e real blogger is bz again
i dunno she's bz wif wat =(
always bz bz bz tsktsktsk
*boo* when will she stop bein bz?
can anyone tell me?

she had her OAI today
FYI, OAI = overseas attachment interview
hope this dumb dumb will get in
but if get in, she will leave spore for half yr
oh my ="(

♥ 8:00 PM

woo hoo..manage to blog for awhile
lol
gonna go off soon
i'm in school not at home O.O"
uploading videos so decided drop in to my own bloggie :D

shall make a short post then.

thxs to my friend help me update
but kinda of "short" update i think?
anyway, i'm flying off soon
real soon
gonna buy a lot of snacks back requested by AMANDA P N G
lol
as i'm not in school for the final year event so this shall be their rewards =x

anyway, after i'm back from HK, i will more FREAKING BUSY
because my schedule is out again
okay, this schedule is i do for myself
i always do that anyway
my organiser is getting more & more no space ='(
anyone kind enough to buy me a new one? >.<"
haha
i don't mind :D :D :D :D :D

anyway, blog till here then, gonna go liao.

♥ 12:49 PM

i'm nt e real blogger
the real blogger is talking on the phone with me and she's doing her FREAKING videos tat her sir asked her to do so
*tsktsktsk*

so i decided to help her blog as she's so freaking bz
as the blogger is so SAD that she won't have time to blog even though she's usin her lappy
=XXXXXXX

she has been out for the past 1 whole wk due to e FYE and work
FYI, FYE = final yr event
it's her final yr alr, that fast isnt it?
but tis dumb dumb will b out of town to enjoy
she will b in HK

what a gd student she is. O.O"
hah
tat's y she has been following her GM, amanda all around spore juz to buy FYE's thingy

at least she's kind to follow her k?
for wat i noe tis dumb dumb, she's nt a person who will nt follow ppl everywhere
even though is her final yr, and she will b in HK
tat doesn't giv her a reason to do all these

is bcoz her class din follow them to go buy
and esp tdy, when amanda ask her to msg to the gals to ask Q, some replied and some din and some even ~~~~~~
i guess onli she n i n her GM noe wat is it

so for heaven's sake, can don bully tis dumb dumb?
ok, she don look like she will b e one who kena bully -.-"

i feel so heart pain for her okie?
she has been walkin n walkin for e past 1 wk, or mayb even more
tis had caused her leg's injures WORSEN
yes, it gotten worse
n she had skipped one of e seesion she supposed to go for e treatment

if u guys r her frzs, can u all juz chase her to go for e session?
even though she might nt listen =/

anw, stop here at e moment, if nt i'm nt able to concentrate on wat she's talkin over e phone

anw,i'm her frz :D
so close yet so far
waitin 4 u

♥ 11:59 PM

if you were me, would you want me to ask you the question?
you, yourself is already in the confused mind, so what makes you think i'm not?

i'm as confused as you are
not only me, practically everyone are so so confused like you and me

so why you thought i would ask you the question?
there are times where i wanna ask you
but i hold back
you should know the answer

anyway, if you wanna me ask you the question, why not you take the 1st move to ask me?

- updates about myself -

past few days i was freaking BUSY
everday work, if not, i'm out with amanda to hunt for our final year event's thingy
*BOO* stop "threatening" me about i'm going hong kong, that's why i have to follow you hor
tsktsktsk~~

LOL
what i remember the most is, yesterday we went to bugis to hunt for the stuffs
fang was with us too
amanda, fang & myself ^^
i bet no one has been like us
spend almost half of the day just only Bugis Street & Haji Lane
LOL

bought door gifts and the geek glasses too O.O"
is really damm geeky -.-"
we managed to buy amanda's, jacky's & rizal's
now left with the others
tomorrow i'm gonna accompany her again
gonna wait for her finish work then can go buy
LOL

never mind, tomorrow i'm gonna wake up at 8plus go all the way to Thomson for my breakfast
tsktsktsk
then from there will straight go meet amanda -.-

gonna buy shoes, top & bottom for them
woo hoo, amanda & i gonna hands break & legs break -.-"
SHOES
how freaking heavy?
we are gonna buy 14 pair -.-"
TOP & BOTTOM
gonna buy like 1 dozen

hope everything will turn out well

anyway, i will stop blogging for quite sometime
either before i out of town or after i come back then blog

bye bye

♥ 9:00 PM

it took me so long man
but i chose to smile in the end
because i don't feel anything now
no matter what you said or what you did

smile because you once cherished it
cry because you once had it

well, i'm so happy with myself because i actually did it
it took such a long time before i realised it
but i did it
if i'm able to do it, you guys will be able to do it too.

