- wednesday -
morning as usual Marina Bay Sands
after which, i met up with eden, dev and we bumped into jonah and rasul!
LOL
i was outside Pan Pacific staff entrance, saw mark and his friend, we talked quite awhile, then they left.
saw florie, then followed by kavi!
talked with kavi super long.
lol
then saw my big big brother, SALEHAN!
took some pictures with him, and finally, eden came out,
but still have to wait for dev.
lol
so sat outside and chit chat!
salehan and kavi told me alot of things about global kitchen
and not only that, they tell me a lot of things that i practically can't really remember alot. lol
then after dev came out, he went to school to collect the books, left me and eden.lol
we went to clinic, eden need to see the doctor cause..
while waiting for the queue number, shieh fang came in.
lol
she looked at me, i looked at her -.-
and she still paused for awhile, and said that i knew it, i have a feeling i will see someone i know.
LOL
and we chit chat for awhile too, she told me this and that too. LOL
then she left, head back to her office.

then left me and eden, after seeing the doctor,dev joined back.
went to the food court to have dinner together, saw jonah and rasul, sat together and start gossiping about Pan Pacific.
LOL
well, everyone had left already, except eden.
but it's alright, she's leaving soon too.
LOL
after which, went to walk around together and i went off 1st to meet egena, to go for our FBMA's red cross event.
cabbed down to the place, both of us were just so funny.

papa conrad, lens gwee, goh mong song, morris and frank were there yesterday
and only youth wing ex-com were there too
ended super late, around 10plus
went dinner, or rather supper together, around the area.
we had a lot of fun!
during the event, we also have a lot of fun!
well, what can i say?
we rocks!
and you guys really made my day ;)
i had a long day though
but with you guys, my energy are back

wanna go taufik & fareed's birthday celebration, in the end i did not go
cause the event ended late -.-

after the supper, egena and i cabbed back home
both of us live very near, just 1 street across.
LOL
sent her back before i got home
on the way...
in the cab, both of us keep talking, talk till i already don't know what i'm talking about
even she said that you are so tired, sleep 1st la
LOL
then when she reached her place already, she still tell the uncle that next stop is avenue 6
LOL
this shows how tired i am that i can't continue to talk anymore
even when i messaged with salehan, i also already don't know what i'm typing -.-
i'm really damm tired!

shall blog till here then.
gonna do my stuffs now ;)

♥ 6:57 PM

so freaking tired now.
doing the preview opening for Marina Bay Sands, it's easy though
but we have no idea why we were freaking bloody tired. lol
for the past 40 minutes, i was on the phone with cheryl.
talking about Marina Bay Sands.
LOL
both of us keep talking bad about them

well, indeed, it's real bad.
it's just too sucks man
i'm better off than the security guards over there
even Aldo agreed with me!
LOL
he also said that most of the security guards working over there do not have experience.
LOL
i also do not have experience lor
but i actually do a better job than them -.-
what the hell.

it's just so funny!
during the sitmulation event, we slept in the same room, both of us keep gossiping about the whole hotel and everything, now out of the hotel, both of us are still gossiping about the hotel :p
haha!!!
not only me huh, practically is the whole bunch of us!
even the undergraduates too! opps!
LOL

and i just messaged Yvonne tomorrow i'm not going!
*BOO* it's because in the morning i have something on ;)
cheryl even best, today she's not going already.
lol

♥ 6:32 PM

this is so pain :/
forget it.
the pain no one will know about it.
it's useless.

why does this particular person is such a hypocrite?
i've never seen such a person.
thank you, you really made it!
i thought you weren't, but it turned out to be you are.
you were the one who said this and that etc.
and yet you were the one who was a TRULY HYPOCRITE.
thank you once again.
i would not because of you and won't trust anyone else.
as i had mention earlier on, "you were"
it means to me, you had became a past in my life.

i'm glad that even though you had gone/walked out from my life, i still have amanda's and gang, C.Y, mirror & winnie.

having them is more than enough.
and family too.

