I was wondering sometimes, whether do miracles happen?But i believe that it won't happen, some people believe in miracles, some don't. And what about me? Maybe i can say I'm in the middle, but when come to the reality, actually i don't. But when come to the most critical part, i might pray miracles will happen, but actually this is just trying to me myself for hoping that it will happen, but usually, it does not happen at all, THE ANSWER IS TOTALLY NO.
No matter how hard you pray for the miracles to happen, but it won't happen at all, totally no.
But I'm really out of ways already, especially when the time is getting nearer and nearer, hopefully i will just pray that miracles to happen, even once, I'm also happy.

I now only can hope that MIRACLES WILL HAPPEN, EVEN ONCE, I'M ALSO FEEL HAPPY.

♥ 9:59 PM

I know that now no matter what i said, i won't be able to change anything, i won't be able to go into the past, or change it. In the 1st place, I'm wrong also, but i realised that actually that no one could help you when you are in deep shit, and i really mean DEEP SHIT.
1stly, i lent my friend 1.3k, i was unwilling to lend him in the 1st place, but he was really desperately need the money, so i lent him, and now, I, myself had landed into a deep shit, he ran away, did not say anything to clarify it, i was lost. And i mean it, I'm really lost, i have no words to say, maybe i should say I'm stupid to lend him 1.3k, i should not lend him in the 1st place, but now, i can't do anything to change this reality, what's done is done already, i can only take 1 step at a time.
Maybe i should just die

♥ 6:35 PM

Life is boring since baby is not in Spore, last few days i was very moody and my mood is down to endless well, is not because baby is not here.
Baby is back to day, so HAPPY.

Life is damn boring, especially when there is Mr.Paul class, he seems he know how to make a person sleep without his/her knowingly.LOL

Tomorrow is Henry's birthday, Happy Birthday boy!!
Anyway my friends want to celebrate his birthday on his actual birthday, but 1stly, we have to wait Fionna & Celeste to finish their service in Amber, then we can go celebrate his birthday.

We said that instead buying the Fararri bag, we will buy a set of clothing for him, top & bottom, to change his style. Hopefully after this he will get to know new girls and have a girlfriend soon.
But the problem is that I'm not able to celebrate with them, because i need to accompany my baby. I was like sandwich already. Anyway, i told Celeste that most probably i cannot join them.
Sunday gonna go Tampines to attend my sir's sister wedding, from 11am to 5pm, but I'm not gonna stay long, after that i will be going out.

That's all for today. Nothing to blog, that's it.

♥ 11:36 PM

Today in school, i was damn moody, moody till i want to cry and just want to run away from the world, Henry even said," anson today not like herself."

I was super damn moody, Fionna and i was writing in a piece of paper, and i told her I'm very moody, she asked me,"why?" I just replied,"is a secret."

I had nothing to say out why i feel so moody, just feel like throwing everything out away from my mind and myself.

Nothing to blog already, that's it.

♥ 10:16 PM

Feeling so tire today, damn tire. I just sleep and sleep and sleep the whole day till 4pm, isn't it cool huh? Who can sleep so long?Okay, i shall say ME. HAHAHA

Today i was talking on the phone with HW, talk to her about R/S. I think sometimes myself also making myself so confuse, or maybe i should put words like this, i just getting sick and tire of it, making myself very tire.

Sometimes i should say that even i myself also don't know what to do, i love my busy life now, busy with school, and my others stuffs too.

I shall just end my R/S since i knew myself that i can live without it. I know myself too well already

♥ 11:10 PM

I had upload the pictures, F1 gathering, looks cool huh?haha
actually there are more, but i just choose some and upload in here.
Really miss those days, where we everyday have to work, day to night, sometimes we even have to work regardless day or night.
Dec gonna help gene to work bicycle fair, though the pay is not as good as F1, but i help him is because we had worked for the F1 together, and the bonding is there. Shall have a happy working during dec

♥ 6:26 PM

Today is a fantastic day, SGP people came to Amber restaurant and have lunch. Jett, ShuAi, Adrian, Stuart, Gene, David, Pat and her whole gang. The whole restaurant half of it is our own people except a couple, MR ERIC LIU. A super super super bad guy i can say, maybe is my own opinion, or myself that i really don't like him, don't like him to hell, just can't stand him at all.

