<3 is an illusion

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don't rely on me.

A.O.Z.Y does not belong to here
no one can understand me, so don't bother to understand me then.
I'm utterly dead, and won't be revive.
no one is here to save.

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Wednesday, May 21, 2008

on 20/5/08, i found out something..something which i sld nt noe it at all. sld nt even bother it at all..but wat to do?im e onli 1 who noe tis till nw..my head is pain, my chest is tight..n wat i can sae is tat i cant eat anything nw..wat i eat, i will vomit out..i can onli sae tis matter had seriously hurt me. 1 word to sae HEART-BREAKING. this is true..Take my words 4 real, im gonna change, how i behave in e past, u guys can slowly see it..in e past,how big e matters, i wont feel im hurt or feel sad. but tis time, tis matter had seriously hurt me deeply n 4eva is a thorn in my heart. i wont 4get abt tis matter. slap myself,hit against e walls,cut myself n etc..tis r small case. trust me i can do even more crazier things. i had 4get how to cry alr. but bcoz of tis matter, it's remind me when was e last time i cried. 8yrs ago..?ya..8yrs ago i cried e last bcoz of heart-breakin matter. n ever since den i had stopped cryin till nw, but still i cant run away wat is meant to b happen. but bcoz of tis matter, i cried again, izzit tryin to ask me how to learn to cry again..? trust me. i will stop how to cry again

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