♥ 8:50 PM

okay, shall post a super long one before i start getting busy with Marina Bay Sands.
recently, there are so many things are running through in my mind.
for the past 2years, i realised something about myself.
okay, i know that i took a long time before i realised this, even though amanda has been reminding me till today.
yet now, i really regretted not listening her words/advice.

sometime, people take quite awhile before they realised about it.
sometime, people chose not to realise it.

sometime, people rely on their instincts, other days so long the decision you made makes you happy for that moment in life, so who cares the decision you made is wrong in others' perspective, so long the decision you made makes you feel happy.

i've been waiting for the decision ever since..
ever since i chose my way, i knew that it wouldn't be easy.
it's not that tough either.

sometimes, in my own world, i always ask myself this question, why do people like me chose the path we want?
it seems that we can't get an answer for it.
it's up to individual.
for me, my answer shall remain to myself.
no one knows the reason. ( maybe C.Y knows. )

there are times, i will think, just because of something, the person do not dare to cross over the line, so what will you feel?
sad?angry or depressed?
because you are being forced not to take the way you want to.
maybe because of family, because of friends or maybe because you do not know how to face the world when you chose this way as the world is still not open to the way we choose.

but does it matter?
why do people like to bother with those people that are making some noise when they themselves are imperfect too?
neither i'm perfect.
i took a long time before i'm able to let go/ can't be bothered with those people.

Lisa told me before that she's envy of me, i asked her why.
she said that why i'm able to lead such a carefree life?
the life i want, the way how i want to be and the way how i am.
i told her that, if i'm really going to be bothered with what people are talking behind my back, i will be living in a life that is going to make me very miserable.
but remember, now everything i have, does not come easily.
i reap what i sow.
i gained everything what i am, i did give up something too.
nothing is free in the world.
you have to give up something for another thing.

and it really took me a very long time before to be what i am now.
in the past, i'm a person who will be bothered with people's comments, now, i'm not.
there are times i will still though.
but it's a matter of thing how you see it.
whether do you want to change yourself for a better person or just remain as what you are now.
for me, i would choose to be a better person.
i'm not a perfect person, and in this world, there won't be a person is 100% perfect, why not try to be a perfect person then? ( that doesn't mean there isn't anyone who is a good person )
but it's not easy either.
it's hard to define whether is the person good or bad anyway.

what i'm trying to say in here, just live the life you want it to be, if you are going to restrict yourself in many ways, you are the one who is going to feel unhappy.

lead the way you want, live your life to the fullest and do not care the result but the process of it.
enjoy the moment in your life, do not turn back and look at your past, move forward and run for it. do not let anything/anyone slip off from you, grab it before it goes.

is there anyone able to do it?
i'm glad i'm able to do it, it's hard though, but i will try hard for it.

♥ 4:37 PM

okay, back from Marina Bay Sands..
the stay was okay, but i would say that the stay wasn't that good at all.
it's still very chaotic.
not only i said that too, all my classmates said it too!
anyway, it's an awesome experience for us.
even though the stay was super super BAD.

cheryl and i have been talking about the hotel the moment when we stepped into the hotel!
LOL
both of us were just so funny, and both of us were assigned to the same room!
we are room-mates :D
and we waited for so long before we got our room
the whole sitmulation event i won't comment much in my blog, shall comment in the feedback form etc.
overall, it's still an awesome experience to stay, is because we are the 1st guest to stay in, we do not need to pay anything etc. haha!

♥ 6:39 PM

got home super late last night, around 1plus.
class ended late as we had birthday celebration for Mable and Eileen
after which, a few of us went to eat supper at yishun :)

ate good food again!
i'm going to stay in MBS tonight :)
oh oh oh~!
can't wait for it!

and after next week, finally, i will be able to take a short break!
recently, cannot go anywhere, no batam, no bintam not even pula ubin.
LOL
thanks to the nature~
the act of god.
so i don't know go where.
and amanda keep telling me when is our bali trip?!
winnie was just telling me about bali trip too.
lol
we will be going to pula ubin for cycling too.
the other day we were just talking about it. lol
ah yo everything will be done when i'm not so busy!
and i want my zoo trip la!
egena was telling me the other day she just went to zoo only!
idiot~!
arghh~
i want to go zoooooo!

