whole day i was with kiddo
met up with kiddo at AMK hub
watched Julia & Julie
it's a nice movie based on true story
this movie had enlightened me a lot.
it had taught me something
the whole movie, kiddo was lying on me and i'm hugging kiddo throughout the show
isn't it sweet?o.o
this is sweet right?
but why do i feel my heart so sour?
because everytime when i hug kiddo, i will be reminded of something
something that i wish i won't remember at all
better still, take it away from my mind
but i know it will be there so long when i'm with kiddo
when i sent you home just now, i asked you,"what if i ask you to kiss me?"
you said,"oh okay"
then i said,"it's only a question, i won't really ask you to do it."
you said,"doshite?"
i said,"because you have a boyfriend, so i won't want you to kiss me, but i'm single so i can kiss you."
you kept quiet
why?
i love you more than i can say
yesterday when we were outside, i did not bring enough money that you have to use your's
frankly speaking, i do not want you to use your money when you're with me
you said it's okay to use your own money
but to me, i won't want you to use it
when i'm with you, i help you pay is because i respect you as a girl
and i should be the one to pay for you as this is called gentleman
especially when i'm in love with you, the more i should pay for you.
my mind is in a mess
i'm speechless and lost in this matter
i don't know how to handle it anymore
this is beyond my control
i told you before that this is my 1st time i love someone till i lost myself
because when i'm with you, i don't know what to do
because my mind will keep telling me that i could not do anything as you have a boyfriend
i'm so proud to say that i love you
but i'm also disappointed with myself
i'm just stuck in this matter
a matter that i can't find a word to describe what is it about
love or friendship or kinship?
i really have no idea
i hope someone will be able to help me to get out of this mess
but i know there is no one can help but myself
i miss mirror
mirror, do call me ASAP
i have so many things to tell you.