looking back for the past 21 years, everything seems to have an ending, though it might not turned out to be.
i just turned 21 year old 2days ago.
looking back into the past, a lot of things changed.
okay, it sounds so funny right?
as in looking back for the past 21 years. lol
because when i'm a baby, i do not know anything.
well, then i shall put it in this way, looking back from the moment when i start to have my own mindset/thinking.
ever since i have my own thinking, a lot of things tend to change.
my character, my attitude etc.
turning 21 it means adulthood, no more childhood or anymore silly thoughts or some kid's mindset.
and last but not the least, i have to see things even more further in the future.
21, you have to think your own life what do you want to achieve in your own career.
i'm glad that i do know very well what do i want in my life.
but will i achieve it, it's still a question mark for me and for the others too.
there are times whereby i will think, is there any possibility that i'm not brought into this world?
or even when i'm brought into this world, i might not be what i am now.
i agree with my friend that why bring new ones into this evil world?
sad to say, this world is so far evil than anyone can think of.
betrayal, lies, backstabbing etc etc.
this world is just so materialistic!
and there are times where i'm really felt so disgusted by this world, be it the way how people act or the matters happen surrounding me or my friends.
anyway, the rest of my thoughts will just remain in my mind, no point saying it out to people who do not understand. but i guess there is only 1 person will understand my thoughts who is..
for me to know and for you to find out.
just now i was msn-ing with alex, he told me a lot of things, well, is it the truth?
i also have no idea
to each its own.
perhaps when i leave this hotel, it won't be like this anymore.
and of course i know what are you trying to say and trying to tell me.
i know everyone are having the same feeling when it comes to this matter
and even see it differently, but to me, i really don't care.
anyway, i treats it very sincerely, i hope it won't turn out to be a bad one.
if not, i'm the one who's gonna be hurt.
and trust me, if i'm gonna be hurt by this matter
i won't let anyone to find me anymore.
i will just go back to where i am from.
except CY la, the only person on this earht who always manage to find me.
bloody hell~!
lol
anyway, i hope it will be a good one.