♥ 9:43 AM

next year FHA will be in Malaysia, so i am bringing winnie over eh?
lol.
since i can get her in, i see why not, since she has not been one before.
FHA is really awesome.

today, it's just so funny, i told jonathan to come over hall 5 to look for me when he's reaching but this lecturer is damm funny, from the moment he reached expo, he was in hall 9 all the way FHA is close. lol
what the hell. -.-

and i saw so many people today!
and they can't recongize me -.-
guess it's just that they have never see me before with an outfit that is super super formal.
well, i agree, it's just to formal -.-

should i ask winnie out on that day? hmm, lisa said that i should.
lisa and wen said the same thing to me.
lol.
well, i agree okay?!
haha!
i miss that day when i'm at her place, it's just an unspoken word when we were in the room.

♥ 11:59 PM

text winnie today about whether are we having dinner together one of this days, she asked me whether i'm done now? she can today, and she's on her way back home.
i said that i cannot, i'm having classes now, and asked her what about tomorrow, she said that she can't and the rest of the week she had plans already, thus i replied her that, oh ok, i'll guess it will be quite sometime before we go out together again.

been schooling for this few weeks, and it's like oh gosh!
increase to 4times a week.
only for this module -.-
it's damm damm tiring and tedious, not only me, but to my other classmates too, most of us were so tiring.

salehan called me today, told me something. guess it's not a secret anymore.
it's an open secret.
though i left PPS already, but whatever happens in PPS, i will still know about it.
eden just messaged me like 2 days ago?
jonah just messaged me today, hope she's coping well in the new environment she's in now. :)
a sweet girl indeed.

will be going out with winnie again in the 1st week of may, and it's her birthday week.
what should i get for her?
she seems that she doesn't need anything.
but i know she still need something. lol
will get her that as birthday gift then.

♥ 12:43 AM

text winnie today, asked her whether is she able to make it on wednesday for the FHA, but too bad, she said that she can't, well, i took great lengths to get her in, but she can't. cannot comment much about it, she has to work. then she asked me shall we go zoo this saturday, i told her i can't as i'm having MBS training, can we make do dinner for this week? and she did not reply me already. -.-
i knew it. anyway, i have to text her again tomorrow.
she knew that i'm gonna be very busy for this 2 weeks, thanks to MBS and FHA.
i thought i could get 2weeks rest, but in the end i can't. thought this 2weeks i only need to study, do my assignment and go out with her. in the end, everything are upside down. :/

she has never been to FHA before, and really love to go if possible since that day she told me she want to go, but it's really a waste.
anyway, if there is one in next year, i will bring you there then.

FHA is gonna be 4days if i'm not wrong
i will be there for 3days if i'm not wrong.
it will be a very good exposure for me, i like F&B, this is a good experience for me.
i've been one before, but it's not that good at that time.
this time, i'm there as a participant.
i believe i will be able to gain/learn in everyway.

i so need to crawl to my bed now.
damm tired after doing my assignment and blogging.
bye peeps.

♥ 1:51 AM

just came back not long
went to the wedding reception, it's so cool!
Fort Canning Park Gallery :)
it's a nice place to hold a wedding function, the place is cosy and nice etc.

i waited for winnie almost 1 hour :x
yeah i know, it's super long. i also have no idea why did she take 1 hour to walk from Pan Pacific to City hall -.-
she called me and asked me to come down, i was waiting for her near the starbucks there, but she's at the downstairs
so i went down, the moment she saw me, she grabbed my arm and kept saying sorry la, i know i'm super late, i did not mean it etc. then i said that never mind de la hor, then she kept saying sorry sorry and said that ok la, i sayang you ok, don't be angry liao.
LOL
super damm funny la both of us.
then went to take the shuttle bus and head to the wedding reception
in the bus, both of us were so funny that we kept laughing non stop, it's just too funny already.

reached the place, wished the bride, and we went to makan makan
and again, she grabbed my hand and said that let's go eat
took some food and ate a little
after finish eating, we went to take pictures with the bride and we left
slowly walk to orchard, when we were coming out from the Fort Canning Park, she was holding onto my arm, due to the ground floor is so upside down, when you guys should know that girls who wear heels it will be very hard for them to walk properly, so she hold onto me
while i'm checking the movie time slot,she was walking so fast, she's holding onto my arm though, so when i felt that she's getting lower, i just grabbed her and said that wait huh, i'm checking the movie time

so slowly we walked till orchard, instead getting the tickets, we ended up walking around and ate dinner together
kenneth joined us after he knocked off.