i smile now because i know
i smile because i don't feel it already
i smile because i know i have...

well, now i will smile because i got myself back to the very 1st time i was

anyway, i'm so relieved now
i've never felt this way before till today.

thank you for the things you had done. ( even though you did not do much, i think? LOL )

♥ 11:01 PM

bad times everyone had it before
good times everyone had it before
so what kind of times that everyone do not have it before?

how do you define good/bad times?
how do you know this is good or bad times?
how do you know that good times will last long?
how do you know after good times followed after bad time?

many of "how do you know"
but it's just all bullshit
if you know what is going on after next, then things won't happen in the 1st place

what makes people hurt the most?
what makes people hate the most?

everyone had their own definition in their own heart
but mine

bye guys

♥ 2:32 PM

the answer will be revealed soon
the key to the answer
the key to the end of the it

the end is the scene we are looking at
the process once overlooked
the process is not important to anyone already
once hold the process, once miss the process
it just hurts so much

whatever there is anything said out or actions show out, is just pouring more and more salt over the wound so just leave it alone
whether will it heals or not, the answer is don't know

anyway, above whatever i'm writing
i'm saying about myself.

♥ 2:16 AM

why does this sounds so complicated when it should not be?
i'm getting so so blur with it already -.-"
anyway, i don't give a damm to it okay?

- saturday -
went out like around 2pm
ohmy, i'm supposed to be the one who late, in the end, i'm the earliest =/
mingyi came, then charlene & yuguang
we walked to MFM, marvin & shiyuan went there straight
ate a lot i think?
LOL
MFM is really much more better than F&C
but F&C portion much more lor -.-"

anyway, both are selling good food la =)
then went to YMCA play pool
lol
mingyi was forced to play pool
wahahahahahahaha!
anyway, we did have a great time

followed by afterglow
wao, we talked a lot a lot and the guys aate A LOT
i seriously mean it.
is A LOT
O.O"
while me, i keep drinking the dessert ^^
very very NICE
LOL
we watched the videos during the camp & saw the pictures ^^V

stacy from another group actually wrote a song for this Ycamp
a song that filled with hope and happiness
she sang for us
the song is so touching & meaningful
throughout the singing, i was thinking a lot a lot of things
the song brought me back to the past
the song reminded me of something

but still, the song is very touching and meaningful

during afterglow, we took tons and tons of pictures ^^
but i haven't upload as i'm super freaking BUSY -.-"
we were singing, talking and cam-whore O.O"
LOL

got home like 11pm
damm late i know
as i have to wake up bright early for the next day. -.-"

-sunday-
woke up bright early
ate my breakfast & prepare for work ^^
the whole day was damm chaotic
lol
but very fun
then do a lot of things
then drink a lot too
then message a lot too
LOL
i think if 1 day i don't have my phone, hmm, i don't know what will i do =/

then i got home super super late
haiz
damm damm tire, and now i'm here blogging -.-
i doubt i will zzZz-ing early lor =/

end of the 2 days posts.
LOL

back to normal blogging
it's seem so dry now leh
why huh?
i don't know, you don't know and no one knows huh?i think?
i hate contradictor even though there are times i'm like that
but at least i know when to stop contradicting, i think? =/
recently, i fell in love with 2 english songs
these 2 songs let me think a lot
i seriously mean it
is really a lot
why these 2 songs are so so full of meaning?
it makes people think a lot

hmm..i'm having headaches now, i'm getting old
my memory getting slower and slower
symptoms of old age =/
='(

i'm old okay i know
i do not want to think anymore
i just want to enjoy whatever i'm doing now
bye guys.

♥ 1:30 AM

okay, finally back to blogging again ^^
it's been ages that i'm not updating -.-"

LOL
okay, not ages but a few days la =/
let me think what i'm doing for the past few days

hmm..what i remember is that thursday, after school amanda & i went to SGP to sign out contract, alieen was there already
ohmygod, it's been a long time before we met up or what. lol
sam was there too
ohmygod, amanda & i could not regconize sam at all
she's so lady-like
lol
haha

saw jas, jay etc etc
jas is so so FUNNY
we just can't stop laughing at her
HAHA
and the moment she saw me she said to me,"hey u on diet ar.?why u look so much slimmer then that time.?"
HAHA
i will take that as a compliment :D

ohmygod, F1 is coming ^^

then after signing the contract, amanda went off 1st while alieen & i stayed behind, waiting for sam go we can go back together. =)

