joke of the day
thanks to Trip
she told me something when i met her
LOL
is really joke of the day
she and i can't help to laugh at it
laughing non stop
LOL -.-"
but if she was to say another one, i will say maybe
HAHA

♥ 7:59 PM

dead beat.

♥ 9:29 PM

today is the day where i'm really really damm happy!
don't ask me why
but i can say i'm really damm happy
you felt the same way too isn't it?
both of us were laughing so so happily when the others were not around.
though there were others beside us, but we were one corner and laughing away
till the rest came back, both of us were still laughing.
something is not going right o.o
but i guess you and i love the way what we are now.
in front of others, we were like
behind the others, we were like
well i guess this kind of feeling that makes us feel close in someway
and today is the day,ahem, you really teased me till i blushed -.-"
but both of us were laughing like hell despite the teasin part, you are still laughing real hard

♥ 7:07 PM

looking back for the past 21 years, everything seems to have an ending, though it might not turned out to be.
i just turned 21 year old 2days ago.
looking back into the past, a lot of things changed.
okay, it sounds so funny right?
as in looking back for the past 21 years. lol
because when i'm a baby, i do not know anything.
well, then i shall put it in this way, looking back from the moment when i start to have my own mindset/thinking.

ever since i have my own thinking, a lot of things tend to change.
my character, my attitude etc.
turning 21 it means adulthood, no more childhood or anymore silly thoughts or some kid's mindset.
and last but not the least, i have to see things even more further in the future.
21, you have to think your own life what do you want to achieve in your own career.
i'm glad that i do know very well what do i want in my life.
but will i achieve it, it's still a question mark for me and for the others too.

there are times whereby i will think, is there any possibility that i'm not brought into this world?
or even when i'm brought into this world, i might not be what i am now.

i agree with my friend that why bring new ones into this evil world?
sad to say, this world is so far evil than anyone can think of.
betrayal, lies, backstabbing etc etc.
this world is just so materialistic!
and there are times where i'm really felt so disgusted by this world, be it the way how people act or the matters happen surrounding me or my friends.

anyway, the rest of my thoughts will just remain in my mind, no point saying it out to people who do not understand. but i guess there is only 1 person will understand my thoughts who is..
for me to know and for you to find out.

just now i was msn-ing with alex, he told me a lot of things, well, is it the truth?
i also have no idea
to each its own.
perhaps when i leave this hotel, it won't be like this anymore.
and of course i know what are you trying to say and trying to tell me.
i know everyone are having the same feeling when it comes to this matter
and even see it differently, but to me, i really don't care.
anyway, i treats it very sincerely, i hope it won't turn out to be a bad one.
if not, i'm the one who's gonna be hurt.
and trust me, if i'm gonna be hurt by this matter
i won't let anyone to find me anymore.
i will just go back to where i am from.
except CY la, the only person on this earht who always manage to find me.
bloody hell~!
lol
anyway, i hope it will be a good one.

♥ 8:17 PM

having rashes everywhere =.=
never been so serious before.
no mood for blogging anymore.

♥ 8:12 PM

20 january 2010
the best day i ever had!
you guys were damm great!
i'm not gonna trade anything for you guys man!
and i'm really very surprised that there are so many people turned up!
oh my god!
you guys are just so great man!
we had a great time, dancing throughout the night
drinking and playing and singing
HAHA
and all of them were DRUNK, except me!
the birthday girl!
when everyone bottoms up with me one by one, i didn't get drunk but you guys drunk
you guys sucks la!
haha!
everyone were so HIGH!
and i got home like 7am?
while the others like 6plus?
haha!

but still have to thanks those people tried to protect the drunk people away from the baddies
LOL
we did a great job by protecting them
and i did not leave fira alone!
wahahaha
it's just so great la with you guys!

♥ 9:22 PM

whatever.
do it in your way whatever you think/want/desire etc.
seriously, whatever.

♥ 9:05 PM

i have never ever felt this way before.
i'm so upset till..
i'm falling apart.