after finish eating dinner, kenneth went home
and i told winnie i will be taking the same train with you, till your place, she asked me what happen, i just told her that recently just don't want go home early
so i sent her back home, she's in the lift already when the door almost close, she opened it again and said that come up to my house
and so i went up

went into her room, she went to shower while i'm watching online movie.
lol
shutter island
i watched it before already
so when she's back, we watched When in Rome.
nice though
watch halfway, she fell asleep
i already told her that the way how she's lying on the bed will make her fall asleep,
indeed, she is.
i lowered down the volume and when i'm about just to turn my head over, my hand phone dropped onto the floor.

at first, she's still sleeping when it dropped, and after awhile, she woke up, then i told her that since you are sleeping already, i will make a move 1st,then she just look at me and did not answer me, then i kept telling her, never mind la, you just continue sleeping and i will make a move, she still kept quiet.
then she kept saying, no i'm very awake etc. so i continued stay on.
till the movie finished and i left.
and she continue sleeping till now i think?
lol

♥ 2:31 AM

blog a little before i go off for the wedding reception.
is at Fort Canning Gallery :)
meeting winnie at 4pm and go there together
now i'm in HCL, the library that is only for UNLV students, but guess what?
JONATHAN IS WITH ME!!
yeah guys, our beloved JONATHAN SIA from our school is here with me, because both of us are studying, he's having a exams later at 7pm, poor him.
while i will be enjoying myself at the wedding reception :)
anyway, we had lunch together jus now, jonathan and his wife and myself.
3 of us were talking a lot of stuffs, and we ate good food!!! wahahaha!
it's not cheap though, but it's really super delicious :D

and now both of us are studying while his wife is on her way back home, and i'm so surprised that both of them are studying in the same school, but different course only. but it's cool ar? husband and wife are studying the same school etc.
COOL~!
his wife is really an one funny person! haha!
and she reminds me a friend of mine :)
and now we are in the HCL studying, but you guys can see, i'm not, as i'm blogging, but hello!! i need to take a break la!
saw Egena, Justin, Alan and Daphne while i'm studying in here earlier on, they were so shocked to see me in HCL.

anyway, i'm staying in Marina Bay Sands on this coming friday, gonna do the simulation event and the grand opening.
and from tuesday till thursday, i'm helping out in FHA.
so this goes to show that i do not have a break at all. :(

life is so BORING!
work study and go out
work study and go out
BORING~!
LOL
wanna have time for myself also cannot
but really, i'm really making an effort to go out with winnie despite the busy schedule i'm having now, likewise, she is doing the same thing.
both of us are just too busy with work etc.
can you imagine she has to go back to office on saturday too?
whenever we meet up during weekends, she will always ask me to go to the office to look for her first then we will go off together.
salehan and tanya said the same thing to me," why on earth both of you keep going out during weekends? and it's always you and her only, doesn't she has other friends other than you?"
well, quite true. i agree with both of them, why did she always come out with me during weekends?
and there's quite a few times she did tell me that she need to go back office, only in the evening can meet me for movie or dinner,and i said that i'm ok with anything, just text me after you are done with your stuffs.
and i did tell her it's not a must to meet me, as she will be feeling tire after going to the office do stuffs then meet me.
she said that it's okay etc.

anyway, cut short to say, no matter how tired both of us, we will still meet up.
and it's every weekend. last week, almost meet up with her again right before my D&D when we actually met up on saturday already, but she's said that she's in her lazy mode so don't want to meet, and i just sign out and go to NUSS, and when i meet with amanda and celeste, i'm late, because i lost track of time while i was msn-ing with her. LOL

ANSON ONG IS FRIGGING TIRED NOW!
due to yesterday, i got home at 1am! and slept at 2am and woke up at 7.30am for classes.
met up with kenneth, had dinner together, went to starbucks to chill out, and i went to his place, while he get his car and sent me home :)
but we were driving around in first before he sent me back, as we had a lot of things to talk about, he know what i mean. so ended up i got home at 1am :x
and frankly speaking, i really really need to sleep to get recover.
as i'm getting older, my body system is not as good as in the past.
ANSON ONG, please start taking care of yourself from today onwards :)
LOL
i will anyway.
i have to, i should put it in this way. haha!
anywya, got to go now, going to walk to the station and meet up with winnie and head to the wedding reception already. it's time to go there

