请告诉她 我不爱他
笑著难过 自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心 说真心谎话
别告诉她 我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默 代替所有回答
我才终于明白 办不到的承诺
就成了枷锁
This is a song sang by JJ Lin.
A part from the lyrics i copy and paste here, i love this part, so i sharing with you guys, but I'm not putting this song as my blog song.
I suddenly think of a matter, a super super funny matter that happened yesterday at my friend's house, kinda of some "idiotic" stuffs, i think so..?ah huh???!!
I need to fulfill my promises that i made ASAP..??
I need to do a lot of things in the next 2 months..??
I need to think of a way out for the next 1 month..??
I need to think seriously about this matter..??
I need to get this for myself as birthday present..??
I need to find LOVE??? LOL!!!!!!!! HAHA (just crapping around)
Well, i guess sometimes when you're alone, what will you think of? A person or a matter?
When you's are alone, what will you think of? A person who always manage to cheer you up?
When you're alone,what will you think of? A person that you never thought you will think?
When I'm alone, i will think of a lot of things, happy or unhappy all have, this is a phase of my life, there are always unhappy stuffs surrounding me, of course there are happy stuffs too.
A phase where i need to reset my thoughts and my mindset. How i wish i can be like others that don't think a lot, but i knew i cannot, a lot of things i have seen it by myself, by my own eyes, how i wish i do not need to witness all this, but i knew i cannot, surrounding does not allow me to do so.
I'm just a normal human-being, but because of something, it changes my whole life, whereby i seen the humans' evil side, a dirty part of them, made me feel so disgusted with the reality, even though i, myself maybe belong to them too, but this is in order to protect myself.
I simply feel so disheartened and disgusted with the ways how they act. A part where everyone do not like to see.
But i see everything, i kept quiet, i remained silence, i remained calm & i stayed away from them. But you never know what I'm thinking, because I'm able to hide from everyone, you might think I'm a kind of this person or that kind of person. But who knows the truth? What kind of person i am? I might don't even know for myself
Well, from today onwards, i will just keep to myself and i shall allow no one to hurt or lie to me. If i find out someone lies, you will be a no friend of mine, and i really mean it, i realised that in the past, I am really really too soft-hearted.
The night where everybody are sleeping soundly,
there is a person, who don't sleeps
there is a person, the mind is floating
there is a person, the heart is painful
and no one is there to give a hand,
and pushes away from the person;
thus the person is hurt,
and locked up ever since then;
never let go of anything,
never said anything,
but simply just stay away from everyone.