Is a big gathering today, took alot of pictures with them,will update here ASAP. I took with ShuAi and Jett alone. Hahaha, simply love both of them alot, especially Jett, a very good lady, though i know that some people don't like her, but then i still like her alot, haha, i think some of them have the same thinking as mine too.

Ended around 4plus in the afternoon, and I'm really really super tired, from my school walking to the station, i was yawning all the way, even now I'm blogging, I'm still yawning.

Whatever, I'm still very very tire, wanna sleep ealry tonight but seems that the answer is "NO"

Gonna blog till here already, will update again

♥ 11:01 PM

Today i went to CWP with my sister to swap the set-up box to digital, so i was the one to unpluck the wires and I'm also the one who have to pluck in the wires back again, okay, i shall say my skills still not bad, at least, I'm still able to set it back and we are able to watch, haha.
I'm not a very good techician in the 1st place anyway.

And now, i have every channels to watch, many many many, including, CARTOON NETWORK!!!
I was like super high, how long have i not watch cartoon already, is really really very long.
So i shall watch till i shiok shiok now.

Tomorrow Pat and the others are coming to Amber and eat, feeling so happy that they are coming and eat, Shu Ai is also coming, she's a funny girl, HAHA

Hopefully tomorrow i will hear good news from Eric, i swear after all this, I'm gonna stop, once and for all.

♥ 7:12 PM

Super tire man, yesterday i was like early in the morning 8am left my house, and in the midnight around 12.30am then reach home, i was like whole day outside and I'm really super tire, tire till i almost fall asleep during the wedding dinner.

1stly, yesterday around 11am, i was having my competition, held in Expo Hall 5. Okay, i shall say that this competition, i was super nervous, because the competition was held in the public. At 1st i thought that it would held in a room, with transparent glass and outsiders can see, but it is not. It is held right in front of the hall, and everyone were looking at us. Though 3 teams of us did not manage to get into the finals, but it is worth it, because we learnt alot of things from there, we did not win, but we are still very happy. =)

2ndly, after the competition, Amanda, Maisy and i went to Kallang Leisure Centre, they came over to Expo and find us, oh ya, we saw fang and her guy too, haha. Okay, when we reach Kallang, we still have to wait bus no. 11, the bus was like forever never come, we waited almost an hour, we thought of taking cab to there, but luckily the bus came, finally.
When we reached there, we went to KFC to have our lunch, and then we have our shopping spree, but is WINDOW SHOPPING. LOL
Though the shops there are very little, but the shops are all very nice and the things they sell, really catche eyes, Amanda got what she wants, a handphone pouch, with a monkey design on it. As we walked, we saw a shop, selling guy's tops and bottom. We went in and we saw alot of stuffs that we like, Amanda almost gotten a shorts and a belt but she decided to buy it at Bugis, as there is another outlet at there.
Around 6.30pm we leave the place, took bus no. 11 back again to Kallang station. I took trian back to Simei, as i need to attend a wedding dinner, while Amanda and Maisy took train back home.
3rdly, i attend the wedding dinner, i can only say that the service is bad, the service is slow and the food is not nice at all. That's i can only i can give the comment.
This is how i end my day, with a wedding dinner, overall, the wedding is still very sweet.

♥ 10:27 AM

Damn freaking tire, I'm really really very very very TIRE.
I can't say anything now to express how I'm feeling now, i just know that I'm really very sick and tire of it, not referring to my r/s. I'm sick and tire of my school, everyday starts very early and ends very late. I'm really really very tire. My physically and emotionally had totally used up already, no extras and no spare.
That's it

♥ 7:26 PM

Busy with my school now man, i was like damn busy till i can't even have time to online and blog.
I was like running here and there in my life now, as in, now i really cannot control my time, in the past, at least i still can control as and when i want to do what, but now, TOTALLY CANNOT.
Super boring, now i cannot control it man, and I'm always so guilty about towards my friends because i always had to cancel my outing with my friends. I'm so sorry about it for that.