♥ 2:37 PM

as usual, morning went for my work, then class again.
well, i know a lot people will ask why do i have class on wednesday?
well, because of MBS, so we have make up lesson.
gonna stay in MBS, for the sitmulation event. :)

so 2 week from now, i'm going to be so frigging busy, so this coming saturday will be the so called last saturday i'm going out with winnie, anyway, i told her my busy schedule like a few weeks ago? i think so.

this coming saturday, going for the wedding reception, well, those who work in PPS, will know whose wedding reception on saturday :)

today after class, i went to PPS, look for yoges, jonah and the others. saw kavi and he told me that he saw liping!
lol
i told him that i know, as liping messaged me and told me too. lol
he was surprised to see her in PPS.
stay around for 1 hour plus plus, went to pick amanda up from work, and both of us bought the starbucks drink!! woo hoo!
i'm lovin' it :)
sat the train and head back home.

i'm going to bed now, frigging sleepy now.
good night dudes and babes! :)

♥ 1:14 AM

We had a great time yesterday, though there's quite a few people did not come.
everything went smoothly, it's going according to our plan, thanks to Rahmat, Amanda, Eric, Steve and Celeste who came earlier to help out.

Prizes, programs and games, everything were under our control,did not over time. Food was alright, well, Amanda and myself did not really eat a lot, as you guys know, we had to keep walking up and down, she did manage to eat though. She's sick, so at least need to eat ar.
Of course she did eat something, because i'm the one forcing her to go eat. LOL
likewise, she also keeo asking me go eat too. LOL

During the D&D, we were showing the video to our class, it's just barely 2 years, yet we did a lot of things, from the video, we did many many things. The history we made, the tears we shed, the joy we shared and everything we did together. Though our class was spilt into half, FR1 & FR2, most of the times, we were having fun in our own half. But there were times whereby both groups were so having fun times together.

Now, it officially marked an end of our ITE's life, but it's also another new beginning of our life journey. As time passes, people tend to leave our side 1 by 1, i don't deny neither do i agree. Everything is in our hand, it's us who made us what we want to become.
If we want, we can always keep in touch, everyone were talking about this yesterday night when we were eating, we will see each other in the industry. This is how we going to keep in touch. Not only that. we can always have a gathering as and when we are available. :)

Guys, we really had done a great job yesterday night. If not Paul, we won't be in the D&D, we can't deny what he had done for us, he had been through with us ups and downs too, we always gave him troubles, but he did not abandon us at anytime but always stay with us.
To me, he's like a father to me, maybe because since young, I'm a single parent, so when i see him doing the things for me and for others, i will feel his fatherly love.
I don't deny that everyone of us in the past, were complaining about Paul, he's always like that and like this. Even i, myself also complained about it too, but those people who always complaining will never say 'NO' to him. Whatever he want us to do, we will do everything nicely for him.
Yesterday, when he's giving his speech, everything just flow into my mind, Amanda and I felt the same, when he starts giving out the awards, as he was describing this award is for who who who, both of us can guess who's the person. He did not say names though, from the starting till the time when he's about to say the name, he has been saying 'this person.'
Yet, we can guess the correct person. It goes to show what we had done for our class or rather for him for the past 2 years. Not only us, but Paul too. He remembered every single thing what we done for him for the past 2 years.
Today, 12th April 2010. 2 years ago, the first day we went to school, everyone don't know one another, everyone were very quiet.
2 years later, everyone are so close, like chatterbox, talking non-stop, and we were talking for the past 2 years what changes we had made.
Now, the new beginning of another level in our life journey.
What we should do is, keep the memory in our heart, and create a new memory and share with everyone.
Guys, thanks for giving FR for the memorable fun times we had together, the days we fight, the days we argued and many more.
I wish everyone will have good prospects in whatever you are doing, those who want to get marry, have a blissful marriage, those who want to work overseas will have the opportunity to do so. Whatever it is, i wish everyone will do well in whatever you are doing, be it in hotel industry or not in this industry.

