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don't rely on me.
i'm your soul.



A.O.Z.Y does not belong to here
no one can understand me, so don't bother to understand me then.
I'm utterly dead, and won't be revive.
no one is here to save.

Desires

tops & bottoms
HP


hearts talking.



alternative exits.

Amanda
nana :D
my friend
my puppy

my days, not yours.

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thank you.

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Tuesday, September 1, 2009

fool me once, shame on you, shame me twice, shame on me

this sentence has been constantly appearing in my mind
one day, two day, three day.....
continuously, repeating days
causing my head to be so pain and spinning like hell

i'm getting quiet and quieter as days pass
why?
i don't know
i don't know

why does it hurt so so much?
this hurt is even worse than my <3 had given me before
why?

apparently, everything are false
the feeling of trust, i can't find it anymore
not in my body and not in my heart
i'm idiot, i'm dumb, i'm stupid
thanks

perhaps you are right, it's hard
perhaps i'm wrong, it's easy

this is what i thought at first, it is easy
but it turns out not to be

is it really very hard?
ya i think so
sometimes, i would asked myself, is it hard?
or is it really unable to do so?

i did try my best before
but it turns out to be a hurtful memory

so ya.
i guess, i'm just gonna hide myself up.
so ya
thanks once again
for pushing me back to the edge leaving me all alone behind facing the dark again.

nothing can salvage the mess you had create, so ya
just say bye bye if you have the courage to do it


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