going out soon after i blog finish =]
now what i'm going to blog, is my personal life
i am irrational in everything and lost in everything
well, this story i shall start on monday, 12 October 2009
the 1st day of my attachment
i promised kiddo that i will send her home after work, but i saw my sister in the train, in the end i did not send kiddo back, and i asked her to ask her boyfriend to send, and she did ask.
somehow i felt very down, i don't know why
i don't feel jealous but down.
then she messaged me after she alighted the train
and i replied back
and somehow that was when i really began my irrational
i tell her that i really want to send you home everyday, but i know i cannot be selfish because you have a boyfriend, and you should spend more time with him then me, can you just answer me whether can i send you home everyday, please don't tell me is up to me.
and she replied that i can send her home everyday
and i asked her again are you very sure?are you really very sure i can send everyday?you rather spend time with me?
and she replied she's very sure
then the following day, i start to blame on myself, why do i behave in this manner?why did i become so irrational?
and i really become very weird
i became very quiet, i don't know what to talk when i face her, i don't know what to do when i'm with her.
and that was when we really never hug so often and i did not kiss her so often too
then in the night she messaged me, i told her i'm surprised that she messaged me, because usually after i sent her home,she will message me
but that day she did not message
so i told her i thought you won't message me anymore
i began to be irrational
i really don't like the way how i behave now
and i do not want to be like that
and so i asked her are we still be able to remain the same after all these?
she asked me back do you want to remain the same?o.o
story to be continued....