THE LAST 2ND POST ABOUT ITE'S LIFE.

♥ 6:18 PM

blog before i leave my place. LOL
i slept at 4am in the morning, thanks to Dev and Salehan, keep messaging with me.
i messaged with Dev till like 3.30am? while Salehan, we ended around 2plus in the morning.
you guys sucks la, i want to sleep early also cannot, i'm home late though, but i still want to sleep early ok?
LOL
but anyway, i was watching channel 8 yesterday night when i got home, haha
i suddenly realised that i did not watch channel 8 for a very long time already, especially the chinese movie during saturdays, so yesterday i was watching the chinese movie. zzZz. it's just so funny when i'm watching then got advertisment in between.
it goes to show that it's really long that i never watch channel 8 etc.
HAHA.

bye dudes! going to prepare for the D&D now.
LOL

♥ 11:40 AM

just came back home not long.
morning went for my class, saw Linn while i'm walking to NLB
haha! it's so funny when i tapped on her shoulder, instead turning to the side i tapped, she turned to another side! well, she did the right thing! you know, we always play the tapping shoulder thingy. haha!

class ended a little bit late, and again, Professor Pat gave us a new assignment again :/
final project and it will mark our second module with a full stop.
and soon starting the third module in May.

after class, went to have a coffee session with my group mates, just right beside NLB, drank a lot of coffee, talked a lot too, now we know more about each other. well, Mabel said something that all of us agreed :)
around 2pm, everyone left.
as for me, went to meet up with amanda, and got this and that done.
this woman was forcing me to eat the souperlicious with her la~!
dots, anyway, in the end, we ate that, since this woman is sick ar, i need to give in to her!
LOL

ate halfway, winnie called me, asked me, "where are you?"
i'm like, "hmm i'm at city link lor, why?"
she's one funny person okay?
when i said that i'm at city link, she said that why are you there? you are coming to work huh?
i'm like HUH?! sorry hor, i'm not the one going there to work, but i know someone is at there now working lor :p
she's like arghh~!
haha, i always manage to make her so called angry. lol
then she told me that there is a slot at 7pm, i said that ok, i can pick up the tickets first since i'm not working, and she's like arghh again. haha

but in the end, she's the one who got the tickets first, as i had something cropped up so when i met up with her, it's like 6.40pm?
and the first thing i said to her when i saw her was sorry sorry, i didn't mean to be late, so sorry.
went to get drinks and we went up to the cinema.
bought nachos, well, i wanna to eat, but see her keep eating ar, i gave her everything, but i'm holding the box ar :x
the show was good though
but after the show, i keep teasing her, cause she said that she bought 3D, but it wasn't, so after the show, i'm like asking her that i thought you said that you bought is 3D?
she's also like i have no idea why it's not etc.

after the show, went to concorde hotel look for amanda, ex colleague from PPS, she's doing quite well now, 3 of us were talking a lot of crappy stuffs, and i almost wanted to tell amanda what did winnie do in the office, but winnie said that if i'm going to tell amanda, she's so going to kill me, well, she's quite violent huh, always attack me whenever i'm not alert. lol
so in the end, i did not tell amanda. haha
well,but this is so going to allow me to tease winnie everytime! wahahaha!
had our dinner at some random place near concorde hotel, well, not bad though.
after which, we were walking don't know from where till bugis.
well, what more can i say?
she kept teasing me about this and that, of course, i need to tease her back too, in the end, she turned violent to me :x
and kenneth another one funny person, winnie and i just can't stop laughing about him when he messaged her, i looked at winnie's hand phone, i really don't understand what on earth he's trying to say.

as we were walking to bugis, we talked a lot, and it's the truth that we are getting to know more about each other, and it's just so funny when she was saying my chinese name, i also keep saying her chinese name to tease her. lol
talking everything under the sun :)

anyway, i'm going out with her again next saturday :)
okay, i know, every saturday, yeah, you are right, i'm always with her.
even amanda png, also can't stand it, and asked me that why the hell you are always with her every weekend?
well, i also can't answer her anyway. lol.

