat had happened to me n some other problems...ah ya..alot of problems la..i tink my head pain coz my all tis..

Ytd went to yishun, eat supper wif xin n qi..went to Chong Pang nasi lemak tere n eat..=) so long nv meet them le..we talk alot man..told them how is my new class n how r my new frzs..they r glad tat nw im realli studyin..nt like in sec sch how super slack i am..always skip sch 4 no reason, etc...den talk abt i might fall in lov wif..~~ i wont write in here. Take e person as BB..but i believe EY is still more impt den BB...BB is hard to take over EY..qi told me tat BB might b juz flirtin wif me..but both of them tink i realli like BB..but e truth is i realli nw don like BB..mayb in e future i might fall in lov wif BB but nt nw 4 sure i noe..=)
i miss qi,xin n wen alot..but too bad,wen ytd cannot come coz she gt weddin dinner ytd..but ok la..her birthday is comin soon..june 12..we r goin to pula ubin liao..LOL..go tere cycle n eat seafood..shit man..SEAFOOD..i cannot eat shiok shiok..if nt later i gt rashes man..too much seafood 4 me..NO NO NO..bad 4 my health..haha..LOL...gonna go out soon le..goin to suntec watch xiaowen's concert le..wahahaha...so qi tai wor..will upload pics if i gt take..=) to b continue again..

♥ 9:59 AM

on 20/5/08, i found out something..something which i sld nt noe it at all. sld nt even bother it at all..but wat to do?im e onli 1 who noe tis till nw..my head is pain, my chest is tight..n wat i can sae is tat i cant eat anything nw..wat i eat, i will vomit out..i can onli sae tis matter had seriously hurt me. 1 word to sae HEART-BREAKING. this is true..Take my words 4 real, im gonna change, how i behave in e past, u guys can slowly see it..in e past,how big e matters, i wont feel im hurt or feel sad. but tis time, tis matter had seriously hurt me deeply n 4eva is a thorn in my heart. i wont 4get abt tis matter. slap myself,hit against e walls,cut myself n etc..tis r small case. trust me i can do even more crazier things. i had 4get how to cry alr. but bcoz of tis matter, it's remind me when was e last time i cried. 8yrs ago..?ya..8yrs ago i cried e last bcoz of heart-breakin matter. n ever since den i had stopped cryin till nw, but still i cant run away wat is meant to b happen. but bcoz of tis matter, i cried again, izzit tryin to ask me how to learn to cry again..? trust me. i will stop how to cry again

♥ 8:31 PM

wat sld i do..?im in deep shit..super super deep shit..cy n wawa noe abt it..i doubt no one noe anymore except them...sld i go back into e past like how i am..?or sld i continue wat im like nw..?i cant think probably anymore..head pain, here n tere pain..i believe when things r meant to b happen, i hav to accept it..but i juz don wan it will come true..guys readin my blog out there, don worry abt me..i still noe wat im doin..but truthfully, i dunno tis time wat solutions i hav..coz im realli out of solutions..how sld i put into words leh..?or mayb i sld sae how sld i sae it out to others......................................?4get it la...
im gonna to start train 4 my badminton le..i alr skip 2times liao..nxt time cannot do tis anymore le..nid realli train real hard..nxt time gonna go dover wif henry liao..he is in too..haha..if nt i super lonely sia..there gt alot ppl man..our seniors..noe quite alot of them..cant name them out here 1 by 1..=) i gt went to e trainin once..n actually is fun..haha..though is tough..but is fun..=)

♥ 6:51 PM

today is my off day..quite tired..ytd slp ard 3plus..after my bath..i din even wait my hair to dry n i go slp..coz realli cant tahan liao..super tired..3plus ine mornin den slp..tis mornin oso veri early wake up..10plus wake up..so overall, i still slp nt enough..ytd i was whole day on phone meh.. 1st talk to emi, den i watch tv awhile den talk to stella(ite de)....talk super long..serious talk..=) i tink both of us r recievin e same msg but we dunno how to phrase e sentence it out..is veri hard to find a word or a sentence to describe it...she can see e difference abt me..n so do i..i noe myself abt e difference..but wat abt e others..?can they see it..?or can they feel it..?i don tink so...
y is tis feelin gettin stronger..?towards me n stella..both of us get e same msg frm tt person..i dunno wat to sae. 4get it.