- end of thursday -

friday, school as usual
ended quite early, went to PP with amanda & fionna to buy bag
i bought bag for amanda and she bought me a bag
lol
our birthday present for each other
haha
so funny

then fionna & i went to orchard to meet up the rest to eat
eat finish they went to SGP to sign the contract, and i have to wait for fionna, gerald, eric & dawei
cause after they sign their contract 5 of us have to go for our another job briefing
and i waited almost an hour
my friend came over to accompany me till 7.45pm
and then i, alone, myself waited for them for almost an hour
saw jacky, then stuart then justin
LOL
then finally when they came down i was like damm piss off la =/
i'm so not used to wait for people that long okay?
so i pass my bag to eric and my lappy bag to dawei
i kept talking on the phone till they came down and my phone was like 20% batt only

then we proceed to orchard tower for the job briefing, well, the job pay is good
$50 if we mange to get a couple to go for the talk
isn't it so nice?

but is kinda a hard job
can say easy but not that easy -.-"
very hard to describe about the job
but we know by working this, we can earn a lot ^^ ^^ ^^
HAHA
i wanna EARN EARN EARN TONS AND TONS OF MONEY
lol

anyway, i'm still facing a big struggle to stay in singapore or go overseas attachment =/

♥ 9:18 AM

i'm back to blogging again. ^^

it's seem i'm blogging everyday isn't it.?
it's good okay, isn't it good to update everyday that what you had done, what is your reflection, etc...?
LOL
sounds do serious. -.-"

anyway, i end-ed school today damm damm early
HAHA
like 11am i think.?
but i wait-ed in school for the videos thingy thingy
HAHA
and amanda of course she won't be running away, because i dragg-ed her to accompany. :x

but we kinda of wasted of our time.
sigh
well, anyway, we hand-ed in our MPC project already.

around 12pm, we left and i met Tanya at MRT station
amanda kena tricked by to to the station
haha
anyway, you are been trick-ed la

and we went to the gym
woo hoo, it's been a long time that i went to the gym
work out etc....

then i went to blk 200plus to buy something
lol
all the way i go down there, okay la, at least i'm still that area
bought a lot of things back home
LOL

tomorrow is my service day
HAHA
i'm gonna service halfway and i will shoo from the place
because i got an interview
at Raffles Hotel
lol

anyway, blog till here
i'm so so out of my mind
because i'm super high
LOL
i'm crazy -.-"

oh my god! you are INSANE!

♥ 7:14 PM

today : AWESOME DAY.!
shall not talk much about it

because as usual i will blog about Saturday [ always 1 day later ] (opps my fault ) -.-"

[ Saturday ]
woke up 8am, just to use my lappy -.-
because i wanna send email to Nana about the project, but somehow, my idiot LAPPY something went wrong, in the end cannot send. *BOO BOO BOO*
useless lappy * BOO * tsktsktsk

anyway, i'm changing my lappy soon
mama say will sponsor me. :D
HAHA
but not now. =(
but better than nothing okay.? =)

back to Saturday again
so in the end did not send the email, i went to prepare for my outing le
went out around 11am -.-"
damm tire okay?
practically i did not sleep at all
only slept for 2hours

went to city hall, for FBMA event, well alex was late -.-"
kenneth & i was there already, followed by kahwee & ron
3 new members were there already

anyway, meet up with everyone and off we go to the hotel for the welcoming lunch
well, the lunch was nice. =)
food was nice :D
i sat with ron & daphne
but we were like walking around to talk to everyone
because we were told to do so.?i think.? o_o
but we manage to know a lot of new people

and my wife keep telling daphne i'm her wife, daphne was telling her, so what, i'm not gonna snatch her
lol
we were laughing away lor -.-"
okay, my wife is getting funny & funny liao
idontknowhowtosay : /

then after the lunch, i went off 1st to meet up with my girls
ohmygod, i bet everyone had never seen such a BIG FAT HAMSTER BEFORE
LOL
only a few know what i mean ar
then emily came to meet me to get her stuffs

then off we go for our movie session, i fell asleep in the front part, ohmygod -.-"
this shows how tire i am okay.?
HAHA
but i woke up half way, because my friend message to me, Amanda also message me with don't know what thing ar
i'm having a bad memory now, old already ar
then here i go, i watched the movie all the way till the end.