♥ 12:33 AM

it's just so funny huh? lol
anyway,it's just so contridicting eh.

studying is so tedious for me. :x
never mind, 6 more months to go!
thanks amanda has been supporting me :)

it's time to decide something already.
perhaps on april 17 :)

♥ 12:22 AM

messaging with salehan, yesterday he suddenly called me while i'm on my way home with amanda, talked for awhile and we end the conversation.
now, i'm also messaging with him, well, i really can say is that, out of my guys friend, he's the only guy i know i can turn to when i know i'm not myself.
he know what i mean, thanks for lending your ears to me whenever i need.
and i trust you a lot, because you do not tell anybody about my things that i told you.

i seriously HATE people telling my things around,
example, i tell this person about this and that, this person can tell others about my things.
she/he can tell her/his GF/BF, can tell her/his family, tell his/her friends.
i seriously don't understand at all.
can't the people understand, i tell you is because i trust you that's why i tell you.
isn't it fucking easy to understand? to differeniate whether is this can be shared or not?
or is it just too hard to understand?

anyway, i won't tell anyone about my stuffs anymore, except winnie, amanda, salehan, C.Y and mirror. currently, they are the only ones i really can trust.
well, i know a lot people will ask why winnie?
i only know her like 6 months? or maybe even lesser. lol
as you know, we do not always talk to each other in the hotel etc.
well, not much people know why i can trust her,only amanda and C.Y know the reason behind it.

oh ya, a sudden thought, i dyed my hair already :)

saturday going out, next saturday also going out. so which saturday i'm not going out?

♥ 11:55 PM

Did I ever tell you - Nick Lachey

Did i ever tell you i'm better to have known you?
I don't want to leave you with the shadow of a doubt
Did i ever give you with the strength you've given me?
And how can i begin to make each moment mean the most so you will see
I never loved you more then i do today
Sometimes life just seems to get in the way

It's been too long
I want to sit down and write for you a perfect love song
I want to shout it out in a silent crowd
I want to move you in a million ways
I said to you everyday but did i ever tell you i love you that way

And did i ever tell you i'm better to have known you
I don't want to change you cause i proud of who you are
And should you ever question the pain we are going through
What i need to mention is that life just isn't living without you
You know that i want you more than anything
Sometimes i just forget to say what i mean

It's been too long
I want to sit down and write for you a perfect love song
I want to shout it out in a silent crowd
I want to move you in a million ways
I said to you everyday but did i ever tell you i love you that way

I never loved you more than i do today
Sometimes its crazy life just gets in the way

It's been too long
I want to sit down and write for you a perfect love song
I want to shout it out in a silent crowd
I want to move you in a million ways
I said to you everyday but did i ever tell you i love you that way

It's been so long
I want to sit down and write for you a perfect love song
I want to shout it out in a silent crowd
I want to move you in a million ways
I said to you everyday but did i ever tell you i love you
Did i ever tell you i love you that way?

♥ 11:03 PM

too tired to blog.
bye guys.

♥ 10:27 PM

morning breakfast with Jonathan, then went for my class then class finish do project 1st
ah hem, 1st lesson, our new lecturer gave us a new assignment.
okay, but we did manage to get it done so fast :)

after which, went to MS's starbucks to do the touch up, did manage to put everything into the excel, still need to do some changes though.

after which, i went to the suntec look for my ex-colleagues! wahaha
but too bad, quite alot of them left already :/
and the best part is my hand phone only left 2% of the battery -.-
Amanda was like looking for me everywhere
lol
i told her to straight come to suntec to look for me
then i messaged Winnie, are we still meeting, and then she straight called me, LOL
and i told her that you have to talk faster huh, cause my hand phone's battery only left 2%, anytime it might just hang up without any notice!
LOL
then she asked me go office to charge my hand phone, and i'm like are you serious?!
she said that of course serious! if not later how am i going to find you?
am i going to PA you from the concierge?
so i said that no need la, just come to suntec page for me can already
then i asked her,"who is in the office?"
she said,"only me,myself and Winnie"
LOL
in the end, i went to her office to look for her and charge my hand phone

and so Amanda accompany me to the hotel and she went off to meet, ah hem, someone!
lol
i told her that don't let me bump into you in orchard! if not you're so going to be dead beat!
haha!