♥ 2:55 PM

juz finished msn wif wawa..keep talk n talk..talk so many funny stuffs..mon is my off day..gonna goin out..go to where leh..?still nt sure yet...today im super tired..i dunno y..i mornin can wake up juz to eat breakfast den i went back to slp again..slp till 2plus..den emi cal me..i gt disturb by her...~~~haha...den we talk abt 1hr plus plus..talk alot of stuffs...but still till nw im still veri tired..ytd talk on phone wif cy..wa lao..i like tis few days keep talk on hp man...talk to cy super long....long till i dunno wat time liao..but i noe e sky was frm bright to dark...so muz b quite long... talk to cy alot of things...personal de..den frm e strat till e end she onli ask me GO & DIE..LOL.. always ask me go n die..but den im realli think alot of things...till nw i still haven sort out my mind..abt tat stuff...which stuff...onli cy noe..i hav a fickle mind i noe...cy sae so too..wawa oso too..but no choice if i hav a fickle mind..u guys tell me if everyday u're gonna do a same thing 4 it wont u fall 4 it..?will de ma..is juz whether u wanna sae it out or nt...isnt it..?like wat i tell wawa.. if i don sae it out tis problem will b solve..=) im sure tis problem will b solve..coz though everyday im doin e same thing but i wont fall 4 it..even i fall, i wont tell..coz i like nw how e status stay as..=)but truthfully, something might happen tat u wont even noe it..so juz let it natural..

♥ 8:44 PM

ytd i was talkin on phone with lydia..talk abt jing's present n e day we r goin out to celebrate her birthday....tis yr jing's birthday, she wanna go to a place wif lots of sunshine n she suggested we go to east coast...wahahaha...east coast leh...LOL...i tink im gonna to b DARKER liao..but i lov it.. hehe..i juz dunno y i like to become more darker..but of coz to a limit la..nt tat dark till i do nt look like im a chinese...=) i tink im gonna b super bz frm nw on..bz wif studies n CCA..(=__= )
ytd after something big happen to 1 of my classmate..she was expelled..long story..i wont sae e details out..n in e end, my class went to negotiate to e head of our tis course..Mr Francis Nathan.. we talk n talk in e room..n in e end he retracted his order n let her continue study..we r so happy..n she cried when he sae tis out..Mr Francis sae he was so surprise to see us so united..of coz we r united..though we hardly noe each other n we onli study 4 3wks but we r veri bonded... he oso sae tat our class will hav veri good propects coz we r veri united..n e course we r studyin nid teamwork..teamwork is IMPORTANT..wahahahaha...I LOVE IT...=) afterall, i hope she will treasure tis last chance..coz we realli put our heads on e chopper board juz to keep her back..
ytd i talk to lydia abt my class too..n another matter..which is super impt to me...eh..i realli dunno wat to sae man..lydia find it funny..truthfully i oso find it funny..but i find it more weird to sae it funny..i dunno wat to sae.. -_-"' sld i or sld nt...????????????!!!!!!no one can help me wif tis..i tink i realli nid to sort out my mind b4 i make my decision..4get it la..
wen's birthday comin liao..nid to make DIY her present..tis yr her birthday we r confirm to hav something big different..=)
I LOVE SOMEONE..WHO IS E SOMEONE..?SOMEONE NOE WHO IS E SOMEONE..=)