after the movie, we went for our dinner
hehe
pepper lunch
well well well, NICE FOOD AR
we took tons of pictures during our dinner ^^
as if we are tourists
LOL

till 9plus then leave
around 10 or 10plus got home, don't really remember
then send email to Nana, finally SEND okay?
stupid lappy. : /

then i was doing stuffs again, okay i don't really remember la
i'm seriously having the symptoms of the old age. ='(

tomorrow school
muhahaha
i'm not having service, as group 2 having it 1st as usual
so i guess, i think group 1 will end school early
and here i go off to the GYM
finally.!

bye guys, will update again

♥ 10:54 PM

what's wrong with the reasonable thingy.?
seriously i don't understand okay.?
so i will either just ignore it or just continue arguing over it.?
But neither i will.

what do you want me to say or to do when things can't be turned back.?
you know it well, even better than me
but why do you do things that really really *?

you don't even deserve any chance from her

- life is too short to do anything but stay happy always -




anyway, whatever you wanna say i also can't do anything
okay, are we still kinda of fighting or arguing over it.?
whatever it is, just stop it and get over it

i've tried my best
i've tried everything
i've tried to

but it turns out to be .
so just .
should i just.?

[ 10 july ]
woke up bright early to have breakfast with Nana
the one who so-called pon school was early, the one who's going to school was late. :/
LOL
in the end she had her breakfast while i did not :x
then after that i got back home, bath-ed and ate a little before i went out again
went to RJC
meet up with mingyi
then etc etc etc

went to watch Duplicity
the movie was so FUNNY
after that we bought the stuffs and proceed to Charlene's place
2 of us were the 1st to reach there

Huiling got there around 4plus i guess/think.?
Then Ziai
we went to the BBQ pit
after awhile Vinna & Marvin was the 1st to reach ( the 1st guy who came here ) LOL
then Yiliang & Shiyuan
we start setting the fire, etc etc

we start BBQ-ing ^^
don't know break what wings
lol
then we bbq-ing the golden mushroom ^^
then Lisa was here around 7plus i think.?

we start eating & eating & eating
then around 8plus 9pm, we start drinking
Charmaine left 1st

we start playing games, and everyone just keep drinking & drinking
okay, the game was funny is " i never ~~~"
just continue on
example, "i never been JC before"
so those who have been JC before have to drink
that's what i said anyway
in order to make everyone drink :x
LOL
i think i drank a lot man
but i'm not drunk
half way of the game, Jasmine, Charmaine & her friend got here too
then Ziai left
followed by Mingyi
as the time is getting later

after they left we continue playing
oh my god, we were seriously INSANE
we mixed Gray Goose & Peach Vodka together with lemon Barley
anyway, the taste turn out to be very nice

but is like 2 40% vodka we mixed so actually how high the acl is you can think by yourself
LOL
and Marvin was DRUNK
thanks to Huiling, because she wants to see what he will do when he's drunk
and yiliang took a video of it
OHMYGOD :x

a drunkard will always do things that really surprised you, i guess?
but he was slightly better after he puke out everything
and then we were still drinking but Marvin wasn't already
Charlene was tired, jasmine left 1st
Charmaine & her friend help to clear up the place
yiliang was taking care of Marvin
And this Marvinn gave Shiyuan drink a pure vodka
and now it's Shiyuan's turn to be drunk

Charmaine have to send him home, as they cabbed back together
yiliang send Charmaine's fried home as they both lived very near
and yiliang drives
it makes me so jealous :x
i wanna DRIVE DRIVE DRIVE
i will make it by till further notice
LOL

then i have to send Huiling & Marvin home
ohmygod
huiling started dizzy after she got out of there
ohmygod, so it makes 2 drunkard
LOL
we cabbed together as 3 of us live super near
but we cabbed to Amanda's place 1st as she want the papers from me
so the cab went all the way up and all the way down again
LOL

then huiling got home 1st, followed by Marvin
and last but not the least, i got home safely after sending 2 drunkards back :/
LOL

then i woke up bright early to morning call Charlene
then now i'm in here blogging before i'm going out
damm it
tomorrow i'm going out again
so i did not get a day to rest at home
SHIT
LOL
anyway, i shall blog till here

i will update another post about the overseas attachment when i'm free.

♥ 9:22 AM

hmm..i remember what i wanna write yesterday already. -.-"
P.S: i'm having STM, so pardon me if i'm a bit slow modeeeeeeeeeee. -.-""

the other day i blogg-ed about that there are people tend to break & there are people tend to keep.

though i said that i wish i'm the person who break, but of course, i won't okay.?
LOL

to me, i won't break promises because the reasons why i'm keeping to it ( don't ask me ) i can say is worth for keeping it.

a good pretender.
thank you but not thank you.
i'm so surprised.

but there is a thing that won't change from the beginning till the end.