reached the hotel
we talked alot!
halfway talking, i fell asleep :x
too tired after whole day of studying :)
waited for her almost an hour in the office :x
heard some noises so i woke up, and she turned her head to look at me
said,"not bad huh, still can sleep for awhile, very shiok huh?"
haha, of course very shiok, i'm just too tired! :x

after which, we were checking for the time slot for the movie, in the end, all sold out :x
wanna watch other movies, either the seats are not good or the tickets also sold out
ended up watching nothing, but next week we are going to watch the movie we wanna watch today

went to orchard, wanna settle dinner over there, but it's just too packed with TONS OF PEOPLE! walked from 313 to taka, it's raining, and i'm holding the umbrella covering you and me, while you hold onto my hand as we were walking down along the road.
in the end, we are still unable to settle our dinner in town, ended up in east coast park
LOL
because we were walking in the food opera and out of the sudden, you're craving for satays!
so we went there. lol
it took quite sometime before we reach there, we were calling for help, how to go there for orchard! in the end, joesph was the one who helped us! haha!
ex-chef concierge from Pan Pacific Sing!
LOL
and then, finally we reached the place!
got the satays and rojak! haha
like finally!
but the satays were so tough! :x
and both of us were scolding kenneth, because he's the one who told us that stall is nice
lol
during the dinner or maybe can consider supper time, we talked alot!
haha! it's just so funny that you always can't win me! :D
around 12am, we left the place, took a cab back, and i sent you back before i head back to my own place :)

i really enjoyed my day with you! it's really that after i leave the place, both of us keep going out together.
i did ask you whether did you go out with other trainees like what we are doing now, watching movies, lunch/dinner together, you said no.
there's only one time that you brought the overseas trainee to the malay wedding to let her experience the local culture
but like us, you said no.

anyway, next week we are meeting again ;)
so see ya soon!

♥ 1:45 AM

i'm falling apart ever since..
i'm really speechless with everything
on my way home earlier on with amanda, told her a lot of things, she understand what i mean, and she did try to talk me out, but it's like if the thing had happened already, do you think anyone can make a change on it?
even i myself also can't do anything to change the fact.

i'm really very sick and tired of everything.
why am i always trying so hard to protect myself?
it's not i've never been hurt before, it's not like i've never been cheated before etc.
i don't deny that at times, i'm super dumb.
even i can't believe i'm actually so dumb.
but most of the time, i tried to cover up myself well, in order not to let myself to get hurt.
but what hurts the most?
i also have no idea.
be it family problems, friends problems, work problems or love problem.
i really have no idea what i'm doing now.
i'm just losing myself.
leaving me hanging alone on the edge of the cliff.
no one is able to pull me up from it.
so just leave me alone.

♥ 9:53 PM

F1 season again!
dawn called me the other day when i'm doing my clearance, half way doing it, i went out PIE and talked on the phone~!
haha!
talking on the phone almost half an hour!
lol
okay, i had mass sent out the message you wanna me pass around!
see ya on thursday!
oh gosh!
almost everyone are going for this gathering! :D

i'm still thinking should i change to iPhone or HTC?
LOL
iPhone so commoooooooooooooooon! everywhere i go i see people using iPhone
well, but we can't deny iPhone's applications is so much better than other phones, that's why it's so popular~


WZ asked me the other day when we were having lunch, why you never change to iPhone huh? all the trainees are using iPhone but not you.
lol
at that point of course you want me to use iPhone because easy for us to check the movie time slot, tsktsktsk.
so we do not need to steal some random newspaper out of nowhere, you stole the papers and asked me to keep it. lol
so now i'm the thief :/

♥ 2:58 PM

had a long chat with Dev in the PDR yesterday, thanks for giving me some ideas to it.
i know you are very shocked too, well, not only you are the one giving me that look.
lol
even salehan too. haha!

anyway, recently things are going well, and everything seem to be in the right way i want it in to be :)
life is just too sweet now even without adding sugar into the black coffee :)
i'm lovin' it

can't wait to watch Clash of the Titans and How to train you dragon in 3D!
soooooooooon!
saturday? i think so :)

perhaps give me some time before i tell you this thingy :)

♥ 11:23 AM