♥ 7:33 PM

it's a very general topic i'm gonna blog about.
privacy.
why do everyone do not understand the word of privacy?
why do everyone want to know everyone's privacy?

example, there are people like to ask questions,
how are you?how's your love life?how's your work?
so have you start saving?etc.
and there are even worse than these questions

i simply don't understand why do people like to ask a lot of questions about it?
it's understandable that the bosses will ask you, but it's concerning about the job
but those people who ask, are asking just for the sake of asking.

i'm sorry then.
i really can't stand these kind of people.
it's not the people are detestable.
but it's just being so annoyed by them.
and it's annoying that not only one ask the questions, but almost everyone ask the same.
anyway, people, keep your hands to yourself, instead poking into others' matter.

back to work.
i have nothing to say
salehan and i have the same thinking in mind.
it's just being like that
oh gosh, i will miss salehan again as he's going back to afternoon shift.
even salehan sense something fishy is going on.
anyway, i can't be bother with it anymore.

♥ 7:26 PM

sometimes it's just life.
maybe you can feel it, but i'm sorry, i didn't mean it.
i won't do it anymore.

♥ 7:35 PM

today winnie asked me,"what do you want to learn?what do you want to take home from here?"
today, quite a lot of things happened in the restaurant, that i stayed till 5plus.
before she talked to me, i was talking with mark and jerica
frankly speaking, many things are running through in my mind after talking to her.
msn with her also mention a lot of things, and i accidentally made her unhappy,i think? =/
but anyway, everything's alright now. =)
then, today i went down and up around 4 or 5 times, i think?
almost gonna die!
i went to pick up something at the loading bay, while i'm looking for global's stuffs, i heard some noise behind me, it's winnie.
lol.
i thought it's others, who knows when i turned my head, it's her.
and she said something to me, and walked off.
what the hell.
and what i promised her, i really got do it ^^
even she asked me why do i look half dead?
i told her that it's really very tiring.
talk for almost an hour, after her, mark wanna talk to me
but she said no need, she will do the talking for me instead.
and asked me to go home and rest, she will distract mark for me.
in the end, i was talking to suresh, kavi and salehan in the restaurant.
guess this time round, she's really unhappy about it,i think?
but i'm not surprised, i told suresh, he also know this is not the way.
anyway, what's done is done.
i'm really tired already.

♥ 9:29 PM

okay, now i know why Jonah and Winnie want me to go the trainee's meeting no matter what!
especially Jonah!
she knew it the day before i go for the meeting =/
bad girl! never tell me
the moment i told her near the end of the meeting is the birthday celebration, she laughed and said that she knew it beforehand.
i was what the hell?!
how did you know it beforehand?
she said that yesterday when i went to look for vicky, winnie asked her to remind me to go is because she intends to celebrate my birthday.
no wonder~~
she has a motive
and the present i got from winnie, okay, i really like it.
but i'm really surprised she would get that for me
i love the present a lot that i do not dare to use it.
i shall keep it properly then. ^^V
anyway, next week i do not need to work for 4 days!
wahahahahahahahaha
i'm turning 21 on the 21st.
everything is settled already. now what i need to do is to double confirm those who are coming.

♥ 6:39 PM

i feel something.

♥ 11:03 PM

okay, the moment i went to the hostess stand today, Jonah said,"anson, you better go for the meeting later." =/
i haven't even say anything yet, she said this 1st
then i asked Jonah,"why must i go?"
she said,"if you never go, winnie will come and pluck me."
then i said,"why will she pluck you."
she said,"i don't know, yesterday i went to PIE, she reminded me before i leave"
i was like huh?
she said,"yesterday when i go PIE, winnie sees me, she said,"Jonah, tomorrow please remind Anson that she must go for the trainee's meeting"
i was like huh again?
then she said,"never mind, just remember if you never go, i will not going to talk to you."
i was like =( jonah~~~~ please~~
but she insist.
okay she won.
okay i lost.

morning hostess = not hostess
morning setter = not setter
i guess by seeing like that, i myself also have no idea what's my position for morning.
shino came over,asked me,"are you alright my dear?"
i was like nodding and shaking my head away
then he asked,"what happen? you think i will believe you?how long i've been working with you? can tell when you are not happy."
i was like,"really, nothing much la."
back to setting again

salehan was trying his best to make me smile by the usual jokes he and i know. anyway, everyone know. -.-
but i still can't laugh.
during break, tire like hell.
1st time felt this way

after break, station A
boring~~
went down with salehan and eden to take napkins and juices
funny like hell

after which, went back to station again.
clear and serve
after the guests left, set up again
went to the bar, wanna get the glasses, suddenly i saw winnie walking towards me
the moment i see her, i know what she wants to say
she said,"miss ong! later i want to see you during the trainee's meeting."
i walked passed her, pretended i heard nothing =x
and she actually said something to me in chinese =x
okay, she win

