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don't rely on me.
i'm your soul.



A.O.Z.Y does not belong to here
no one can understand me, so don't bother to understand me then.
I'm utterly dead, and won't be revive.
no one is here to save.

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Friday, June 12, 2009

if by fulfilling the promises that you had made before, what makes you think that you can salvage the whole situation.?
what's the point of fulfilling the promises after i had chose this way?
this is life, there is no turn back already.
you once said that i chose this way because you did not say what you mean.
not only because of this, i chose this way
life is to move on, not to look back
before i chose this way, you said to me that no looking back
you are the one who taught me that in life, there is no turn back, but now you are the one who are doing things to make me turn back and look at you.

what's the point?
what's the point of doing things where i had said long long time ago?
when you could have actually done it earlier, but you chose not to.

my dear, what i can say to you now is that, though you may not be the one who hurt me the most, but still, you had stabbed me inside deep down in my heart.

to me, i won't turn back and look into my past
i may not be a 100% perfect person, but the least i know what i had done was, whatever i had promised you, i had done already and deep down you know how much i had gone through before i could fulfill it.
the process was tough, you know it well in your heart

do you know how hurt i am?
how pain i feel?

after all these, i chose to leave
yet you chose to hold on to the past, fulfilling the promises you once made for me
i'm not blind, i saw everything
but what do you want me to do?
you know that once i'm gone, i'm gone for good

if promises had done at that time, things would be different
but you chose to fulfill after i said my pieces out, why?
what's the point of saying sorry, when you keep repeating the same mistake?
i have been saying this sentence since long long time ago
but you still don't get it

what i can say now is that, no matter what you have done, is pointless
no point salvage a relationship after knowing that you can't commit into
don't you find that now, we are more like strangers already?
i don't dare to say i can 100% commit, but you saw my commitment in it
whatever i said i will do for you, i did
what about you?
and you are the one who don't trusted me 1st
i gave you all my trust, but you betrayed my trust

i had assured you my everything, but you?
my dear, focus on your studies now, don't do things that you had foresee the outcome.
no point
i won't be stepping back again
i'll move on
and i'm moving on now
i'm not holding to the past and in fact i had gotten over it already
so just stop everything whatever you are doing now

just move on
don't look back
you will find a better one.
i will give my blessings to you
for me, i will have my partner to love and care for me and share mine ups & down together

so you'll just move on.....do not look into the past.


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