♥ 8:27 PM

i'm really trying very hard to do the best i can do, but it seem so hard?
why? i don't understand
many many things are getting out of control

seriously, it took me 1 year before i realised you are a bitch
am i stupid or dumb?
maybe i'm both
i do not like myself at times, as i'm really dumb in seeing people

thanks to wawa & monsterhl today messaged with me, i do feel better, even though i'm still~~

to her, ( my friend only not gf ar ), you always say i'm dumb, hmm, i guess till now you are the only who always say i'm dumb/stupid/idiot
i know you say like that is because you are afraid i'm * again
that's why you are protecting me whenever i tell you this & that
as in telling me not to ~~~~
i know i know

why human beings are fakers.?
promises are meant to be broken and trust are meant to destroy by people

i always wonder why i have to keep my promises when people always break the promises?
well, i guess this is life isn't it?
there are people tend to break while there are people tend to keep

well, then can i be the person who break promises rather than keeping it?
it hurts so MUCH, if you are keeping to your promise.

well, i have something to write, but i forgot what is the thing.
i wil write if i remember.

♥ 7:58 PM

okay, this shall be a long post i think.?

it's been 3 -4 days i did not update already.
beside working, went out almost everyday after work. -.-

i forget where did i go. -.-"
brain is totally dead. ( due to over-working )

but i know that saturday, i went out with Mingyi & Lisa
Huiling couldn't come due to recession. ( she knows what i mean )

so only left 3 of us
we were walking and walking and walking till we reached PS
then we had our dinner, and Lisa went off earlier
left me and Mingyi only

we went to Cathay's Starbucks and slack-ed
till almost 9.30pm
woo hoo, very late hor.?
LOL

drank one of my favourite drink, mingyi drank once was my favourite drink
and and we sat outside and chit-chatting
LOL
oh my god, we spoke like almost 3hours. -.-"
damm long right?
i almost fell asleep i think.?

halfway of the conversation, i called the security cab
lol
to check my cab number and pick up time
lol
the person who picked up my call was super funny. O.O"

then after that we were still talking
LOL
can talk so long wor. :D
too bad, Lisa & Huiling wasn't there. D:

anyway, there is always another outing for 4 of us =)
frankly speaking, this is my 1st time camp, as in after camp, i still contact the people
strangers at 1st, friends at end

isn't it a fate to know people at different ages, different background, etc.?
so i will cherish you guys
lol
sounds like i'm typing my last words. -.-"
well, i'm not, this is just my thinking's as i'm typing out all this. =)

actually the past few days, i haven't been sleeping well
my head is heavy, i feel so so weak
i guess due to over-working
after camp, the next day i straight start work already
till now

anyway, i shall blog about F1 job now.!
the job was awesome.!
other than some hip-cups
well, shall not talk about the hip-cups ar

the job was so funny, i keep "driving" around, only those who worked with me
shhh~~~
i will feel paiseh ar, though i look-ed like a KID when i'm "driving"
then we always talk-ed craps
lol
Both J were damm FUNNY
Juan, Emily & i can't help stop laughing, i think.?

and we officially afraid of white now
-.-"
afraid of many many things
LOL
but we were so relaxing when we were working
so funny, i had to bring my speakers down
but then, the speakers seem so useless. -.-"

anyway, the whole F1 job was fun & i miss you girls
oh ya, they were keep laughing at me, because of my nose is kinda of sunburn
and it was SUPER RED

anyway, this is a brief description of my F1 job
will update more on AYG once i'm more free

♥ 7:38 PM

okay super short post for today

i've been working for the past few days for Asian Youth Games (AYG)
at Swissotel
well, the job was totally screwed up -.-

bad job, cut short to say
kinda of regret after signing up for the job
but overall, it's still fun
i guess i kinda miss out a lot of posts about my camp & F1 job
well, shall update more about that when i have longer time
as i'm going to oink oink now

cause cause i'm working 6am tomorrow morning
and i have to wake up at 4am
siao liao T_T

die die die
2days in the office keep do polishing
but at least i survived over it okay? lol -.-

saturday meeting the girls
woo hoo...anyway, the outing either on saturday or sunday lor
LOL

i'm dead beat
kill me now. -.-

:x

and i'm sick T_T

more die
-.-

update soon.....=)

♥ 9:36 PM