after doing everything, went to CDI with eden, glenn, jerica and sandy
sat down chit chat till ellen and winnie came
the moment winnie stepped in, jerica said,"anson is here! she did not run away" -.-
oh my god! -.-
started our trainee's meeting
started off with self introduction, then games, then some activity, can't remember well
lastly, birthday celebration =)
rual, tanya and me!
rual & tanya were celebrating belated while mine is early huh
ellen said that there is a guy who came here the 1st day is his birthday
everyone said,"rual"
winnie said that there is one upcoming one in this month
everyone said,"anson!"
LOL
i'm really really very surprised that they said my name, because practically those who said my name out are those super new trainees from PH.
and i really mean it, is all of them, not only those i know.
then sang birthday song, cut cake
took group pictures etc
after that, i went to the table, do a little of pack up
winnie suddenly pass me something, she said,"nah your present!happy birthday"
i was like,"oh oh thanks"
can't react well, as i'm really super tire
i'm standing behind seeing them eating the cake
and winnie asked me,"how's the cake?nice?"
i was like,"ermm hmm i did not eat it."
she was like,"hey guys, why the birthday girl never manage to eat the cake huh?"
i was like,"it's okay, let them have it then."
both of us were talking behind, asked her something, and she asked me back.
what a nice one.
have to get back to her because i really have no idea when she asked me.

after which, all of us left, mitchiko and i were talking outside, she told me this and that
damm long story
LOL
but i know what she means =)
both of us went to get our pay slip after changing
and jean suddenly said,"anson, your birthday is coming soon right?"
i was like,"ya"
then she said,"happy birthday" shaking my hand
i said,"thank you"
and here i'm off to go with mitchiko!
we took the same train back =)
from the moment we step out from the hotel, till we took the train, till she alighted 1st, we were talking throughout the whole journey
we were actually continuing the topic we talked in the locker's room halfway la
LOL
anyway, blog till here then.
i'm real tire already.

♥ 11:21 PM

sometime using force it won't help the matter but it might turn out even worse
these few days, i've been thinking over 1 matter, really very grateful to jonathan, he talked to me a lot when he's driving me back.
and he told me a lot of things vice verse, me too
paul has been looking for me the past few days, i did not return calls or reply his messages
sorry
i have nothing to say
other than we have to go back on the 18th January for some thingy, don't think so i'm able to make it, but promise to get back to amanda again to confirm if i'm going or not.

today work was kinda of. sigh. shall not talk much about it.
tomorrow even worse, gonna have trainee meeting -.-
having ups & downs now

winnie came to find me today, asking me am i going for the meeting?
then i said,"can i don't go?i'm really very tire and it's ending so late"
she said that i have to go and she must see me tomorrow, then i said to her that never mind i will just forget about that there's gonna have this meeting
and and thanks to Jonah! -.-"
she told winnie that don't worry, i will help you remind her -.-"
okay, everyone win already, i lost -.-
she even said that if i'm not going she's going to call paul
and i told her that oh, i have not been answering his calls and never go back see him and last but not the least, i also never reply his messages.
she's speechless after hearing what i told her =/
guess she's real shocked that i'm actually doing this
anyway, i have my reasons why i'm doing this
even amanda knows why before i told her why
she just know me too well though we are friends like only 2years?
i think?
okay, i'm having ups & downs now
not really in my right mind to think now.
she's gone.

♥ 9:21 PM

i'm in school now
it's 7.56pm.
and i'm still stuck in here -.-"
did not eat anything at all
freezing to death soon =/
report is done, but if there's nothing goes wrong, i do not need to edit anymore
if yes, means i have to edit la =/
LOL
anyway, jonathan is with me now
wahahahaha
he's accompanying me
LOL
or should i say i'm accompanying him? o.o?
and now i have to wait paul send me another email -.-"
forever there is last minute thingy pop up =/

anyway, my brain is dead. =/
bye guys.

♥ 7:55 PM

ok i'm dead.
new year resolution - trying to get out of the shit that you created.
after which, i will then have my own resolutions.

♥ 1:25 PM

first of all, wish everyone a very HAPPY NEW YEAR!
and hope in 2010, everything will go well and smoothly.
be it anything.

thanks guys who sent me all the messages!
especailly amanda huh, i hope what you say will come true =)
hehe =)

anyway, real too tire to continue, so not gonna type then.
pictures will help me tell everything, but not in here
in facebook.

♥ 8:56 PM