My mum went to Genting yesterday, okay, Genting again, she just love that place. LOL
Gonna have a competition for this coming Sat, truthfully, i really have no idea what is the competition about, what i know is that have to be fast and steady, is a competition for waitress and waiter.

I'm just feeling tired of it already, tired of maintaining it. Get my meaning?
You guys know, as days pass, there are things bound to change.

I was listening to High School Musical Songs, one of the songs is "When there was Me and You"
I just love this song, i knew there is no fairytale in this world, can anyone tell me how do you define fairytale?For me, i will say it as, not able to find it in reality, maybe in dreams, yes, you may find it, but is just a dream, once u wake up, it's over.

Sometimes i find myself that i should not go into relationship, maybe i should not go into any of it in the 1st place. Maybe i shall just end this. Let it be a lesson for me, if i really know that i can stay long and i will go into it. Maybe I'm just still unstable. That's for all today.

♥ 9:10 PM

Manage to change my blog address, but then the problem is that i don't even remember my own blog address. So don't bother to ask me anyway.
But i bet that no one will know my blog address, as i had also changed my settings to disallow the search engines to show my address. So i bet no one will know my new blog address.

Today in school, as usual, some boring lessons and etc.
We had our 3 hours lunch-break, OH MY GOD!!! Isn't too long already? I was like gonna mould in the classroom already, luckily, Amanda & Celeste were there to entertain us, Fionna & myself.

Then we had our lesson by Mr.Caveman. Anyway, he's just a another boring person

And we end our lesson around 3plus, went home straight after that, got stuffs to do at night so went home straight to get some rest if not i will only be more sick. Having a fever and cough now, hopefully i will recover soon.

Sometimes when things go wrongly, think of something to save it.
Plan to fail, if you never plan it well

♥ 9:20 PM

Just now i was ironing my uniform, listening to songs, as the song 1 by 1 playing, i was thinking back to the past. Sometimes i know that things do not turn out the way we want, but i realised that everything that i wanted to turn out to be, it came true. Though i may caused unhappiness to people,(without my knowingly), i can only say I'm sorry. But things always tend to be oppose us, isn't it?
I know myself, at times i tend to be very harsh, including to my friends, C.Y know how harsh i can treat my friends, i believe i myself at times, is also harsh on her. But this is my character, take it or leave it, if you want to be my friends, you have to accept for what i am.
Not saying that though I'm harsh on my friends, i did not apologise, i will say everything before i start my harsh words. But seems that people love to twist my words, I'm not referring to one particular person, but to those who always twist my words, you twist my words, is alright. But you twist till like all the sentences you said is totally different, i can even said that sometimes i did not even say others things, you can also say is i say.

Today went to have lunch at Sakae Sushi with Eric, Jacky & Da Wei. We talked alot, and lots of funny things happened when we were eating. Amanda did not join us, so she miss alot of fun today. Too bad
Then when i was on the way home, my hp just keep ringing and ringing, 1st is my sir called me asking me for the names who are going to Simei ITE on this friday, as XW is not confirm yet, i have to call her and asked. The moment i hang up with her, my hp rang. People were like looking at me with a question mark, like, "why this person's hp is keep ringing?"
Okay, whatever, my hp rings means I'm busy!!! LOL
Okay, whatever, I've been nagged by someone again. Got to go already, Bye guys

♥ 9:52 PM

School was boring today, except the service that we were doing in our school, VVVVVVVIIIIIIPPPPPPPPssss are the ones that seated in our restaurant, the atmosphere was like damn tight.
And i was like damn super tired, need to walk here and there, which is like I'm trying to act BUSY!!! Whatever!!LOL
Some did not manage to do well today, glass was toppled, lucky it does not topple on our guest, though it does not hurt anyone, but when Maisy and i pick up the broken glasses, we cut ourselves. Moral of the story: Do not use hand to pick up, use a broom and sweep it.

Gonna blog to here, I'm very tire and sick.

♥ 10:07 PM