♥ 12:36 PM

finally come in blog again..i was super shag 4 e past few days...e past few days ard 8plus i can slp liao..best rite..?but e problem is tat no matter how long i slp im still veri tired...........~~~~ tis few days in sch i was like...veri sleepy de wor...i tink coz we start learn how to carry e plates n tray..e tray was like..~~HEAVY..coz we nid to put cups on top of it n e cups filled with water...den nt onli like tat..my sir still wan us to walk over e obstacles...OMG..where gt so obstacles to pass through de in e normal restaurant...?LOL...but in e end i was ok with everything la..i was wrkin in F&B industry so long liao...tis one ok de la..haha..=) but xiaowen din manage to go through e obstacles..coz her hand was tremblin...~~den she was veri cold....~~~~coz she is sick ma...when she is recover i believe she can do it de..=)
ytd nite talk on phone with wen (nt xiaowen,is huiwen) haha..too many frzs' name behind gt wen..LOL....she still can ask me wait 4 her awhile coz she was watchin tv..LOL...like me la.. haha..lov tv alot..(+_+) ytd when talk on phone wif her, we talk alot alot of stuffs..abt BGR, BBR & GGR..den tell her abt my class..tell her abt my new life in ITE..tt day i went to hav a hair cut she was wif me, she sae i look so gal..OMG..joanna sae my skirt too short..LOL...i dunno wat to sae sia..(back to talk on phone) i was talkin wif wen 4 1hr..tat 1hr we talk alot alot..when talk on phone wif her i tink of something..den i tink n tink till i 4gt wat i wan2 tell her..LOL.....
i was like tinkin straight or nt straight..haha..at e same time i was on phone wif wen, i was smsin wif delwyn..i dunno how to tell him man..like straight or nt straight..if i tell him, he will like sae tis n tat..guys u noe wat i mean..truthfully, if i wan2 choose a gal,i nw sure gt gf. If i wan2 choose a guy, i nw oso sure hav a bf..but e problem is tat both all i don wan..coz i don wan2 go into relationship nw...i wan2 stay single..i wan2 play..y u all wan to force me leh...?juz leave me alone n i will noe wat i wan..i noe u guys care 4 me..but eventually tis is my life..im still capable to choose wat i wan..=) so don worry abt me..relax..but 1 thing 4 sure nw is tat i realli don wan a relationship..coz i realli wan2 play..im still young..come on guys..let us enjoy our golden period nw..

♥ 7:15 PM

im super tired....!!!ytd labour day yet im veri tired..coz frm 12plus till nite 10plus i was wif my classmates walkin ard orchard n den we went to esplanade sit tere n chit chat..den after tat went to marina square to play pool n arcade...den after we went to hav dinner..my eyes was like closin alr liao..but i still cannot go hm...nid to go Blue celebrate angela's birthday..=) i was damn shag... when i was at esplanade, we like hangin tere 4 ard 1hr plus plus..might more den tat...chit chat alot of things.....i din expect i will sae..but since everyone were talkin so i juz sae..=) surprisingly, all of us can talk abt it..no secrets at all..OMG..haha..though mayb e words r hard to come out frm my mouth but still i did sae out..today i gt tell krinst durin e badminton n he find it dramatic man..of coz everyone will find it dramatic but wat to do..?it is e truth..something he sae i find it quite true n no point hidin it away..but still i dunno wat to do..so 4get it..
ytd went to blue...super shag..Emily keep cheers wif me n Elaine..LOL..i like drink 4 or 5 cups le ba..haven even starts playin games i alr drink so much..best still emily can pour e acl alot into my cup..e taste was like...~~~n still im sick...~~den when starts playinn games i still can lose..den drink again..sick le la...LOL...see things blur blur..den when elaine join in, she lose.. haha..den when i wan2 go, they don let me go...LOL...........but in e end i still manage to scot-off coz i won e game..haha..so i juz tell angela im leavin n i juz left...wahahahahaha..reach hm ard 1plus den 3plus slp..7am wake up again...den go sch till 5plus den reach hm...n im like..~~~ my eyes was like mashi mario liao..1 single line..haha..so nw blog..later blog finish im meetin weiyu de come back slp..i nw can tink of nth but slp...

♥ 7:11 PM